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| the name. shallimar. it means something, but i can't remember what it exactly means... who art thou? i'm a little person (hehe) who stands at 5'1 feet. i'm twenty years old, but i look more like I'm 12 or so. sad, ay? I'm filipino. er, filipina. doh! i have two younger brothers, one who lives out here in SF. i wasn't blessed, man. I'm the oldest and the only girl. oh well. i still think of my brothers as girls sometimes. lol. nicknames. ooh, i got a few...even more. shall, shalli, shar, smalls, shorty, lil' one(from work) there are more...but let's not go there. I prefer to be called Shall, though. heh. stubborn as a bull. yeah, I can be. I'm a Taurus, that's why. d.o.b. may 2. hometown. okay, for some reason, I'd always mix this up when I sign guestbooks and all. but yeah. I was from Guam. I lived there practically all my life. But now, San Francisco, CA is my home. whoa. I can't believe I just said that. yeah. I've been out here since October and so far, I'm loving it. It's different. It's not Guam (no shit!), but it's cool. ooh's. stars. moons. angels. blues. grays. chocolate. fruit punch & tea. photography and film.skateboarding. beaches. lookouts. skaters. (skateboarder-wise.) blue skies. sunsets. warm and cool weather. books. reading, for that matter. sleeping (which I need desperately.) being with friends. hanging out. partying (not too much now. lol.) cute things. kisses. hugs. being happy. being in love and being loved. ewws. mean, rude and ignorant people. (who i deal with most of the time at work.) guys & gals who just have that rep for being something they shouldn't be (i.e. skanks, hoes, dogs, asses, bitches, dicks....etc.) control freaks. moody people. racists. prejudice people. people who don't shower and who don't use deodorant. irritating people. people who talk smack about someone they don't know a thing about. being sad. being lonely. being hurt and left out. being out of love. not having to be with that one person you care for so much... music to my ears. punk, indie, emo, and whatever makes gets me in the mood. bands. I like The Ataris, Saves The Day, Dashboard Confessional, The Rocking Horse Winner, The Juliana Theory, The Sundays, The Corrs, The Muffs, Jimmy Eat World, At The Drive-In, Goldfinger, Kittie, Incubus, SOAD, Juliana Hatfield, NOFX, Slick Shoes, MxPx, Yellowcard, Dynamite Boy, Fugazi, The Smiths, The Ramones, Diesel Boy, Weezer, Further Seems Forever, and others. i listen to whatver I think is good and worth listening to. when I'm bored I... go online. read. sleep. clean. act stupid. walk around the city. try to check friends out. or work on this crappy piece of work i call a website. i wish... my life wasn't so complicated. that i was smarter. taller! that i had some sort of talent. (being nice and friendly isn't a talent. it's a personality.) that someone could understand me and know what I'm going through. that i didn't have to go through so much bullshit. that i wasn't so lovesick. that i didn't fall in love too quickly. that i wasn't so gullible (w/c i know I'm not, for the most part.) for world peace and an end to world hunger. [shit, i feel like I'm going through world hunger cause I hardly eat. argh!] i had someone to talk to right now. that all my friends were with me. that i could make someone smile and laugh each day. to stop feeling sorry for myself. to stop having my heart broken. to still be with him. to be in love again. to be happy. to not be so lonely... words of wisdom: "Don't let anyone tell you what you should do or who you think you should be. that's all up to you. you live your own life. they live theirs. do something for yourself and yourself only. follow your heart. follow your head. be smart and don't don't let anyone push you around...." |
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