12-08-03                Ok , everyone , sorry it took so long to so long to get this part of the site up , but I haven't had the will to do anything . Ya know , it's funny how one day you could love someone so much one day and show them so much affection and the next day it just all be gone . What really hurts is being on the recieving end . I've had higher points in my life than this , but I definately haven't had any lower points . I feel useless . I feel like nothing that I do matters . It always takes something drastic to make you step back and take a look at yourself too , ya know ? I thought I had my act together until recently . I thought I had everything figured out , but then I realized I was just lying to myself . I lost the most important person in my life recently . I didn't lose them to some freak accident , or an illness and they didn't die . They left on their own free will . You don't realize what a precious and beautiful thing love is until the one you love is gone . Ya gotta live everyday like it could be your last . If you have a loved one that you're not on good terms with , do everything you can to fix it . If you have a girlfriend or a wife that you love with all of your heart , treat them like you did to first get them . Watch your words and actions . I've learned a lot here recently , unfortunaley I had to learn the hard way . People would tell me things and I wouldn't listen . I'm 17 years old and there have always been high hopes for me . I have an IQ of 151 , yet I'm a high school drop out . I'm a hard worker , yet all I want to do is sit around . I have someone I love ...... but I couldn't treat her the way she deserved to be treated . I have made it to where I have to learn everything the hard way because I won't listen to other peoples advice . I hope everyone that reads this , thinks twice about other peoples advice before they just throw it away .......                      2-16-04         I don't really have a lot to put here right now . I've been busy workin on other parts of the site . Good news though , I'm moving back home to Louisiana . We bought a trailor on Saturday and should be moving it in March during Spring Break . Then , we gotta fix it up some before we can move into it , but that's no big deal . Anything to get me back to Louisiana . I'm pretty well over Sarah now for those of you who know what I'm talking about . I found someone I'm interested in , but I'm not sure she feels the same . I'm kinda stupid when it comes to that kind of thing because I'm either over confident or under confident . It's like a lose lose situation unless someone will actually spell everything out for me , if ya know what I mean . Anyone interested in what's going on in my life , I have an online journal at www.livejournal.com/users/sevarg710x . I think that's right address anyways . You'll get a more indepth look at my life and I usually update it every couple of days . Well that's enough for now . LateZ