24 Feb 05 (Thurs)
Home and having a slight migraine. It's probably the time of the month. Hormones fluctuating like mad and am quite acting dysfunctional for now. I woke up early this morning irritated by what seemed to be the smell of burning woods. I dislike that kind of smell.
20 Feb 05 (Sun)
Hot lazy day today. Seems like drought here. No rain for weeks now and read in the paper that this hot weather will last till April. Hell.
Went to the MAS Travel Fair 2005 at the Sabah Trade Center yesterday. Damn cheap fares to everywhere and the temptation seems much greater than when the fare to Bali is less than RM700! But, am so broke for that you see. Haiya...hope there'll be another similar fair sometime soon. By the way, I'm planning to be at the Rainforest World Music Festival (RWMF 2005) in Kuching this July. Hopefully, there's moola by then. Music enthusiasts out there, this festival you really have to go! Truly world class! Cool music, cool people, cool everything. It's a really happening thing! If you haven't booked your plane tickets and accommodation, do it now! Unless you have friends or relatives living in Kuching, hotel accommodation especially get fully booked during that time.
14 Feb 05 (mon)
They said today is Valentine's Day, so i receive tons of "Happy Valentine" wishes from friends and 'secret' admirers (i hope they're not stalkers) but got no flowers from any of them. Oh-ho dat! I actually really forgot how special today is so i don't mind if it's just getting simple wishes from people. Today used to be so special for me, but i guess when you are single and not dating (anymore), you just skip all that mushy loveydovey thingy altogether.
"The longer I live, the more I realize that the hardest thing is just relationships," says Robert Brancatelli, an assistant professor of religious studies at Santa Clara University in California's Silicon Valley. "It's hard enough to figure out yourself, let alone another person." Colleges are now offering classes on relationships<---why didn't they thought of doing this five, ten years or ages ago when we were all so naive and in college falling in love blindly. Breakups would at least be easier to handle, less agonizing and less painful. I had to learn and experience things the hard way.
Watched repeats of the Grammy just a few hours ago. Didn't really pay attention at who won what. I was more interested at the fashions of the evening. I really like Jennifer Lopez's outfit this time. I think she's very sexy too. I think i also like this picture of her--taken from previous Grammys.
So my bro finally is engaged. Wedding date is set for May 29 and the venue will be in Tamparuli. Oops, did not manage to take digital pictures during the engagement so got to wait for the scanned ones.
I finally have my own internet account. It means i can access the internet anytime i want now. Yay! It also means i'm able to update this site often now.
09 Feb 05 (Wed)
Happy CNY, happy holidays. An hour to Del's engagement to Artinah. I haven't taken my morning shower. I am still so very sleepy. Went to bed at 2 am. Was reading and dreaming. Well, I should go offline soon. Need to shave my legs, pull my armpit hairs and search for what to wear. Take care. Will be back to update sometime this evening. Hopefully, be able to upload pictures from the engagement.
Muah. Shower time!!!!
06 Feb 05 (Sun)
I spring-cleaned my room today. Encountered a bezillion of the long-legged spiders with tiny heads. You know, the kind that makes endless webs on your ceilings and corners. The kind that you can bully and smack on easily. Since i'm an arachnophobic, i sucked them all with the vacuum cleaner. I know i'm bad and you really can tell how terrified i am of them by looking at how much web has been weaved on my ceilings. But today, i 'braved' them leggy creatures with a vacuum cleaner. Hehe.
Dad is arriving from Penang in a few minutes. Del has gone to pick him up at the airport. Dad is here to attend Del's upcoming engagement with a wonderful girl called Artinah. It's three days from now (9th) and i am curious to know how my bro is feeling about finally settling down. It's really about time for him anyway.
05 Feb 05 (Sat)
I missed church service again. Not that this is the first time, but I mean, really, it's been five whole months. They'd really think i've backslided now. What's worst is that i'd been selected as one of the church pianists for 2005. Eek! Hmmm..
