RAIN
Sprinkles of memories drip down the window sill.
Cloudy thoughts of someone special far away bring a windy chill.
Sad tears from heaven falling to the ground puddles of a broken heart now not a pitter-patter just a quiet lonely sound.

LIFE
Life at times seems so unfair
But all we can do is learn and share
The ladder of life is the toughest to climb
And growing up should be the first step in mind
Making choices is what we all go through
Living by that choice is sometimes hard to do
Taking chances is scary at first
Expecailly when it's you who may get hurt
Getting hurt isn't something any of us want
But it makes us stronger,stronger at heart
We can only learn from the mistakes we make
And hope that next time it's the right road we take.

Last Breath
i gave Him my heart knowing that He would hold it and care for it.
He took the gift that i gave Him,holding it in His hand.
He disappeared from my sight knowing that without my heart i could not live.
i am struggling to breath reaching out for my heart,reaching out to Him.
i see Him in the distance holding my still beating heart in His hands,i reach for Him stumbling instead falling to the ground barely breathing.
He approaches looking down at me,is He going to give my heart back,no He stands there quietly intently watching me take my last breath.

The Waiting Game
You told me today that You were not sure about us. You said You needed time, time to think, time to feel, time to decide. You said You loved me but were not sure if You wanted me.
So I wait, hope and pray that my love for You is strong enough to see You through this.
I fall to my knees praying to God, please God He has my heart, He's all I want, He's what I need.
I wait patiently for the phone to ring, for it to be You on the other end telling me that You wanted me in Your life, that You needed me to confide in, to stand beside You, to love You as a friend, as a lover and a lifetime companion.

My Empty Life
When You walked out of my life a part of my world came crumbling down around me.
As You get further and further away from me I begin to feel my heart die a little, each day I cry for You, missing Your arms around me, Your comforting voice, Your soothing touch, Your loving smile, Your carefree laugh.
As I look around me and listen for that framiliar sound of Your voice, I hear nothing and don't see You, another piece of me dies.
I try with all my might to hang on to what's left of my heart and as I look in the mirror I look past my reflection to see a vast nothingness.
My life is empty without You, my heart is but a shell, where there was once a living, beating, loving heart is now nothing more than my empty life.

A Life Sentence
The courtroom is bright and filled with onlookers. This day will go down in history. The crowd murmurs as the lawyers prepare and give their clients last minute instructions and try to calm their fears.
Seated on the left is a simple but beautiful woman tears of nervousness and pain slip down her cheeks.
The judge enters and she tries to compose herself knowing that she is guilty of loving the man on the right.
She looks over at Him and their eyes lock, the judge bangs the gavel beginning the battle.
Stories are told, notes are written, tears fall as the woman speaks from her heart, His words are the same as hers.
The gavel bangs "I have heard enough" said the judge as he asked the man and woman to stand.
The crowd hushed as the judge made his ruling, "On this day" he said as he looked at the man and the woman "I sentence you both to a long and happy life, this is a life sentence".
They run to hug as the crowd cheers, they embrace and engage in a passion filled kiss.
They will live out their life sentence happily.

My Heart
When I am in Your arms my heart is soaring. When You are holding me my life is complete.
Now that You are gone my heart looks for You, yearns for You, needs You.
I can no longer reach for the sky, instead I see the world through misty eyes.
My heart is no longer soaring as I feel You slip from my life.
As my heart begins to break, I see the mistakes I have made.
All I do now is sit and ask why, why all the pain, why must I endure all this pain, haven't I suffered enough, isn't it time for some joy and happiness in my life?
I can make my own happiness but my heart wants You, needs You, my arms long to feel You again. If only You were here.

Obsession or Love
I see You in my dreams, everywhere I go there You are.
You are in my thoughts, every other word pertains to You.
I want to constantly call You just to hear Your voice, to hear You proclaim Your feelings for me.
I long to hold You, cuddle You and kiss Your sweet lips til the end of time.
You are my everything, my all, You complete me.
As I sit here wondering, am I obsessed with You or have I fallen in love with You?

