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Afar

Power and Grace
Kind and Cruel
Is what you are
With your urge to rule

I hold you close
And push you away
Passing through your life
Never to stay.

I hope you know
What it meant to me
The talks we had
The way you taught me to see

The truth comes out
And I push you away
For I know that you
Were not meant to stay.

We Watch each other from afar
Our friendship on hold
And so the winds change
And it becomes cold.

Alone

How will I live,
With you not here,
I'm all alone.

I can not die,
I don't care to live,
With you not here.

I wait each night,
For your face, your voice,
But you do not show.

Too old,
Forgotten,
Is what I am.

Forgotten by my people,
Forgotten by my love,
To old to remember,
To young to know why,
You left me here,
Alone.

Pain

Broken homes,
and broken hearts,
feel the pain,
that never should have to start.

The yelling, and the curses,
invade the walls with no gain,
how can this be a person,
who causes so much pain?

People try to say they care,
but I know they don't.
People say they love,
but were never in the same boat.

To be insulted,
degraded,
pushed around,
and jaded.

Such is my life now,
such is my joy,
such are those I care for,
like that little boy.

The pain you caused,
will never leave,
but just masked,
inside of me.

{Bio-Poem}

Juliet
Beautiful, young, compulsive, naive
The Daughter of Lord Capulet
Lover of Romeo, God, and Love itself
Who needs Patience, a life, and a better family
Who gives a ring, her life, her sanity
Who fears life without Romeo, marring Paris, and being disowned
Who would like to see the fued end, Romeo safe, Tybalt alive
Resident of Verona
Sweet Juliet.

The Day

There one was a day
That started out so true
Who knew it was going to be the day
The Day that I lost you.

I still see you here with me
Though your smile is more pained
And the lines between your eyes
Become more apparent by the day.

You say that you will stay here
Forever and still more
Then tell me why is it
You are always looking toward the door?

For even though you've left me
In spirit and in mind
I still have your body
Though what is a body without a mind?

You say that you are still my friend
Dispite that fateful day
And yet I know the Truth
You belong to her, no matter what you say.

So I will send you on your way
Though I hate to see you go
For by staying you will cause but more pain
When she steals away the show.

So this is my good-bye to you
Before I shove you out that door
For this is all I'll say to you
For there isn't any more.

Eyes

Golden eyes,
The eyes that haunt my dreams,
That never seem to say Good-bye.

They seem to stare into my soul,
Seem to hold secrets,
That they don’t want to let go.

Eyes that hold my gaze,
Staring with emotions that I don’t comprehend,
Eyes that make me feel whole.

Failed

Past
future
failed to
nurture
growing
flowers
blooming
in the showers
of rain
velvet petals
falling
onto metal
cold
hard
sick
tar
sticky
stuck
good-bye
truck
hello
floweres
on the
hour
falling
sweetly
failed to
need me.

To Feel

Blood dripping,
flowing,
scarlet drops of gems,
glowing.

The sweet pain,
stinging and soothing,
eases the pain in my soul,
forever living,

They want me to stop,
The slicing and dicing,
but how can I stop,
when the pain keeps me going?

To stop is to die,
of unfeeling numbness,
You need fear to feel hope,
You need pain to feel happiness.

So I will cut away,
to feel the pain,
to know I'm alive,
to be happy again.

Falling and Flying

Falling and Flying
I'm standing on a cliff,
The gray sky above,
The jagged peaks below,
Shall I fly like a dove?

The wind breaks the branches of the trees,
But it will not break me,
Cause I can fly, or I can fall,
Either way I win it all.

Cause Life is Rich with Pain,
And pain is rich with hope,
And though I feel alone,
I know that you're here too.

Watching and waiting,
Urging me to fly,
I step off the cliff,
Prepared to die.

I'm falling and flying both at once.
To kill by touch,
And exhilaration,
The ones that I care for so much

Cause it doesn't matter,
If I sink or swim,
Cause you will still be there,
Watching from within.

I know that you're not mine,
So I fly away,
Cause there's no reason left to stay,
And feel more pain.