I taught 7 kids at the music academy today. I'm hoping to shift all lessons to Sunday soon. A li'l coordination is needed with the CEO of the academy. She knows i attend church on a Saturday and am pretty flattered to hear she thinks the SDA church choirs are amazing. :) Btw, this is freelancing i'm doing at the music academy, not a real job. I'm so dying to shop, to get that sexy black stilletos i had been eyeing on since moonies ago, but with only a meager amount i'm getting, i know i'm not currently able to fulfill my momentary wants. Which is so sad for me.:( *sobs*
04 Feb 05 (Fri)
It's pure laziness today. I didn't get up until 9:30 this morning. Sipped two mugs of green tea, my usual morning fix these days. That tea has actually helped me get rid of toxins out of my system. And oh, news now is that I have lost 3 kgs since i started going without rice and bread (and junkies) three weeks ago. Yay! I still need to work out though 'coz it's taufu i still feel, flabby and all. Guess what? someone has so kindly asked me to join him in partnership for an outdoor competition in May. It's the local 4M Kiulu Challenge competition which is held annually for the fit, brave and adventurous. But, Me? Taufu? You must be kidding i said, but he said he'll help me train and build up some stamina (and, perhaps, muscles..hehe) for the competition. I really am not sure about this...but we'll see.
The filipino drama i am addicted to ended today. Although Christian and Ara ended up together, I feel the ending sucks so badly. They didn't even show any scene of Ara meeting Christian to tell him that it's him that she wants to spend the rest of her life with. Suddenly, it's a wedding in a church???? And whatever happened to Leo for heaven sake? Luckily, i'm just addicted to the drama and did not waste my cellphone credits on voting. Hehe.
03 Feb 05 (Thurs)
Am i not aware of this or what?...that it seems like it was just yesterday that we turned the page into a new year and now we're already in the second month of 2005. Days are going really fast, ain't it? News is that I am still savoring my own sweet time, taking a furlough, feeling somewhat happy with this current state i'm in. When others seem quite concern about me being still jobless (and very broke), i find this long break very enriching to my need to be happy. Not that i was never happy before, but the kind of happiness i'm feeling now gives me a much more fulfilling sense of liberty to my mind and soul. I can't describe it better. I'm just happier now i feel. And i definitely want to associate it with being single, being closer to my family...and being jobless (haha).
Last night was great fun listening to the local university orchestra perform with a Malaysian singer called Anuar Zain. International musicians from Singapore also performed with two tango dancers. Sexy legs, i tell you! Wait a minute, did i hear that Anuar Zain is going gay?...but he looks like a decent straight guy last evening. Oh well.
My addiction to the filipino drama Sanay Wala Nang Wakas will come to an end. Tomorrow's the last episode. I know what's the ending like already and it's what i have expected--Christian and Ara gets married and live happily ever after. Leo fans out there, don't get mad at me. Hehe.
28 Jan 05 (Fri)
Someone is burning something in this neighborhood and the burning smell is definitely not an aphrodisiac for my senses. The smell irritates the whole out of me. It's the smell of burning woods.
Having a really bad cough this moment. Sore throat with it. Feels terrible. Maybe it's an effect from the internal stress that i find myself currently reacting to. And a lack of rest. I am still so exhausted from the endless practices i had committed myself into the past few weeks. The practices were for a friend's wedding which was held at Sacred Heart in KK Wednesday past. Stresses?..about a lot of things but am staying calm.
Anyway, i'm off to watch Sanay Wala Ng Wakas. Christian (Ara's first love) has accepted Leo's (Ara's current bf) offer to work at Villa Arabella. Will Ara's feelings for Christian revive again when she finds out that Christian will be working alongside her? Hahahaa...see i'm hooked to this filipino drama. It's ending next week and guess what? they have a voting system on for this drama as well. Crazy. So if Christian won on the votes, the producers put on the Christian-Ara happy ending, otherwise, it would be Leo-Ara which i'm not for. Hehehe...i know the majority wants a Leo-Ara ending but too bad the votes are higher for Christian. Woohoo!
