MY HAPPINESS

How can they be so happy
Day after perfect day
Where are the pent up worries
That seem to get in my way
It makes me feel so jealous
To see their beaming smiles
My anger seems to drive me away
I trudge mile after mile
But happiness is fickle
It doesn't last for long
Some day they'll have to realise
That there's really something wrong
For now they just smile at me
And tell me I'm depressed
It's hard to be like them
When every day's a fatal test
Impossible to act joyful
When all around me I can see
Evil people making profits
From the world's misery
I tried to smile sometimes
To seem like everyone else
They asked if I was better
Nobody cared how I felt
I'm tired of living a facade
There seems no point to life
I can't smile about living
When Satan rolls the dice
I envy happy people
But there's one thing I know
My happiness has disappeared
I lost it, long ago