A SHORT VIEW OF MY FEELINGS FOR MYSELF: I, myself, have done many things to become who I am. I've done the show thing, dressed 24/7, personal escort and what have you. Some of what I've done I am far from proud of but it still is something that has made me who I am. Maybe I can become an instrument for the betterment of (MY KIND). I do want to meet new people, but this site is not to be taken just as another long classified ad. In a way I wish I did not feel this strong feminine side of myself but it is what and who I am. I would never want to banish it. It is who and what I am. It does cause me a great deal of grief. Being a lady is something I think about every day. Not an hour goes by I don't have it cross my mind. Sometimes seeing a picture of a lady in a wedding dress will make me sad, envious, and/or angry. Sometimes I feel God has wronged me, then I get very depressed, but then I remember that God makes no mistakes. My therapist tells me this is not a good sign having these mixed feelings. This is why I am TS {Transsexual} instead of a TV {Transvestite}. It's like having cancer, going to a doctor and having to sit there while he tells you so. It is almost as if a curse had been put on us (Transgender People). It is as if it is eating you up alive, and killing you slowly. I use to feel that it would had been better to either be straight or gay, only if it were as easy as just making a new choice. At least I would be happy. But this in-between feeling is hell. Life is hard enough as it is, then there is this extra added into it all. It invades everything I do, and in my every thought. Then I realize I am one of Gods special children. The links you may find on this page will take you to a place that can explain even further, the way that I feel.

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TONI HERRING'S PLACE
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