Training For Utopia - "Plastic Soul Impalement" (TND1099-SS9)
1. Plastic Soul Impalement
there is no need to lie.
all of this is all of me.
i don’t want to make friends.
i don’t want to win your approval.
i have all i need, all you need.
you don’t need to understand.
it would be far too basic if you could.
if you could, it would be far too easy.
just respect, just accept, accept it all.
accept everything i tell.
don’t accept me, but what i am, what fuels me.
i can feel it now running through my veins.
deep through my soul.
it flows like blood.
it lets me breath.
it lets me live. It helps me all the way through.
accept this, it flows through me.
this is us.
this is me.
this is all of me.
this is me.
2. A Good Feeling
this is only a test, and i’m left empty again.
no choice words to save my already stolen carcass.
so weak, i carve it.
in these wals, in this flesh.
the scars remind me of how i’m weak and how i’m dead.
but when the time is right, i sit back, i laugh, and walk away as it drowns.
good-bye.
my mistake never to be visited again.
3. Brother Hezakiah
i don’t have enough time in my schedule for you anymore.
does this thought sound familiar?
like the time i reached out my hand and uttered a word of respect.
that was my problem.
respect.
it was too much to ask of you.
if you could find time in your busy schedule of clothing your mindless
victims in the absolute nothingness that you have to offer,
you may have noticed me cheering on your feeble battle.
good luck!
maybe one day you’ll rise to laugh at those you crushed to get there.
you coward.
you are such a coward.
never again will i reach out my hand in respect of you.
never.
you coward.
you are such a coward.
4. Two Hands
there’s no time but i have so much.
and when i dig it empty i have nothing to offer.
do you want it ?
i don’t have it.
a future dies.
no big surprise.
i killed my chance to save.
an angel cries.
it burns her eyes, and she sings a different song.
silence.
give me some more time to stab myself with the truth again.
give me some time to burn myself to the ground.
help me back up.
yeah, help me back up.
5. Pretty Picture Of Lies
oh, beautiful scar from a carnal injection.
my cheating visual.
my righteousness, ugly.
my eyes are fixed.
sucks me to emptiness.
this pretty picture, this blossoming plague.
blessed leach persist, and save me from you.
come to me when you want to be nothing.
come to me when you want what makes me tick.
come to me when you want to stop breathing.
come to me when you feel like living.
you can come to me when you want to die.
(if it ever gets that badly) you can come to me.
when you want to.
6. Black Forest
instrumental song
7. One Zero One
fossilized regrets.
brush, uncover.
paralyzed embedded regularity.
deep incision.
end to end.
desperate hands tear out every debauchery.
one to zero.
zero to one.
abrupt cessation.
lungs beg expulsion of new manifestation.
wings beg let.
let me fly.
soar high above the problem.
i want to be one again.
please.
help.
love.
lie.
this hole.
this shell.
fill this whole.
configure the pieces.
tell me when you have it.
i need to know.
8. Burning (Match In Hand)
it’s getting worse, it’s burning me from the feet
up.
And now it’s in my eyes and i can’t see you anymore.
i’d ask you to hold my hand, but i’ve lost it all in these flames.
don’t fret for the loss of me.
i struck the match.
i watched the flames rise high above your heads with a smile.
is my downfall a surprise to you?
i thought i made it clear.
i’m not your perfect model.
burn, i watch it all go down.
blazing, i feel the flame against my skin.
why must i burn all that i love?
i loved so much, but i have failed you.
i am sorry i watched the flames rise high above your heads with a smile.
is my downfall a surprise to you?
9. Human Shield
pin me up stretch out the limbs.
i’m your human shield.
you’ve set out to feed, or feast.
but not of you.
no, you set me up.
come, partake of me.
without your permission, without your response come have me.
come have at me.
have all me.
come have at me.
have me.
i don’t need this cocoon.
get in.
feast.
inside and out.
10. Single Handed Attempt At Revolution
not a fraction of these beliefs are available.
and i haven’t even begun to try to comprehend what you claim to be so true.
because i alone am smarter than your completely flawless outlook.
i can fit so much into this tiny brain trapped beneath this thickened skull.
and i answer all my own questions.
so why even bother as king?
all i know is that i don’t know.
because i am a fool, and my pride dies with me.
11. Gift To A Dying Friend
you lied.
but how could i expect anything more from such an elementary mind?
i offered you something so crucial, and you spit it back out when i turned my head.
the solution is basic.
aren’t you smart enough to know how much this is going to hurt?
now look at your friends.
they are crying.
they are crying for you.
don’t reach out.
they don’t want what you have.
i’m sorry.
i still love you.
but i don’t want what makes you so sick.
what makes you so sick?