Diaries
Chapter 11
Mark’s journal

May 6, 2000 – Philippines

Today’s our last night here, and later on in the evening we’ll be having our concert here for the very first time. I am quite excited, coz I’m dead curious to know what our Philippines fans are like when it comes to giving a reaction to our concerts… well, not that I really need to guess or something. It’s probably all screaming and pushing and stuff like in other countries.

It’s not only that concert tonight that makes this day special. Later on in the afternoon, I’m going to ask Jenny out. I have absolutely no idea where I’m going to take her, maybe we could just take a walk or something. I’m really psyched! Yeah, if you’re wondering if I’m starting to fall for her, the answer is: not really. I think it’s more of physical attraction that’s kicking in. Well, as I’ve always said, who knows? Maybe after tonight, things will change and I could have developed feelings for her by then.


Bryan’s journal

Saturday, May 6, 2000

I’m going out of my mind! Last night was… incredible! Well, I said I was going over to her room right? Well, I did, along with everyone else just as I planned. I really can’t leave out Mark can I? That would be far too suspicious. Well, when everyone left I offered to help her clean up. I was so nervous, being in a room alone with her. I felt as if I was the happiest man alive, and I was also scared. I mean, what if I couldn’t control myself and I suddenly kiss her or tell her I love her?  Thank goodness none of that happened. I was so relieved! Well, she was about to say thank you when we were standing on the doorway. I was about to kiss her on the cheek, you know, just to say a friendly goodnight to her. And I couldn’t hold it any longer I just had to kiss her! She was looking oh-so cute with her hair all tousled up and she was wearing these blue silk pajamas which looked great on her. I think she’d look great in anything! Well, as I was saying, I leaned in to kiss her on the cheek but I was surprised coz she leaned forward as well! We almost kissed each other on the lips. I was just so thankful she said goodnight and closed the door, coz she was kinda embarrassed. I wouldn’t know what to do if she stayed longer. I would’ve probably fainted! My knees were so weak after the kiss and they were shaking! My hands were shaking… my whole body was shaking! I sat on the floor for a while, leaning myself against the door of her room. Believe me, I would’ve been much happier, to sleep outside her door rather than to sleep in my own room! This girl has got me bad! I’m so madly in love, it’s not good for my health anymore! I’m going through that can’t-eat-can’t-sleep-reach-for-the-stars phase! I swear I’ve never felt this way before. I was watching her earlier, while she was practicing dance routines with Tammy and Linda. She was great! I loved the way her hair seemed to flow around her as she moved, the way it seemed to reflect the light with every move she made. I loved the way her eyes sparkled as she was dancing and singing along to the music energetically. To me, she stood out from the rest of the girls. I loved the way she laughed when she made a mistake, and the way she sweetly apologized. I love her. Period. There’s no ifs, buts nor maybes. I LOVE HER.


Jenny’s diary

May 6, 2000
Dear Diary,
              I can not believe this is all happening to me! First off, in a matter of few hours, I’ll be performing in a crowd of thousands with Tammy and Linda. This is my first time ever so I’m dead nervous, anxious yet of course, excited! Here’s another one… Mark just asked me to go out with him! I’m so delighted! Sure, I did say I don’t want to go out with any of the Westlife boys coz Tammy and Linda are going out with other members of the band, but isn’t this great? I mean, to be asked on a friendly date by someone who you used to idolize is just so amazing! Getting asked out on a date by someone who graces your walls with posters of him and his bandmates is just so terrific! I’m sure, if Mark was asked by Mariah Carey to go out with her he’d feel the way I’m feeling now.
                He told me he had no idea where we’re gonna go, but our date would be, you know, cut in half. We’ll be having dinner later at a local restaurant nearby the hotel, which is one of my favorite restaurants. And it’s great there coz they serve Filipino dishes, so Mark could try some. The first time I encountered Philippines cuisine I was like, “What the hell is that?” But I took back everything I said once I tasted it! Afterwards, we’ll be going back to the hotel so we could rest a few hours before the concert. After the concert, I have no idea what we’ll do after that, so I’m quite thrilled at the prospect coz I think he has spontaneity.
                  Well, I got to go! I have to get ready coz in just an hour more Mark will pick me up here in my room so we could go off to the restaurant.
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