I think about all the people that has perished
family, friends, loves, all that I've cherished
I cry inside, trying not to show the pain I bare
my soul aches, I need not to share
the many feelings I experience, for I am tramatized
the depression I put myself thru, I just sat there and cried
for the many people thats hurt me
that has made tears dwell in my eyes, its a tragedy
the people thats left me, alone in this world dreamily
the people I long to hear their voice anxiously
they come to me, lecture to me, is it an illusion?
to desire to touch them, to hug them, for I need a conclusion
to put an end to all my questions
about when I will see her again, will we be together forever,
will I meet her at my final lesson
its very troubling, such despair
I need to feel loved, wanted, I desire love and care
these thoughts run thru my mind
shall I recieve these wishes and wants, I need to find
for I'll never kno til the time comes
should I just sit and twindle my thumbs
shall I go out in the world and make my fate known
these ideas run thru my mind,as they are constantly shown
I look to the higher things in my life
I turn from the knife
Put my faith in the spirit
and try to live by the holy lyrics
I have certain doubts
about why my presence is important, I take the wrong route
I run thru the ideas, about escaping this torchure trap
but I alwayz come to the conclusion , I'm not a quitter
I'll survive this life, run the breathless lap
It'll pay off one day, when I enter my eternal resting place
hopefully I'll meet my companions there, living forever in white lace
Torchuring Access to my Soul