Though I cannot feel it,
Cause I've felt too much,
To feel this little bit,
Cause now I'm numb so much.

And Now I fly away,
To the rocks below,
For thats where I'm headed,
And where I want to go.

Cause Life is full of pain,
And happiness too,
And the happiness is most,
When I'm through.

Cause then you will not worry,
And no one will have to care,
If I'm left behind,
If I'm even here.

So I will leave,
But something holds me back.
I must watch you fly too,
Before I turn my back.

Foam

Crying and chrashing
Swooping gulls and sky unite
Foam against the boat

Good-Bye

The Way things seem
Is often not true
The way that I,
Am now leaving you

I take my leave
And my Poems too,
Its time to go,
So I bid you adu.

I Thank you all,
That said kind words,
But I must go,
To use my swords

So this is Farewell,
To one and all,
I shall not be back
It is time to fall.

GEOMETRY

Shapes and Figures
Angle Measures
Such are the things
That bring me pleasure

Oh Geometry
With your figures,
And your properties,
And other things linear.

Your points,
And your graphs,
With your equations,
And oh wait, I need a bath.

I wonder at the volume,
Of this tub of mine,
And calculated the distance,
Of Rhythm and Rhyme

Left and right,
Rise over run,
Lift me up,
To reach the sun.

Time and distance,
Planes and lines
Points and rays
And shapes of our signs.

Such are things
That Geometry gives
To those it teaches
And to those who preach it.

HELP!!!

HELP ME!
I feel like I am screaming,
And yet no one can hear me,
In my own despair I'm drowning!

HELP ME!
I cry out to everyone,
But they pass me by,
Cause to them I'm no one.

HELP ME!
My soul does cry,
As it drowns
Deep inside

But there's no one left to hear me,
No one left who cares,
And no matter what I still cry out,
Though there's nothing you can do or dare.....

HELP ME!!!
I'm crying out to you...
HELP ME!!!!
There's nothing more I can do!
I'll say I'm happy, but inside,
I'm dying for some help,
But no one can hear what I cry,
No one hears my soul yelp.

So I cry inside,
While smiling,
So I die inside,
While laughing.

HELP ME!
HELP ME!
But you can't,
help me....

Here on my Own

And then your gone
leaving me alone
but theres nothing to fear
here on my own.

Cause life changes with each day
And the breezes never stay
but I find nothings insane
quite like this day
when I'm on my own.

Insane is a state of mind
like others it has point of contact
and though others may fear you
and say stop that,
it doesn't matter cause you know the truth

If people are chasing you,
make them stop
If people are leaving you
ask them to stay
but nothing prepared me for this day on my own

They say I'm crazy
But then they do not care
What all I've seen
while standing here
And though times are tough
I'll make it through
Don't you wish the same
could be said about you

For here on my own, I'll make it work
Cause I know that hard times are part of this world
And I know that pain is temparary,
And I know that fear, doesn't exist.

Time is passing me by so fast
I try to stop and make it last
but I cannot stop
or make it start
so I'll make do with the rest of my heart.

Little Princess

Little Princess,
Where have you gone,
Leaving me all alone?

Gone from your palace,
all alone,
away from us all.

Little Princess,
You, and you alone,
Can find the missing pieces to my soul.

Little Princess,
Find the missing pieces of the glass,
And you shall know your past.

Little Princess,
Help me please,
and come home soon to me.

It Doesn't Matter

It doesn't matter what they say,
It only matters what they do,
And what they do shows they do not care,
why my face is turning blue....

They do not want to hear the reasons,
Why I lie through smiling lips,
Why I bleed from my torn up wrists,
They just want to go on with their lives.

I know this, have watched this,
It so doesn't matter any more.
If they do not care,
Why should I,
If it doesn't matter anyway.

Cause no one cares,
Stuck behind a chair,
Here with me
is silence...

Cause it doesn't matter what they say,
It only matters what they do,
And what they do shows they do not care,
Why I'm lying to them.

