by Chisato no Girlfriend
Part 13
"He is a perfect sexual doll…"
Kaoru remembered Die's words while caressing Toshiya's
silky hair. The boy was sleeping peacefully, his head
over his chest. He looked even more beautiful this
way.
"He's not a doll… he's an angel…"
Slowly his finger traced a gentle path on Toshiya's
lips, feeling the sweet breathing of his young lover.
He smiled.
"I feel like protecting him…"
Kaoru closed his eyes, feeling guilty somewhat.
"What I'm doing to them…?" the guitarrist thought.
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"Are you sleeping with him, Kaoru? In your bed? Are
your sexy arms wraped around his warm body…?"
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"Die…Toshiya… it's inevitable. Someone will be left. I
feel so sorry… If I could have you both…"
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"I can't blame you… I can't… the boy is so skilled. He
knows what you want. He can seduce and amuse like a
wicked geisha…"
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"Yer so different from each other but what I feel for
you is way too similar!"
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"What can I do if you decide to choose him…
…ne?
Maybe… I've lost my game."
***
"Totchi… good morning." Kaoru said smiling while
taking Toshiya's breakfast in on a beautiful tray.
"Waaaah… Kaoru-sama…!!" the boy said amused,
covering his mouth with his hands in surprise..
Toshiya couldn't believe his eyes. Maybe he was still
dreaming.
"I didn't know what you liked for breakfast and I
think that I put a little of everything I found."
The man said grining sheepishly and putting the tray
carefully on the bedside table. Toshiya looked at all
those delicacies and smiled. There were many pots and
plates and a cup with a pure white flower inside.
Toshiya didn't hold back his tears of joy.
"A-any problems…?" Kaoru said concerned "I did
something that I shouldn't?"
"No. I'm just so happy." he sniffed "You are the
first person who cares."
"Ano…Course I care. You gave me a beautiful night and
I'm trying to give you a beautiful morning." he said
touching Toshiya's naked shoulder "But you deserve
much more ne…"
"Not like this, I mean… you're different." he said
cleaning his face with his hands "You really
care…thank you. I always knew you were so special…"
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"So happy ya wanted to lunch here with me… alone."
Die smiled, trying to convince himself that everything
was fine.
"What I have to say is serious."
"You always have something serious to say, type A
sama…" the red haired joked, brushing his fingers on
Kaoru's chin.
"We've been friends for years ne… we did much
more-than-friend things I know but… Are you still my
friend? Do you care for me like a friend?"
"Sure." Die bit his lip, still half-smiling "I
want the best for you."
"It's a relief you think that way, Die…" the blue
haired paused to breathe "… because you won't be mad
at me when I tell you the decision I made…"
"Decision?" Die arched his eyebrows, pretending that
he wasn't understanding kaoru's point.
"Yeah… a decision."
"Kaoru-san…" Die murmured.
"I'm going out with Toshiya…" the second guitarrist
stated, hesitant.
"But… our `agreement' is so fresh…!!" the red-haired
said in shock "You didn't even wait to go to bed
with him! How could you?"
"You always knew that we wanted each other. "
Kaoru's heart almost broke seing Die's disappointed
expression, but continued firmly "I'll be with him,
ne…"
"Toshiya will be your boyfriend… but I'll still be
your lover, won't I?" Die asked, a bit of despair in
his voice "I don't care about sharing you if you
prefer it this way…"
"Die… that posture doesn't fit on ya." the
blue-haired said coldly "Please just accept this
without questions."
"But… but… Kaoru-san… why are you doing this to me?"
"This is all for everyone's good, Die." the leader
looked inside the other man's eyes "To end the mess
that we created with that stupid bet…"
"For good??? the red haired couldn't believe his
friend's words "It looks like you didn't think about
me when you decided it!"
"Please, Die, stop this scene!"
"Don't you care?" Die's eyes watered, but he just
held on.
"I know you. I know you'll do pretty well with or
without me. You always did!" The slight sarcasm in
Kaoru's voice was noticed by Die…
"You know nothing about me!" Die said angrily "Yer
an idiot, ya know?"
"Why do you make things so difficult?" Kaoru sighed
and took the other man's hands on his. Die's lips
trembled.
"You deserve to give me at least one more night."
the lead guitarrist's face was tense "Just one more
night. Please?"
"It's a snow ball… if we continue, we're going to get
a bigger problem soon."
"I don't mind…! I just want to live in the present
with all the intensity I can!" Die smiled sadly.
"Enough, Die." Kaoru demanded bitterly, letting go
of Die's hands. The lead guitarrist dug his fists on
the table "Let's stop it here, okay?"
Die got up and faced the other man furiously.
"You're playing with fire! You don't know what I can
do when someone make me really angry…!" he hissed
just before leaving the table and the restaurant with
angry steps.
"Die-kun… you're so strong and confident. You don't
need me." Kaoru thought, trying to not feel guilty
"You'll overcome this easily. I know."
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"Kaoru is right. Resignation doesn't fit me at all."
An evil grin could be noticed in Die's lips.