Stavesacre - "Friction" (TN1050)
1. "Threshold"
go ahead raise your fist
revel in your mire and filth
like a fat little
pink gets ugly quick
parading your waste
oblivious and insolent
why don't I
just put you out of your misery
out of sympathy
I can only stand it so long
go ahead flash your smile
a season of fattening
prime of the canine
and swine-bred children of guile
carry on, carry on
I know who I am
wretched worm
my self deserving of hell
I fell onto mercy
despised and denied
watching you torture
yourself and whoever else
you can bring down
with you
watching you curse the sky
your stomach must turn inside you
come over to the other side
the past is fraction of life
"a song took from our souls
a home that is our own
we're all born remembering
but few of us will know"
the tip of your tongue
a memory in mind
just outside of you
will you wake to find
the rest you so clearly seek
or painfully realize
that it's lost
forever
suffer
2. "Loader"
shed this wineskin, de-contain
break this strain
this chain of unchange
"I see clearly now the reign is gone"
separation-manifest
six feet of bondage off my chest
power to resist, power to resist
what if this body
moved as a whole?
"let my people" get on the "go!"
contain the zeal-maintain the flow
plead inner-man to comprehend
love of the Christ surpassing knowledge
what is its width, length, height, and depth?
oh my passion tell me
if you know any meaning
transcending this birth and death
and the point of everything in between?
justify yourself
justify this hell
I've heard each word that you've said,
and with all due respect
save it
where were you when I was calling
when I was falling away?
worldly wisdom mocked-convenient second guess
get these shackles off-don't want them on again
you had your foot on my neck-He lifted up my head
separate, we are separate
you have nothing to offer me
3. "At the Moment"
with a sigh I greet the day
I feel the morning on my face
weary at the moment i awake
even as I lie
the thought returns to mind
"welcome to the rest of your life"
somewhere I've lost my way
from saved to stray and failing
in silence my spirit pleads
"is the vision lost
or has it been passed on?
is there any use continuing?"
my soul will wait
my soul-wait silently
for God, my God
and I will live
and I know some destiny
still waits for me
his faithfulness, my hope
it brings comfort to my soul
with a still small voice whispering
"call upon my name and I
will set you up on high
be still and know that I am God"
creation speaks to me
I'm stricken to my knees
in reverance and fear
forever my Almighty
the heavens in your hand
surpass the grains of sand
who am I before you
elieonai eli adullam
[God my father, God my refuge; Hebrew]
my soul will wait
my soul-wait silently
for God, my God, God my refuge
and I will live
and I know some destiny
still waits for me
4. "Suffocate Me"
in anxiousness i'm twisting
drift into restlessness
this prison keeps shapeshifting walls
I think you suffocate me
constricting everything
so quick to give what you have no idea
will one day cost
forgive my skepticism
what you call "insecure"
i call protection
i can't trust anyone who just gives away their whole world
no one gives that up for free
no one like me
it's cost too much to open it up to just anyone
I don't think you hear me
do you want me to say it again?
no, I don't think you'll hear me
can't you see it's making me sick?
no, I don't think you can
don't think you care
at least not as much as you swear
and so I'll have to say "goodbye"(till you bring it up again)
subtle as a hemmorhage
from none to everything
shovel in and take what you can find
cold as a starved constrictor
bites like a soft caress
consuming with determined pride
do you think it pleases me to
push you away again
this should have ended long ago
but you need to dig it out again
so it is as it began
there was never us
there's only you
I don't think you hear me
do you want me to say it again?
no, I don't think you'll hear me
can't you see it's making me sick?
