Chapter 2
Jenny's diary
March 31, 2000
Dear Diary,
Gosh... this really sucks! Well, it's Josh's birthday today... and i can't get him out of my mind. As you know, something happened between us in the past. I don't want to write it down all over again just to refresh the pain in my heart. I still love him until now, and I don't want to talk about it anymore. To love someone for four years and to get hurt every time I think of him isn't really what I like at the moment. I'm far too happy to dampen my mood. Just in case you don't know, well diary, I know you don't! Anyway, gosh... I'm being so daft here! :) Well, I finally have the dates of the Westlife tour... they're coming here! Just one more month to go and a few days... I really can't believe it! I'm gonna see my fave lads in person! I've got it all planned out now, I'm going to meet up with a few of my email mates.It'll be absolutely fun! We'll be going to the hotel that they'll be staying at, mind you, I already know which hotel it is, and how ironic it is that they probably don't know what hotel they'll be staying at yet! Anyway, I have noticed that when bands do a concert at that venue they always only stay at just one hotel... and that's the hotel where they'll be staying at! Geez... am I making any sense here? :) I think not! I had the silliest dream last night, well, some might think it's a nightmare but I find it quite silly. And at the back of my head, I hope it won't be true! I dreamt that I didn't get to meet or see Westlife at all, but instead of being so sad about it, I was totally quite happy about it. Weird isn't it? I bet in true life, if I didn't meet them or see them, I would be crying my eyes out. But it would be enough for me if I saw them in person. I guess meeting them would be a bonus! :)I'm so happy that it's summer. I've been so busy doing nothing! haha! :) Well, apart from thinking of Westlife, I'm being a total bum! I think I deserve it, after the hell that I've been through this last school year. Having a psycho to court you and kind of "stalk" you isn't exactly nice you know. And there's the extreme hardship of studying and trying to maintain my grades above average. It's so hard, especially when you're feeling left out, you and your best friend have a fight, and the boy that you love for four years and you have the roughest year of your erm... "relationship". I wouldn't call it a relationship, coz there's nothing between us. Just a friendship that was, I was hoping, going to lead to something. Well, I thought wrong. Argh! I said I wouldn't write about that! I want to forget about Josh. I never ever want to see him again! Even just talk about him and all... I'm far too busy thinking of Westlife to let him intrude my thoughts!