Chapter 5
Mark's journal
May 3, 2000 - Hong Kong
I am so dead tired! Well, I just finished packing (not that I call putting back your toothbrush in your bag and nothing else packing!), and tomorrow we'll be doing a few more stuff, then we'll be heading off to ANOTHER different country. I actually don't unpack anymore. I mean, would you unpack if you're only going to stay for less than 4 or 5 days? Maybe I'm just too lazy or something. Bryan is so funny! Well, I know he's in his room so I decided to go there, 'coz I'm so bored. Anyway, I went in and I guess he was in the bathroom, 'coz the lights were on. The door was slightly ajar, and I saw him sitting on the toilet and writing on his journal! It was so funny I ran out of the room and laughed so hard once I got to the hall. A couple passed by and thought I was crazy 'coz I was standing in the middle of the hall, laughing so hard! So that was quite funny too. I think Bry never noticed that I saw him. I wonder why he's being so secretive about that journal of his. It isn't the first time I've seen him writing in it. The first time was when we were on an airplane going back to Ireland. Everyone was fast asleep and he looked around first before he carefully took it out of his bag. When Shane, who was beside him, stirred a bit, I nearly laughed when I saw Bryan quickly sat on his journal and looked out the window, looking so innocent and all that crap. He thought I was asleep, but I was just about to doze off at that time. I never said a word about it to anyone, 'coz it was obvious he didn't want anyone to know. It was so strange of him to hide in the loo. He could have locked the door and turned around or something. Nicky was already asleep for crying out loud. Well, I guess that's Bryan's business so I have nothing more to say on that. I feel so... strange. I'm not home sick or anything but I do feel that I am missing something, as if everything is incomplete. I think I know what it is that's wrong with me... I'm missing the feeling of being... in love, I guess. It's so hard to look for the right person. And if you do meet a potential "special someone", why bother? Tomorrow, I'll be in another country flying to who-knows-where! So what's the use of trying, right? What's the use if I know it'll never work out and I'll just be wasting my time. It's insanity. Any my relationships don't last that long. Three months and that's it. I do envy Nicky a lot. He's found the girl of his dreams... and after like 8 years or something, he's still so in love with her. He's so lucky. Kian and Shane are lucky as well. They're going out with our support act, "Charmed". There's two of them in the group, Linda and Tammy. They're both from England, and they're both great to be with. I knew Shane was hit hard by cupid's arrow the first time he laid his eyes on Linda. He couldn't speak, he could hardly move, let alone breathe! He just stood there as if he saw an angel coming down from the sky. Wait... that's a good line... I think I'll write a song about it... Kian on the other hand, fell for Tammy. It took about a week or so for him to realize he was madly in love with the girl. Actually, it was through me that he figured out that he was in love. I noticed he treated Tammy quite different. He was quite cold toward her, even mean at times. I asked him why, and he suddenly accused me of having a crush on Tammy. I said no, I denied it, coz it really wasn't true. He stormed off, a few hours later he went to my room and apologized. He was grinning from ear to ear so I asked what's up. Well, he came across Tammy when he left me in his room, and realized that he loved her. He told her right on the spot and they kissed. Romantic ain't it? Well, I'll just have to wait for my turn I guess. Bryan's constantly chatting up women, and maybe I should do the same. It's not that I don't, I just don't do it often. Yeah, I'll give it a shot, I'll have a go at it!