They don't wanna know the truth,
They are happy with their lies,
As long as they have their
Oh so perfect lives.

They don't want to know my pain,
That I keep inside of me,
They don't want to hear what's wrong,
They just want to get along.

So it doesn't matter what they say,
It only matters what they do,
And what they do shows they do not care,
About why you're bleeding, too.

Me

Didya ever get the feeling
that no one even cares
that your even there
your hopeless

and you try to play it cool
like its no big thing
listen to them sing
its helpless

and they say that your to blame
for each and every thing
and your styles lost that zing
its sadness

it invades your very soul
makes you feel unwhole
and like you've been sold
its emptyness

and when you know that your to blame
and that life sucks everyday
and in every way
thats when you know you're...... INSANE

CAUSE LIFE HATES YOU
AND YOU HATE LIFE
AND DEATH IS NOT AN OPTION

FOR YOUR TO BLAME
AND DEATH IS HATE
AND HATE IS LOVE THAT SUCKS

WHEN YOUR DOWNING IN YOUR OWN DISPARE!
AND YOU'RE FEELING LIKE NO BODY IS THERE!
THAT WHEN YOUR..... MEEEEEEEE

Memory

Ghosts wander the dusty halls,
Gliding thru the locked doors,
Of my Memory.

I try the doors,
But all are locked,
The keys long since thrown away.

The faces seem so familiar,
And yet so vague,
Smiling as they move away.

I reach out and almost touch,
The one I see so much,
But he drifts away, into my
Memory

Names

Names,
I have one and so do you,
We use them every where,
We even use them in the zoo.

Diffrent sizes,
One and all,
Last forever,
Never to fall.

My name will live on,
And so will yours,
Like angel wings,
On heavens doors.

Our Names have wings,
And will fly away today,
Coming back tommarrow,
With no delay.

It was once said,
That True names were rare,
And though every one had one,
To use them was to cause a scare.

Names should be freely used,
Because if they are,
If they can be,
Then we will always end up under par.

Names,
Forever mysterious and alone,
But it's like coming home,
When you use your own.

And in Heaven,
Shall Names reign,
Forever and ever,
and always.

Never Again

Never again will I stand here,
Waiting in fear,
For the blow that has yet to come.

Never again will I keep quiet,
With my eyes squeezed shut,
As the injustices happen again.

Never again,
This I vow,
Will I see and not help,
Will I hear and not speak.
Never again will I suffer in ignorance at your hands,
The hands that I fear,
The hands that killed her.

I am worth it.
We are worth it.
We will not be quiet,
We can not be silenced.
We are the future that dwells in the past.
We are the past that depends on the future.
We are one.
One mind, one heart, one spirit, one race, one goal.

We said nothing thru the tedious labor,
We stood quiet while she screamed,
We did not say,
we could not see, The way you treated her.

Never again
Never again.

Peace

a sense triggered
by so many diffrent things
after you find the trick you'll say "I figured"
For me the trigger is simple
and yet complex
all it needs is a walk in the rain
When I'm not a conquest.
Its complication is neither walking nor rain
But rather in obtaining
the state of awareness
that for some is draining
The Rain seems to be a gift
from the Gods
The messages I must shift.
You see, its cimmunication
that is my peace
why I walk through the rain
with relative ease.

Eclipse

Celestial walts
Beckons me
The orphans rage
The blindness leaves

Moonstruck teardrops
Against the brightest silhouette
The runaways paused
Creative pirouette

Interplanetary waltz
Dances so beckoningly
The sorrow leaves
As the moon eclipses rightly.

Run

My sneakers slap the pavement
Muscles strain in harmony
Swat trickles down my leg
Wind cools the ache
As the sunset fades to shadow

Run2

Wind flows by me
or maybe
me by it
it depends on what you see

I feel
like I'm flying
free
But I'm almost scared of falling

I don't know
if my next step
will land in air
or push off from the ground all wet

I just know
of no strain
of flying
without a name

nearly soaring
but stumbling
nearly driven to my knees
how humbling

but I'll fly again
straight into the sun
each time that I
Run.