no, I don't think you can
don't think you care
at least not as much as you swear
and so I'll have to say "goodbye"
till you bring it up again
5. "Minus"
Instrumental song
6. "Devil"
another awkward moment passes
catering to questions asked by you
I do believe I've told you what you want to hear
it's so easy to recite
the lines and lies I've memorized
from this pedestal pushed through the sky
I'm laughing in your face
I hate who I am
and all that I've become
so many sleepless nights have found me
wandering comfortless streets
in search of peace, any release
from who I have become
and I'm sure you don't want to know
that I hate the role
I'm old and cold
an ugly sore a gaping hole
God have mercy on my soul
well, I guess I've disappointed you
what did you expect?
the hero is a wretch
a devil in the flesh
are you disenchanted by the idols humanness?
do you still think we connect?
maybe more than you'll admit
7. "Tranewreck"
tried to set me up
not that I deny my carnal mind
but when I was down
you couldn't be found
but to assist in my self-inflicted pain
had enough
I gotta get on while there's still life left in me
I see the lies
I see the lies
I think we've both been used
wasted time and wasted life
and what with what we've been through?
better off
even our best intentions
can destroy us
I see the lies
I see the lies
I think we've both been used
my soul divides in inner riots
oh, what I would do for you!
you and I
divided, on display
fare thee well, my heart goes with you
till we meet again...
8. "Burning Clean"
when this fleeting limelight fades
and we're alone again
what name will your heart speak?
what is true
what is real
not what you feel
what you know eternally
ten years running blind and aimlessly
warming by the fires of bridges burning
ten thousand peering eyes that can only see
the show, the smile, the face I allow
how many more break beneath the surface?
young and bold, but blind and led by blind
His person missed beyond His name
was this the hope when we began?
a tragic generation
of faithless children and forgotten love?
I know I'd hoped for some other, higher purpose
what is true and what is real
past what you might feel
what do you know eternally?
and when this fleeting limelight fades
and we're alone again
what name will your heart speak?
and if you see me on the way down
would you smile and send me on my way?
and if you see me headed down
is there something more between
you and I?
something higher
something higher
I want to be real again
I want You, Father, be real in me
and if I see you on the way down
I'll lift your name up into His care
and if I see you headed down
I'll do what I can to lift you up again
burn us clean, refine this world away
make Yourself real to me
make us to live as You would
9. "Anna Thema"
spine of silk and eggshell thin
pity the bleeder, bruised and palsied prince
the shameless desperate
mourn the cherished in ruins, yes our
once great
irresolute and forlorn
time to destroy
want to see it burn, torn down
how can my nation be saved?
pray, weep for this age
futurescape, futurape
seems it leans to the last days
is tomorrow born still?
is judgment His will?
or can we be healed?
separate, church and this present state
He will destroy
want to see it burn, torn down
anna thema
I hear you whisper at the gate
union in hell not far away
anna thema
sheol ways require a wage
a nation harvests its portion
Automolech they sing
a nation embracing, praising
its sin disease
time this scaterd few
took the lead
bring the jawbone to the philistines
want to see it burn, torn down
anna thema
I hear you screaming at the gate
union in hell not far away
anna thema
sheol ways require a wage
a nation harvests its portion
10. "Stars and Clouds"
sunlight
such a beautiful day to say
good-bye
we try to look our best
thinking of you
how can I pretend when inside
none of this seems right
the timing isn't mine
there were things I needed
to make right
was so long
I never dreamed that
I would see the end,
that we wouldn't make amends
come short of reconciling
still memories remind me
he was so calm
still and quiet
precious and powerless
but somehow strong
he carried on
did he realize that you were gone?
I don't know
I see you in him
in voices, faces, expressions
as long as I may stay
I will pray the same
to live a life
like a child
and never to forget what I know loving is
to hear him
speaking of you
he knew exactly what
was happening
said you were born today
his favorite person in the world
he's different
a breeze of fresh air
laced with a touch of somewhere familiar
he's tomorrow
he's treasure and survival
I walk the beach with him
talk the day away
and when the sun winds down
and the stars come out
he could name one after you
as only a child could do
put you above and not behind him
until the end
a bright place
past the clouds and darkness
distance