Being Transgendered - Part Two Sexuality
	Transgendered sexuality gets very very complicated and like most things about us, its almost impossible to give a clear cut view. There's one myth that needs to be shot down straight away though. And that's that all TVs are in fact heterosexual.  When I came out to my best friend, almost one of the first things he said to me was something like 'Well, of course I do realise that you guys are Straight'. I think my reply started with something like 'Ermmmmm...' I do know TVs who are Straight and I have TV friends who are Gay. Trannies interviewed  in the mainstream media almost always claim to be Straight.
I have to say that the cynic inside me puts that down to the fact that many of the TVs interviewed are married and will want to claim complete 'normality' in public. Like Mandy Rice-Davies said 'Well he would do, wouldnt he?' To be fair though, I do believe that for many of us it's actually very difficult to come to terms with our sexuality. I certainly found it so at one stage. Lets face it, it's bad enough dealing with the guilt about just being a TV at all let alone trying to work out your sexuality at the same time. Some TVs are straight, and some are gay, but in my own experience, the majority are bisexual in some way, shape of form. Told you it gets complicated ...... Regardless of sexuality, there's an underlying driver for TVs express that sexuality, and that's our Self Image.  Let me use myself as an example because at least I'm on fairly firm ground there.   It's all about the attraction of the Feminine. When I dress, when I start to put on makeup,buckle up my heels and brush my hair (false of course, oh well!) I start to feel my masculine self slip away and Trisha starts to wake up. My mind starts to work differently, even my body language changes. Helped by my heels, my walk becomes more feminine for example. The sense of the Feminine is strong. In a real way, it's a form of ritual, I suppose.  That experience, that sense of becoming someone else,  is quite unique and I can't describe it in terms of any other experience. Regardless of whether I'm dressing in private or heading out clubbing, I feel completely transformed. Now, that can be extremely sensual to me, under the right circumstances. I become a more sensual being and that can lead to a need to be sexually desirable and a strong desire within myself for sexual fulfilment. That desire must have an object and like many girls when I first started dressing  I focused initially on myself. Like most trannies are at some point, I was in love with the mirror (I'm still dreadfully vain!). 'Look at me, aren't I beautiful/sexy/desirable?' Those sort of reactions, looking into the mirror, are really very common amongst TVs. We create what in our mind is a beautiful woman - someone perhaps that we ourselves desire. And like most males would, we'll start our sexual journey as TVs by masturbating over that image. For 'Straight' TVs, that's typically where the sexual component will end unless they're lucky enough to indulge their 'lesbian' fantasies with their girlfriends or wives. Others like myself eventually want to be desired in other ways, by TV males like ourselves or masculine men who do not cross-dress. For some TVs, the sort of male attention that born natal  women enjoy - being wined and dined, treated like a girlfriend etc, is the ultimate validation of their feminine selves. The fact that they dont always get that level of attention and may have to settle for hurried sex in an anonymous hotel room, does not take away that basic desire to be treated like a 'real' girl. But I myself am not unusual in that I'm attracted to other TVs. This may seem slightly illogical, but I'm not in the slightest bit attracted to masculine men. I'm not revolted by the idea, it just doesn't appeal to me. Quite frankly I haven't the faintest idea what that makes me! And I'm really not sure how you classify the TVs who find masculine men attractive either. My wife and I were discussing the question of TV sexuality a while ago and her comment was 'When it comes to you lot, all bets are off......' I think she's right. It would be ludicrious to describe myself as anything other than Bisexual and yet its a very specialised use of the term. My view on this (and this is still something I'm not quite 100% clear about) is that firstly I'm attracted to the feminine whether its displayed by a natal woman or a reasonably attractive TV. But I'm also attracted to the sometimes well-hidden masculinity of another TV as well. As a man, I enjoy a perfectly satisfying and loving heterosexual sex life. As Trisha, my sexuality is essentially passive and female. My need is to be desired, seduced, and ultimately enjoyed by someone else and that person has to be TV also. Not only do I find the combination of masculine and feminine extremely arousing, but I also need to be able to trust that person completely in order to respond fully to them. I find that trust only with other TVs, because essentially I understand where they're coming from and what their motivations are. More Home