Sky

Sky meets surf
Surf meets shore
Slapping and chrashing
a foamy silhouette.

Sorry

Sorry
Writting
unwinding
biting
with sorrow
and pain
forever
the same
all that changes
now is true
and I could say
the same for you
sorrow
and sickness
back off
and witness
the rebirth
of new life
shaddowed
with strife
lost to the
world
it'll make
your hair curl
Sorry,
writting
Come back
sighing.

So it is

To think before I speak,
To die before I wake,
So are the things I hope.

To live life with out fear,
To heal with every tear,
Such are the things I do.

And yet perfection is a word,
That seems to me like a bird,
Forever flying above my reach

Songs of the Wind

The songs are sung.
by wind and stars,
and echoes through the trees
and the monkey bars

They sing of things
we cannot see
and do not feel
and are filled with might be's.

Who they speak of
I do not know
why they cry
They will not show

But their cries echo in my ears,
echo in my soul
their pain is so great,
I nearly lose control

But I cannot lose,
so here I stay,
And with saddness in my ears,
I watch the children play.

Standing

I hear their screams,
See their tears,
So I heal them,
Of their fears,

But when I'm done.
There's no one left,
To hear my screams,
Cause I'm second best.

No one cares bout second best,
First is all that matters,
So I take care of First,
And hope that something matters.

It doesn't matter what I do,
I still scream inside,
I do not feel the pain,
Could it be that I have died?

I don't know why I scream,
Cause pain does not exist,
I don't know why I cry,
Why the Tears persist.

It doesn't matter what I do,
I'll still be left alone,
A memory fading,
While I'm still standing here alone.

Untitled

Tired and lonely is how I feel,
Left alone here, waiting for the kill.
Waiting to kill or be killed, it doesn't matter,
As long as it ends, with out much blather.

I wait in the darkness and cold,
My hair is now white, though I'm not so old.
The pain this has cause me has given me scars,
But that's all behind me, or stuffed in jars.

They do not force me to fight,
But instinct breeds might,
And so I fight to die,
I will not lie.
I will kill if given a chance,
I cannot stop, no matter what the chance.
I cannot stop,
Even though it only requires a short hop.

Untitled2

One by one
they walk on by
forever silent
in their line

I watch them from afar
forever apart
from the rest of the poeple
away do I dart

I cannot stand to see them leave
but everywhere I go
it seems like
the line follows me

Theres no place left to run
no place left to hide
but I cannnot face the drones
made of my own kind

I cannot face the emptiness
that they place inside
or the eternal questions
the wondering of why

When I ask the few I face
a question or two
they look at me
like I'm blue

They do not know the reasons
although they think they do
and it is for that reason
that I run away from you

Untitled3

Have you ever felt like falling
because you're so unsure
but you cannot help but try flying
though you know it will hurt

it will hurt your bones and muscles
and all you innner parts
but do not worry cause you see
your body will bust apart

but if you do not fall
nor try to fly
then the damage is no less
though it apears so outside

your heart and soul
will decompose
and happiness is not an option
when your facing an abduction....
away from yourself
away from your soul
away from the ones who keep you alone
away from the hate
away from the love
away from every thing incuding heaven above.....
away from the pain
away from the gains....
away from everything
because you're..... gone.

Untitled4

gone
forever
changing
for better
or worse
it is not known
what has happened
to the bones
of the saints
that blessed the Earth
forever young
never gave birth
to sickness and pain
death unreasurected
lost without gain
war reincarnated
never won
only lost
both sides dead
oh what a cost
for this bitter world to face
when the light is gone
there is only dark
in varing shades
without a mark
do they vanish
the ones who could save
this foresaken place
without using pain
to get what they needed
to feel what the do
and if every things happy
than its no place for you
cause you thrive off of pain
and I do too,
but with nothing to gain
we are lost

