I'm confused... But That is the nature of life, is it not? And as you move through it you try to find some point, something to hang on to to root yourself here, at the risk of becomming obsessed with it. You risk your sanity and your health, to stay sane.... which seems like a catch 22 to me. But then again, the acting definitions of sane and insane are so close together, that there is but a thin line before you cross over, and moving from one to the other is a strange process that few can do for long, and some only once..... and writting can oh so often drive you to that point and push you over because what you write you don't often think about, feelings that you hide even from yourself, and then when you are forced to face them and think about them, it boggles the mind.