| July 24 I bought a bar b q on Monday. I assembled it all by myself and it works. I rule July 19 Well wouldn't you know it? A mere week after Glen and I journey to the land of the way-too-patriotic, Pumpkin gets a release in Vancouver!! Oh well at least now I can go see it again. And I got some donuts. July 17 Just a quick entry today. I wanted to note two new additions.... #1 and Most Important - on Wednesday, July 10th at 10:36 PM (Calgary time), Monica and Calvin welcomed a beautiful baby girl into the world. Jade Mary Tyndall was anxious to come out and look around as she arrived quite a bit earlier than her due date of August 28th. She was a mere 4 lbs, 1/2 oz. but is doing well. She is chilling in the hospital for the next few weeks, and she started eating her first night so I'm sure by now she's already growing like a weed. Congrats to Calvin and Monica - I hope to be hanging with Jade soon. #2 and not nearly as important, I got a kitchen table. She was a bitch to set up but isn't she pretty??? July 14 Went to Seattle last night with Glen. We headed out after I got home from work at 6, and he drove us down to catch Christina Ricci's new movie, Pumpkin. It was only released in the states and I wasn't about to miss it, so off we went. The movie was really funny and totally worth the trip, but we of course had to make a stop at Krispy Kreme donuts in Issaquah. I needed to see what the big deal was and let me tell you those are some goooood donuts! We hit Krispy Kreme around midnight and there was still a lineup. A handful of cheerful Krispy Kreme employees made our visit very enjoyable, and they ceremoniously handed out free glazed donuts to all the customers in line. After picking up a couple dozen donuts, we got back on the freeway and headed back into Seattle. We drove around for a bit, then stopped by the Experience Music Project (which was of course closed, but there is a big screen outside that airs videos of different people recording in their studio). We hung out there for a few minutes, but I was getting cold, so we got back in the car for the long journey home. Halfway through the trip home, we were so into our conversation about old-school Fantasy movies that we apparently missed 4 signs stating the speed had dropped from 70 to 60, and since Glen was doing 72, we got pulled over. The cop was nice enough to not give us a ticket, and we were once again on our merry (but slow) way. Glen dropped me off at home just after 3, and I hit the sack right away cause I was sleeeeepy. But overall it was an awesome time, I really enoyed it. Hopefully next time we can go for longer. On another note, I'm back at the tower, and things are going great. I'm helping out with callbacks, and so far really enjoying it. Things are good. :-) July 4 I feel better now. Was just having a bad day Saturday I guess. Glen and I went to see Mr Deeds on Sat (not a date,in case you are trying to relate that to my feeling better). It was pretty funny, Adam Sandler rules (maybe he cheered me up?). Sunday I saw Scooby Doo with Ngaire and her friend Courtenay. Scooby Doo was actually pretty funny. Lots of jokes that are not for kids. And then Monday (CANADA DAY!! WOO HOOOOO!) I saw Men in Black 2, which was also decent but not as funny as the first. I saw Belinda at MIB2, which was nice because I hadn't seen her in a while. We had a pretty good conversation about relationships which really helped put my mind at ease. I always enjoyed talking to Belinda when we worked together and now is no exception. We have a lot of the same personality traits, and are both very determined and goal oriented, so it's nice to have her to talk to, because she's someone I can look up to. I'm planning a bar b q for the old e-comm group for later in the summer, so hopefully she'll be able to make it. I bought a new book on Monday, which I read in full in 4 hours on Tuesday. It's called The Big O, and it deals with the science of orgasms, male and female. It was actually a very interesting read, and I would recommend it to anyone who wishes to get more in touch with their body or the body of their partner. I'd also recommend it for people who wish to get more emotionally in touch with their partner. I know, you must be thinking I'm a perv for buying this book, but I'm not. I thought it would contain interesting information, and it did, some of which I already knew, some of which was new to me. Of course, if you wish to believe I am just a dirty dirty girl, that's your call. On a less dirty note (or perhaps dirtier, depend on where your mind takes you), I've been helping Glen out with photography lately. He's become really interested in black and white photography, doing lots of work with shadows etc. I think he's planning on posting some finished work on his website soon, so when he does, I'll either post the pics here or link to him. It's fun for me to help him out, because I'm too short to ever be a model, but when he's photographing me, he tends to make me feel just as pretty as any model out there, and it just, I dunno, feels really good. I'll probably be doing more photo shoots with him coming up in the future, so I'll continue to post pictures as they become available. Anywho, I'm gonna go, do absolutely nothing now. I'm back to work at the tower tomorrow (yay!), so