Untitled5

one
in two
how strange
says you
but what if
the two were
not really one
where they ever
part of the fun
that those whom are one
have so much
laughing over
a picnic lunch
watching
waiting
anticipating
the changing
of the season
with winds and rains galore
oh what this earth
has in store
for its children
noses run
and eyes cry
but still I can't help
but wonder why
the one
is two
when that makes
one blue

Untitled6

Falling
graceful
sounding
faithful
to the
mirror
comming nearer
eyes that watch
who you are
eyes that know
everything you are
do you know who they belong to
do you know where they reside?
They belong inside your mind
and in the mirror do they hide
to follow you in endless arch
in the shadows of the dark
hidding waiting forever faithful
to the memory of your precious ark
they warn you
and try to save you
but no matter what,
they can't help but be you
your opposite in everything
never more the same
no one else you'll find
When your reflection is your bane.

Untitled7

Death
Life
Opposites
In strife
Attracting
Reacting
mist the pain
refracting
Light
on a dark and stormy day
and false
is everything you say
Then Life is Death
And the oppisite is true
its know use wondering
why the sky is blue
Why Death is fate
unescapable
but true
we are not unbreakable
Life is taken
Death has won
But is it dark or light
the burning of the sun
holds truth, but lies
everything of the same king
survives
and theres nothing left,
not even your mind.

Worship

To the Creator,
of all that I love,
and Hate,
May peace greet you like a dove.

With all of your perfection,
and Grace,
the Earth is like,
your beautiful Face.

With all of your truth,
and Light,
How can anyone not see,
your might.

With all of your joy,
and peace,
and ultimite release

I worship you,
For now,
and ever,
I bow.

You Say

You Say I smile More now,
That I look so much happier,
I laughed and turned away.

Thank you for your words,
For in truth, I was deeply touched,
That you even noticed me.

Words that can seem so small to you,
Can mean so much to people like me,
Who hardly ever hear them.

It may seem like I don't care,
But I really, and truely do,
I just have learned not to show it.

I care what you think and what you say,
I listen and take your words to heart,
As I replay your words in my head at night, I cry.

You say I smile more now,
That I look so much happier,
But it is all just an act.

Untitled 8

Excuse me
while I kill myself
bleed myself
defile myself

Hang myself out
for the dogs to rip about
feel the mercy gone astray
away from this bitter pain

Feel the blood
pour from the wounds
for it is better
than loving you

And letting myself be hurt again
By dogs or by harsh words
it matters not, the pain you spread
is yet far worse.

For loving you was a mistake
that I have yet to regret
for even though your words strike me like a stake
your personality is far to pleasent for me to forget.

Untitled 9

Changing
Forever
locked between
endeveor
and failing
to light up
the darkness
that that fills up
the surrounding
existance
and without
persistance
you can't
help but
perish
from one cut
that strikes so deep
and slices open
all the pain
that you've been copen
with for so long
goes down the drain
forever lost
good-bye pain
hello blood
red and thick
dark against light
thats so hard not to lick
obsession and sanity
black and white
and all that kills is vainity

Untitled10

What do you do when you feel the end is comming,
and that you're being left behind?
That the world of wonder will be created,
but only at the cost of your life.
Your friends and loved ones continue on,
though your falling down.
And as the strain becomes to much,
thats when the world falls .......

Untitled11

To feel and not know
what patterns unfold
the way the sun gleams
against the barrell of a gun.

To shoot, to kill
or not shoot, and let live
a choice to make
one will make the world begin

The other will send the world to its doom
And who will be able to save it then?
Not me
Maybe you?

Untitled12

They flow in endless rings
around each and every thing.
And if they stop before I'm through.
I pray my soul to you
For then the world will end
But that is yet beyond the bend
of the road in front of me,
Ending when I cease to be.