The Wall
I sit in a quiet room, alone asking why.
Why has my life been one heartache after another?
Why is it that when I find happiness that it's stripped away from me?
Why am I the one to blame for all the problems in a relationship?
Was I put on this earth to carry everyone's burdens?
I have been hurt time and time again and it's always the same thing, I get close to someone, fall in love with them then they leave and I am left to pick up the pieces of my heart and try to go on.
I will soon tire of picking up the pieces and will become heartless.
But instead of becoming heartless, I build a wall around my heart.
The wall is think and made of stone, my heart beats alone.
My heart pleads to want, begs to need, longs to love.
Alas I wait, I search for a knight that will tear my wall down and take my heart gently and love it, need it, and give it a reason to beat stronger.
How long will my heart wait? Will my knight come along and rescue me? Will I love again?
Or am I destined to be in darkness forever?

My Shattered Life
He left my life today. He told me that he wanted me.
He told me that he loved me and wanted me by his side, forever.
My dreams of living with him, loving him, needing him have been shattered.
My heart is broken beyond repair, he has shattered my world, my very existence has been lost.
I wander aimlessly in the darkness calling out for help, for light, for someone to save me, alas no one comes for me, I am alone in darkness.
I fall to my knees and begin to cry, each tear hitting the floor and washing away the pieces of my shattered life.

The First Month
He came into my life and Mastered my heart, body and mind.
It was the best first month of my life, I gave Him my soul after that first month and He left with my heart in his hands.
Please take care of it and cherish it I pleaded. He gave me a piece of His heart and I held it close.
As I watched Him disappear in the distance I felt the piece of my heart He was holding start to ache.
The piece of His heart that I was holding also started to ache.
I knew deep down that soon I would be with Him, soon our hearts would be rejoined.
Even for a month, a year, or a lifetime. I have found the man that will Master me completely.

The Dream
She and I arrive at His house, She gets out of the car as She sees Him come out of His house.
She walks up to Him and hugs Him then turns and smiles at me.
I smile back from my seat in the car afraid to move afraid to look at Him.
She motions me to get out of the car, I look at Him and see Him smiling at me.
I move around to the other side of the car and my eyes meet His.
He opens His arms calling for me to come to Him.
I start to run toward Him then suddenly I awake, my arms are empty and He is nowhere around.
I sit up in my bed holding myself and sobbing wondering if I will ever be in His arms again.

Celebrating The Pain
It's been 4 weeks and 2 days since I've seen Him.
My heart broke and my spirit had begun to die.
I have never felt like this in all my life, I am in extreme pain. my comfortable and easy life was over.
My marriage had ended and the man that I love deeper than I have ever loved any man was gone.
All I wanted to do was to lay down and die, I was willing to do anything to stop this pain.
A friend spoke to me and she said that she knew how much pain I was in.
Celebrate the pain she said, it lets you know that you are human and capable of loving another.
So I will celebrate this pain hoping that someday it will turn from sorrow to joy.

The Call
As I sit listening to the radio looking out the window staring into the darkness.
I close my eyes for a moment and let a deep sigh escape.
I whisper I miss You my love, as the song and dedication come on the radio tears begin streaming down my face.
The song ends and I sit in silence wiping the tears from my cheeks.
I am startled when I hear the phone ring, I answer it and it's His voice on the other end.
Thank you for the dedication and song He says, I love you sweetheart.
I sit in silence listening to His words tears begin to fall as I whisper to Him I love You so much.
Come be with me He says, are You sure this is what You want I ask.
I have never been more sure love, come and be mine.
Yes I whisper, yes I will.

A Final Goodbye
His words on the phone were that He wanted me and He loved me.
In His letter He tells me that He has changed His mind.
My heart sinks to my feet, crushed and broken.
I sit crying and devastated wondering what I had done to push Him away.
NO my heart screams, you did nothing, He could not handle your pure and unconditional love.
Through tear stained cheeks I whisper a final goodbye on the wind.
Goodbye My Love.