I should get a good night's sleep. I'm gonna wear a skirt to work. Haven't been able to at retail really, so I'm pumped about using half of my wardrobe that has lain dormant for months. June 29 Well it's been a long time since I've written anything in my diary, but today I felt the need to write. I can't seem to get a handle on what I want and need in life. My relationship with Glen left me scared to feel and love any more, and that fear is still present, every day. I dated Aran for a month, and didn't let him in at all, and now I'm holding everyone far away from me. I feel like I have so many secrets in my soul now, but there's nobody to share them with. When Aran and I broke up, I knew then that I didn't want a relationship. At least, not an emotional one. But I crave companionship. I want someone there, but I don't want to let anyone in. It leaves me in a pretty much screwed up state. I was coasting for a few months, doing well, living up the single life, and I was feeling great. Then something happened that was like a rude awakening for me, and it reinforced how deep my emotional scars are. I never thought that I would get to a point where I would actually be scared to date someone, but I am. That's not to say that I wouldn't go against that fear and let someone in, but in order for that to happen, it would have to be someone special. Which brings me to the reason I'm feeling so forlorn today. Every once and a while, I feel very alone. I feel alone now, and I wonder whether I'll ever find someone who not only is right for me, but actually wants me as well. Everyone around me seems to be falling in love, or is already in love. And not one of them loves me. I can't even get a fucking date. April 27th So I'm all moved in!! I have some painting left to do, and then some minor projects in the months to come, but aside from that I am totally moved in, unpacked, and loving my new place. There's something about the fact that I can get up and walk to the fridge naked for a drink in the morning that just puts a smile on my face. Or that I can take a shower at midnight... or play my guitar at 2am. Tonight is the housewarming party and it should be a blast. I've already warned my neighbours that we may be a little noisier than normal, but they should be cool about it (I hope!). I'm still working at retail, and it's going pretty well. Making some commissions so that's nice. And I had some fantastic sushi last night... not that that is relevant, but what the hell, it's fresh in my mind. Update more soon.... April 13 And here is the long awaited update!! Why the heck have I been away so long? Well, I've been busy! So let's go over those new years resolutions since I didn't update you at the beginning of the month like I was supposed to... #1 - Move out of the house.... as of next Saturday, this can be marked as completed. Part of the reason I have not updated in so long is because I have been busy searching for an apartment. I have now purchased an apartment and I get possession on Monday April 15th. I will be cleaning and painting all week then moving in on Saturday April 20th. WOOO HOOOO!!! (Can you tell that I'm excited?) So the only resolution I have left is to pursue my music further. I am doing well.... so what else have I been doing in the past month and a half? Not much, just hanging out I guess. Going for sushi on Saturday nights (a tradition I have grown to absolutely adore..). I've seen some movies (I'll try to remember them and add them to the movie section). Um.... I really don't remember. It's all a busy blur. But the important thing is I am incredibly happy. This is the first time in a looooong time I can actually say that. Work is also going really well. For the past month, I have been on a project, working in the Kingsway retail store, doing some basic technical training for the staff here and learning more about billing and sales. It's great, the staff here are awesome and have really welcomed me into their team, which is fantastic. I had my 6 month review last week, and that also went really well. So yay. I am really happy, Not much else I can tell you, but I'll try to get into the habit of updating more regularly... March 4 So I'm very tired this morning and managed to erase everything I wrote in my diary in February. Ah well. Shit happens. Here is a brief recap of February..... not much happened. Worked, did some apartment hunting, Aran broke up with me, Aran had surgery, I saw some movies, saw some friends.... I am a boring boring person. Really struggling to think of anything I did... ah well. The most significant thing to mention would be that I had a headache for the entire month of February... the headaches are subsiding now, but they have literally been there in some degree for almost every day since February 2nd. They will go away, I will just need many more back massages... any volunteer??? Okay, so.... Let's do the obligatory monthy check on those New Year's resolutions. #1 - Move out of the house: Well it looks like my sister has officially beaten me to it. She moved out last week. But I am still searching for an apartment with my real estate agent, so everything is shaping up quite nicely. #2 - Get over Glen... hmm Glen who? (just kidding) It's been several months. I'm over it. Moving along, that was