Untitled13

blackness surrounds
the people of today
I do not quite understand why
they enjoy causeing pain

It looked like obsidian, with specks of white, the sea foam stirred up from the wakes of the passing ships. She watched the water move under the hull, never seeming to break, and yet, never seeming to be so hard that it wouldn't. The boat moved over the glassy surface, so dark, black and beckoning, just to churn it and make it into a golden brown color with a white border of foam that would take awhile to dissipate. It called to her, asking her to go and dance in it, its sirens song captivating. She longed for the water the way a man dying of starvation longed for food. His body craved it more than anything, and his mind accepted the fact that he was never going to get any. Such as it was with her. She knew that the water would keep on calling her to dance forever with it, to give herself fully over to an embrace that would shed her mortal coils and make her free in a way that she could not even begin to imagine. All she had to do was dance, and breathe. Breathe in the water that would make her whole, kill the body, but not the mind. She couldn't do that. She had too much left unfinished, to many to save and consul to leave them, even if she was tired and acheing more than an old fisherman just before the biggest storm ever. She could take it and bear it in silence, just one more challenge to be overcome, one more half victory, and another piece of her heart killed forever

Those Dead Tell No Tales

Cold places,
rich soil,
red with blood,
those that died
will never again see their families
Frozen in time
a place forgotten
hidden by magick
frozen by space
forever forgotten by those who lived
and those who died
can tell no tales.
Died over a girl
the first battle of God and Satan
of Good and Evil
but which was which?
Who speaks the truth?
Only the dead know
and those dead tell no tales
But those born again are regaining their memories
watch out world,
you're in for a show.

Misunderstood

Days went by
By striving
To be understood
For such would be so satisfying.

When dancing in the rain
She hoped not to be thought strange
But that some would join in,
Instead of locking her in a cage

Behind bars is no place
For a bird as beautiful as this
But alas! To them her spirit must be caught
That maybe she could give it in a kiss

But a spirit should not be shared
For in doing so, it loses all its glow
Ad ends up so much less
Then if they had let is show.
But her cries went unanswered
More food given instead
So dreadfully misunderstood
And understood when dead.

Fairies

Pixies and elves call this their home
The steady wood so dear to them
And if you are watchful, you may see
The power that calls to them.
In this power they find peace
And if you wish it
So will you
And you too could dance with the all things sunlit.
But be warned
For such a thing is not for the faint of heart
To take that extra breathe of life
To let the arrow pierce reach its mark
Your life you must first give up
And then give in to Fairy ways
To forget those you knew
For they were not meant to stay
Are you ready to give up that life?
To leave it all behind?
If yes your answer be
Then prepare to meet the like mind.

A Done Deed

Spriling downward
Red turned pink
Distilled by water
Most would not drink

Drop after Drop
Growing in number
Sapping strength
While the others slumbered.

Down to knees
Warm flesh meets cold tile
Arms slip
White porcilin stained red for awhile

Tears mingle
With still flowing blood
The child cried
Realizing what they have done

Closed eyes
Looks like sleep
While into water red
Blood still does seep.

Child of Love

Alone
But not
This Child of Love
In this world well sought.

Loved by many
Persued by some
Why is this child
Picking up a gun

Born of Love
Brought up in Hate
Feeling so torn
Tired of pretending like everythings great

But there's no where to hide
From one's own self
No secrects to keep
Up on a shelf

When the runner cannot run
And the hider cannot hide
They are forced to face the truth
To get rid of all the lies

And yet this child picks up a gun
And holds it to her head
For though she loved life itself
The others might be better when she's dead

So she pulls the trigger
Blood splatters everywhere
She lost her life that night
Thinking none would shed a tear.

The next day the halls were quiet
The light seemed more dim
Sobs the only sound that broke in
For the Child of Love found dead.

Curse

stuck between two places,
through both thick and thin,
not quite living,
and not yet dead.

My curse is to,
love what I hate,
to push it away,
and long to enfold it in an embrace

To mourn the living, and congratulate the dead.
to miss the truth, embrace the lies.
feel the beating heart still,
yet one more time..

Chasing the moon,embracing the sun,
living the lies, flowing with the tide,
further out than I've gone before,
missing the long gone sight of the shore.

I love the shore
But the shore hates me
I guess that we
Were not meant to be.

Opposites,
but the same
Such are we
who are to blame.

