| I'm afraid to love again, I ask you to understand, The only one I ever loved Left my heart a barren land. I'm afraid fulfillment would elude me, In a lifetime... does it ever come twice? Anything less would surely undo me, I choose not to pay that price. I'm afraid to again feel the pain, That consumed me in the end. I couldn't bear it this time, As my unsuspecting heart did then. I'm afraid to give my all---‘ Tho you promise the same in return, Love may again flee, Like the "genie" from a magical urn. And to give less than my all, would be unfair to you. You deserve so much more, A love dedicated and true. I want to love again, In the way I'm capable of, I will not settle for less, I yearn for abiding love. At this moment I have nothing to hope for, Nothing else to give... I've been robbed of one of life's treasures, It's main reason to live. I am so vulnerable at this time, I fear what my actions will be, I will not make a decision Until my heart is free. I love you as a friend, And I want to do what's right, Let me heal a while longer.... I'll hasten, with all my might. I need to be worthy of what you offer, So there's no loss... only gain. I never want to cause anyone, This kind of endless pain. Please... be patient with me |
| FEAR OF LOVING |
| S. Hall Zilla |