Chapter 24

She hugged both of them, putting her cheek against his. Letting go, Nadia turned around and ran off, and then, only then, Lucky felt something wet on his cheek. He put his hand to his face and wiped. Couldn't be what he thought it was. A tear? What for? Lucky took Jordan upstairs and put him in his play pen, and he opened the bag. He was eaten by curiosity. Never, in the 4 months he took care or Jordan for her, did she gave him a bag. Lucky bought everything Jordan may need with him. He saw, inside the bag, no clothes, no diapers, no baby stuff, but papers, and all the baby pictures. On top of everything, he found a big brown envelop. Lucky sat in the rocking chair, next to Jordan, and opened it.

Inside was all Jordan's papers. His birth certificate, with Lucas Lorenzo Spencer Junior written as father. There was other stuff too, like his health book, vaccination shots, everything he might need with the baby. There was also two white envelops. Lucky tore the one with his name opened, even more perplexed. Why did she gave him everything? The pictures, the baby book, even the journal she kept religiously since the first day the boy was born. In the envelop there was a letter.

"Dear Lucky,

First of all, let me apologize for all the troubles I might have caused between you and Elizabeth, you and your parents, or with anyone else for that matter. I just had to make sure Jordan would be with someone who loved him as much as I did.

I am also sorry to leave like a burglar, but that's the best I can do. I'm a coward, and I couldn't face you.

I'm dying Lucky. I have a rare kind of disease, and it's attacking me whole, eating me from the inside. When they found out, it was to late to do anything about it. So I've known for 5 months now that I wouldn't see my son grow up. I've had treatments to prevent me to lose too much weight, or to suffer too much. I wish I could say it worked, but it didn't, the hurting part anyway. It was killing me to know Jordan might see me in my worst days. That's when I would call you and beg you to pick him up. Either I had to go to the hospital, or I was in too much pain to take care of him. I want to thank you for that. I knew I could count on you not to let me down. I know sometimes, when you had plans with Elizabeth you wanted to strangle me, because I knew you wouldn't say no, but I couldn't tell you what was wrong and see your sorry eyes looking at me.

That is the main reason I didn't tell you. I didn't want anyone to look at me all sorry, thinking about how I would never see Jordan slowly become a man, then I would just cry. Cry alone in my room is something I can do, but cry in front of you, never. You would've been the worst of all. I know you love me deeply Lucky, like you would love your best friend, or your sister. I loved you too. Very much. With all of my heart. Don't feel sorry for me, and wiped those tears away. The sight of you with Jordan, and the smile my son had brightening his face every time you would walk into a room will be the last thought I will have, and I guess you could be proud. I will die with a smile, because of you. I know you will take good care of our son, you will love him, protect him, and show him how to be the best of himself, because he is just like you.

The other letter is for Jordan, when he will be old enough to understand why his mother left him. I'd like for you to tell him all about me, and please, don't make me out to be a big heroine, I'm not. I'm only human. But please tell him he was my superman, and that I loved him with all my heart. Till the end.

One more thing. I know someday, the thought of having Jordan adopted by Elizabeth will cross your mind, and don't shake your head like that. I know it will, and I want her to. I am sure she will be the best mother I could've asked for my baby boy. If you ask me how I know, I just watched her with him. And us women know these things. You have my blessing Lucky, to do what you think will be best for Jordan.

Ok, now I'm done. I know you will read this letter as soon as I walked out your door, and Jordan is probably playing with one of his stuffed animal right now. Don't cry for me Lucky, and don't run after me. You won't find me. I've gone to die, because I know I won't be there when the sun comes up again. Another woman's intuition probably. I love you both, will all my heart.

Nadia"

Lucky wiped his tears and looked at his son. He was sitting in his play pen, chewing the ear of his stuffed bunny. It was amazing how Nadia knew them. She knew he would shake his head at the thought of Elizabeth adopting Jordan when Nadia was dying, how she knew he would read the letter right away, after giving Jordan his stuffed animals. But there was one thing she was wrong about, and that was him not finding her.

He got up and picked diapers, clothes, toys, and threw them in a bag, and picked Jordan up. He put some bottles and his glass, and put the kid in his car seat. He drove to the docks and went on the launch. Elizabeth was supposed to be home.

She wasn't. Mrs. Lansburry told Lucky Elizabeth went to the land with Ms. Quartermaine. Lucky felt his eyes fill up with water again, as desperation took over his body. The sun was coming down fast and he had to find Nadia. After everything they had been through together, he was damned if he would let her die alone. He saw Stefan come out of the study, and Elizabeth's father was surprised to find Lucky there, with his son.

"-Lucky, I thought Elizabeth didn't have plans with you tonight. She isn't here. Neither is Nikolas.
-I know, Mrs. Lansburry told me. Lucky looked around, and then he knew what he had to do. Stefan, remember when you said if I ever needed a favor to name it, you would drop everything to make it?
-I remember very well, Lucky, and I meannt it.
-Good! Lucky said, giving him Jordan. He already ate, he is clean. He only needs a bottle before going to bed, which is in --Lucky looked at his watch-- an hour or so. I'll be back tomorrow to pick him up. Bye Jordan, be good with Grandpa Stefan. Lucky kissed his son's head. Thanks Stefan"

And, before Stefan could say anything, Lucky was already out of the house and on his way to the launch. Lucky drove as fast as he could. She said he wouldn't find her. He knew exactly where she was.

He saw her car as soon as he arrived. She was in the old church's ruins. The first place they had a date. The first place where they roasted marshmallows. She hadn't seen him yet. She was leaning against a beam, looking far into the sky.

"-Nadia?"

She quickly turned around and started to cry. Lucky sat next to her and put his arm around her shoulders. She put her head on his chest and cried, and Lucky closed the embrace with his other arm, his chin on the back of her head. He was crying too.

"-I thought I told you not to come. She said, when she was finally calm. She was still in the same position
-And you think I would've let you die allone like some wounded animal? Never. You need me, I'm be here.
-Where's Jordan?
-With Stefan. I'm sorry Nadie, I had too come"

Nadia smiled when she heard him say her nickname. No one had called her like that in years. In fact, Lucky had been the last one.

"-Is there anything I could do for you? He asked, wiping a tear from his cheek -Could you sing for me?
-Sure, what do you want me to sing?
> -Anything. But you know how much I lovee your voice.
-You got it"

Lucky cleared his throat and started singing what he remembered to be her favorite song. From her smile, he knew it still was.

"When you feel the sunlight
Fade into the cold night
Don't know where to turn

And all the dreams you're dreaming
Seem to lose their meaning
Let me in your world
Baby, let me in your world
All you need is someone you can call
Don't be sad, you're not alone

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you

In this world of strangers
Of cold, unfriendly faces
Someone you can trust
Oh there's someone you can trust
I will be your shelter
I'll give you my shoulder
Just reach out for my love
Reach out for my love
Call my name and my heart will hear
I will be there, there's nothing to fear

I will be here for you
Somewhere in the night
Somewhere in the night
I'll shine a light for you
Somewhere in the night
I'll be standing by
I will be here for you"

When Lucky felt her shiver he tighten his embrace around her and he started singing the song again. The sun was long gone and he was still singing, when he felt Nadia's head beginning to feel heavier on his chest. He gently put a hand on her forehead and brought it back. He knew right there she wasn't sleeping and he started to cry, unable to control the tears, as he was sobbing, holding her close. She was gone, with a smile on her face.