the last reference there, I now only have 2 resolutions worth mentioning. (and as an aside, also over Aran....) #3 - Pursue my music further: Well I saw Calvin yesterday and he is possibly going to help me get some gigs, and I'm still planning to lay down some cleaner tracks soon so I'll have a decent demo... procrastinating for fear of rejection, but by year end I shall be performing... somewhere. And now back to your regularly scheduled journal entry. I neglected to update last week. Not sure what the hell I was doing all week... Went out with Kris and Jess last Monday. Hollywood Cinemas on W Broadway has 2 for 1 special every day of the week and on Monday it's only $3.50 to see both shows, so we're trying to make it our weekly ritual to head down there and watch second run movies. Tuesday I think I just chilled at home, same with Wednesday (I really can't remember, so if I went out with someone last week and am forgetting, I hereby apologize profusely.) On Thursday, I saw my sister's new place, met her roommates and we went downtown to see the screening of Josh Hartnett's new movie, 40 Days and 40 Nights (read what I thought in my Inspiration section). Friday I went out with Ngaire and Kevin to murder mystery dinner theatre at Prospect Point cafe in Stanley Park. It was pretty cool, some of the acting was bad, but I WON!!! I had the most creative (and I think closest to correct) answer, so I won 2 bottles of wine (really not the greatest prize for someone who doesn't drink, but I'm really just keen on the thrill of being a winner!) The only downfall to the evening (aside from the pathetic actors) was that the dinner didn't sit all too well with me, and I hear that Ngaire was sick the next morning from it as well, so that's kinda unfortunate. Saturday I relaxed during the day. Read the second Harry Potter book, watched some tv (taped copies of CSI and the debut of the new Survivor... yes yes, I am so ashamed....). That evening, I went out for sushi with Greg and James (we had a reservation this time, so didn't have to wait almost 2 hours for a table like we did last week). It was really good, Greg was tired and had some serious verbal diarhea going on, but I forgive him (as an aside here, since it got erased, I will once again mention that Greg undid my bra 2 Fridays ago while giving me a back massage. It was quite amusing). Mmmmm, after sushi, stopped by Rogers, harassed Jessica, rented some movies, then decided my headache was too annoying, so I went to bed without watching any of em. Headache was gone when I woke up yesterday, so I watched Hook on DVD. (Haven't seen it since it's original release over 10 years ago. It's pretty good) After that, Calvin came by and we went out to lunch. It was nice to see him, I obviously do not see him often enough anymore since he is living in Calgary. He is doing well, his business is doing great, and he's hoping to be moving back within the next year or so. He wants to move back right after the baby is born (did I mention that in February or Jan?? Either way, for those who don't know, Monica is pregnant!! Congrats!). Despite Calvin's desire to move back right away, they will probably have to wait until after Christmas (the baby is due in late August). After lunch, we came back to my place and hung out a bit. I played a couple songs for him on my guitar, and got all embarassed when he complimented me. For some reason, it is still a shock to me any time someone enjoys my music. There is still a part of me that thinks they may just be trying to spare my feelings. On that same note, I talked to Chris (K) later that night, and he complimented my music as well, and I got all flustered and embarassed. I'm such a silly girl. Anyhow, after Calvin left, I picked up Jess and Kris for our weekly outing to the Hollywood Cinemas. Impressive, we have actually managed 2 weeks in a row, but the trend will be broken as I go back on nights next week. We saw Kate and Leopold, and were intending to stay for Life as a House, but aparently we are getting old, because we were too tired to stay for the second one. (Yet somehow, I managed to stay awake and on the phone until 2 am.... you're always tired until you are actually allowed to sleep... what's with that??) Which brings us to today. Today is not going so well so far. Apparently (and I'm thinking it was when the maids dusted my room on Friday) the volume on my alarm clock was turned down really low, so I didn't hear it. I woke up with a start at 6:10, and rushed through my morning activities in order to get to work on time (how impressed am I that I was showered, dressed and ready to go by 6:23....). So I got to work about 5 minutes early (again, quite impressed there) only to find that *gasp* for the first time in about 6 weeks, someone was sitting in my desk. Yes, I am well aware that it is not actually MY desk, but I sit there every single day, and today someone else was sitting there. It was devastating... so that's my day so far. And then after that, I managed to delete my entire diary of February. Apparently there was no Feb for me. Oh well, as I mentioned before it wasn't TOO exciting, so I'll live. Well I am off to fight the masses (or answer calls as the case may be.) Until next time.... |
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