Friday. It means the weekend is here. Have a good one people! Take care!
p.s. Randi of 'my fat obnoxious fiance' won a handsome sum--half a million for her and half a million for her beloved family. The producers changed the game plot along the way. They gave her the money not because she's managed to convince her family that she's getting married but because of her love for her family, that she's willing to do anything to make a difference in the lives of her sibs and parents. Her family won another half a million because, despite rejecting Randi's decision, they still stood as a unit and proceeded on attending her make-believe wedding. It was about the strong love for each other.
27 Jan 05 (Thurs)
Am looking forward to watching a reality show tonight--My fat obnoxious fiance! Is she going to win that million dollars? Tensions growing among her family members who do not seem to agree with her decision to marry someone who, according to them, is not her ideal man. What they do not know is that the whole wedding thingy is a false one and that it's just a reality game that she's got herself into and she's doing this for her family, for the money. The sad thing is that it is breaking her heart now to see her family tearing apart and not wanting to participate in her so called 'wedding'. I think she's very brave. We'll see what happens ya.
American Idol 4 audition is now going on. I haven't done my personal select yet. We'll see.
25 Jan 05 (Tues)
"A wish held fervently turns into belief, and belief held diligently becomes reality."--Jim Stovall
Pardon me for the long silence. Could be writer's block. Could be my plain laziness on articulating my days. I'm really wondering if people do actually read this stuff in here. Whatever it is, today i'm attempting to write to my heart's content. Anything, anything that comes to my mind.
I turned 28 yesterday a month ago. I don't know anymore if you'd consider that young or old. I s'pose age is just a number. If this is of any consolation to you and you and I, i think that if you're always happy, smiling, jumping, dreaming and excited, you're still young. Once you stop doing all that, it's a symptom you're tired and old. Hehe. Wheeewit! I'm still young baby!
Here are a few things (among others) i'd like to do in 2005: 1. Learn how to dive and get an OW PADI license. 2. Buy a Yamaha upright piano. 3. Move out from the family's house and rent an apartment in KK. 4. Attend RWMF 2005 in Kuching in July. 5. Love again. 6. Get my driving license. 7. Be more outgoing and brave. 8. Read two motivational books a month. 9. Keep fit and maintain weight at 45kg. 10. Go to church (hehe).
Utter devastation is all i can say about the recent tsunami that has hit countries that least expected natural catastrophes to happen--Malaysia in particular. I actually watched it in horror on tv. It's been a month now and still many are mourning, in shock and trying to rebuild their homes. Thank God that Dad wasn't in Penang driving along Gurney road when the big waves came a splashing over the famous eatery spot there and sweeping it off completely. Reports he received the morning of December 26 was that the waves went as far as into the lobby of the hotels and shopping malls along that famous road. Batu Feringghi not spared either. Far worst. I remember the mighty powerful Greg wind rolled across Sabah in 1997, also on a December 26. Is this some coincidence or freak thingy? Whatever it is, am sure the One above is telling us that time is near. Hmmm.
The pics below are my few favorite pictures taken by EA with his Nikon D100 dig. cam at my grandma's paddy field in Kg. Rani. BTW, EA is currently my bestest buddy on earth. He is a crazyfun photographer. He is a mean but downright honest and straightforward kind of guy with a li'l caring attitude. When i cry, he tells me i won't get anything out of it but more misery. He is right. And for this first pic below, EA says this is a monkey in her soberness after a hyper feat. Ahahaha.
Donna (Right) and I attempting to push each other into the muddy paddy field after a long day of harvesting paddy
What was i actually doing when EA captured this???
i love this pic!--the background and the paddy bunch in Donna's hand
my twin sister, Donna
4:40pm now and i'm off to watch Sanay Wala Ng Wakas--a filipino drama that's currently the hype going on around here. Tchus!
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i am an APPLE TREE (Love) - of slight build, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.