And now our curse has gone too far
To blind us from the lies
of the hatred
that now infests human kind

So now it is time
to end the curse
And so with this verse,
We that fought to save the world do die.

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When your only sin is remembering
And the answers aren't so clear
No matter what else is happening
Know that I'll always be there

(c)You can count on me
Through thick, and thin
You can count on me
To the very end.

I will let you go
So that you
Can live and love again
There's nothing else to do.

(c)

Sometimes you just gotta let it go
And the will become clear
But even if they don't
I will always be there.

(c)

When your only sin is remembering
And the answers aren't so clear
No matter what else is happening
Know that I'll always be there, for you.

And Baby I love you.

The Terror of the Night

When the wind blows so cold
And the lightnings so bright
You'll hide under the covers
On that cold winters night.

But when the storms end
And the sun shines bright
You'll forget all about
That cold winter's night.

You'll dance and you'll sing,
though rather off key,
You'll whine and you'll scream
Which rarely bothers me

For when you're happy
The world seems bright
And we forget all about
The Terrors of the Night.

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I miss the warmth of the past
Feel the heat of the dying sun
Wish that this could last again
But the battle has only begun
Hand made God
How great do we think we are,
To make something as powerful as that
We cannot even make our selves survive
The winter blasts
Don’t ask for the reasons
As the battle rages on
Its happening way to fast
Mankind’s chance is nearly gone
We’re dying and we don’t even know it
Doing our best not to show it
To everyone that comes wandering by
Gee, aren't you Mr. Nice Guy
Hiding behind this façade of yours
Forgot it was the only way to make it work
Sorry now we’re all leaving you behind
Going on to this new life
Wishing that the past would stay with you
Not that it ever has but still
It would be nice
Not to be haunted by suicide.

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Cause its God
That burns a Light inside
Cause its God
That keeps the shadows from the night
So raise your hands
Rejoice in this wonder
Cause its God
The power running through my veins
Cause its God
Nothings quite the way it seems
God is the reason for our prayers
And the protector from our fears
It’s truly God, yeah
He's saving souls as a past time
Don't let yours get away
Just raise your hands and REJOICE!
Rejoice in the sour notes
For it means that you hear true
Rejoice in the faint of heart
For they are truly you
Rejoice in all things great and small
Interconnected that we are
Rejoice in the happiness
For everything will forever be.

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I wish that
My fate was falling
Cause then I’d be done
With all my crying
Waiting with a silver gun

I missing the happy feeling
That I got inside
Every time you held me
Then you said good-bye

Now I’m falling off a cliff
That exists inside my mind
Too lonely to stay afloat
To fight to stay alive.

You brought me hope for a little while
Though you were unsure
But now your gone and I’m done crying
Over your last words.

I’ve crushed on you for a while
I’m not sure to call it love
But now you know my secrets
And gave me the last shove

Over the cliff
Falling or flying
I know not which
Maybe I’m just dying.

I can’t help but hope
That you’ll come back someday
To help me out again
How I long to hear you say

That you’ll always like me
Just the way I am
You don’t have to love me
Just be here when you can.

Instead you say you hate me
Then come running back
To tease me again
But I like you
And welcome any noise
That comes even when you say
That you hate me.

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I wish that you would hold me
And make me feel secure
It doesn’t mean you love me
I know that for sure.

I know that you really hate me
Deep down inside
For I am everything you hate
Full of trouble and lies.

But I still wish that you were here
To hold me one more time
To make me feel like I’m not alone
That I could live life right.

But you will not hold me
For one reason or another
And so I go on lonely
Being a major bother.

I feel like I’m tumbling out through space
Lost and alone in the galaxy
Drifting away from everything
Wishing you would hold your hand out to me

But you won’t even offer me that comfort
Of knowing someone cares
But then you really hate me
Pity for my tears

Not that it really matters
But what if I loved you first?
Would you still hate me then
Teasing till I burst?

But shhh, its still a secret.
No one else can know
Cause if they knew they would pity
The boy for the show.

I wish it were not so
But it matters not
My Death is still beside me
Waiting to let me rot.