if I had just one dream
it would be to sit by Jesus the Christ
looking in his eyes
listening to his words
catching him smile
wondering about the transformation
from Jesus the child to Jesus the man,
of a mortal heart to Holy Spirit
how could he love the way he loved?
how could I learn to emulate?
forgive me, but I'm filled with hate
and cynicism, suspicion, revulsion
of ugliness and yuckiness and blandness
in people, God's children,
so I guess, my own
brothers, sisters
but not really
I don't see myself in them
then again
if I had this one wish
the world would be in harmony
wait, let's make it the universe
all kinds with all joy
joy within and joy without
God weeps!
tears of happiness
no more ignorance
away indifference!
I care, you care, we care
caring is divine
y'know what I mean
never mind!
'cause there's no dream
and there's no wish
all spent, all wasted, all dead
now I wait for the next day
same like today, same like the last
days, slow, days, fast
and I pray to Jesus my savior
help me bear my sorrows.
August 1999
thai ta
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