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Song
By Shardy

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It has been two days since I visited Devlin. I couldn’t go through with it. I just couldn’t. I laid on my back, staring up at the blank ceiling, and listening to the sound of the rain, wondering how can a drop among millions of others sound so lonely. Mokuba was coloring at my desk. He’s a pretty good artist for a little kid, but he knows that if he becomes anything like a painter, I’ll kill him. For obvious reasons. We were listening to his new CD, Tatu. Not that I was the type of person who buys my little brother albums about lesbians (are they really lesbians?), but I liked it. Right now a song was playing that rather matched my mood.

Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide

Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life
"You thinking of Joey?" Mokuba asked from his doodling. He seemed a lot wiser this past month.

"What makes you say so?" I demanded.

"You’ve been extremely depressed lately. I assumed since you haven’t seen Joey at all for a long time, that was the reason."

The kid can read my mind like a fucking book.

I sat up in sudden resolve. "Hey, Mokuba, I’ll be back in a minute, okay?"

"You’re going out there in the rain?" he inquired, more of a statement than a question.

"Yes."

"Okay, take your time." It was as if he knew exactly what it was I was doing.

In a few minutes, I was out in the rain without an umbrella, my blue trench-coat drenched, but I didn’t care. I had no particular destination in mind, but after the fiasco with Devlin, I decided I needed to contemplate my fate. The words from that Tatu song were still playing in my mind as I wondered around the rain-soaked streets of Domino.

Can we fly? Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fall

In the moment It takes
To make plans
Or mistakes

I snapped out of my thoughts in realization that I had no idea where I was. I was in some dingy part of town where it would be gloomy even if the sun was shining. I sighed as I walked. Maybe it was for the best that I did get lost. I was gonna be a girl forever anyway.

I made a dull note of the trio of guys standing in a corner, sharing a joint, and moved on down the street. One of them whistled at me, but I ignored them. A pair of amber-brown eyes and golden hair were the only dominate features in my mind.

"Hey, hey, sexy, and where do ya think ya’re goin’?" a rough voice demanded. One of the druggies snatched my arm from behind.

I jerked it out of his grasp. "Don’t you have anything better in your life to do?"

He laughed and I could smell the sickening sweet scent of pot reeking off of him. "Watch it, boys! This one thinks she’s a tough cookie!"

"You know if you try to win a girl by being a charmer instead of an ass, you’ll be amazed at the results!" I spat.

"What did you just call me, bitch!?" He swung his huge fist at me. I ducked, my own fist lashing out and connected with his nose. I could hear the crunch of busted cartilage against my knuckles as he doubled over, then for good measure, I slammed my foot into his groin. He fell on the sidewalk, whimpering pitifully.

"You’ll pay for that!" the second guy advanced towards me, holding a dagger, but the third suddenly snatched him by the sleeve.

"Don’t be stupid!" he cried. "Do you not see what she’s wearing!? That’s a Kaiba Corp. jacket!"

The second’s jaw dropped as his eyes zeroed in the KC logo on my collar. "No way! Kaiba’s cousin!?"

They both gave me idiotic smiles as they lifted up their helpless friend.

"Forgive us, Miss Kaiba."

"We did not mean to offend you."

At least being a girl did not lessen the fear for Seto Kaiba these brainless fools possessed. But how long will it take for the town of Domino to realize that Seto Kaiba will not be coming back? I simply glared at the two and marched off down the street, continuing where my thoughts had left off.

A few minutes went by before I heard my name being called among the lonely raindrops. Not my girl name. My real name.

"Seto!"

I whirled around, my heart racing, and stared at a figure standing a few feet away; a tall figure with amber-brown eyes and golden hair.

30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide

30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide

" Joey! What.....what are you doing here!?"

He tilted his head to one side and smiled. " I was looking out of my window when I saw you pass by and then those guys following you. I’m sorry I’m a little late in rescuing you."

I returned his smile with one of my own. "It’s okay."

"No, it’s not. I’ll make it up to ya. Let’s go inside and I’ll make us some hot chocolate."

I didn’t hesitate as he led me into his run-down, forth-rate apartment. He looked a little embarrassed, but I hoped my expression assured him that he could be homeless and it wouldn’t matter. Just another excuse to have him come live with me for the rest of his life. Heh, heh, heh.

"So how have you been?" I asked, feeling rather nervous as I sat down on the couch. It was an ugly brown color, but very comfy and warm.

"I’ve been doing all right, same old, same old," he replied softly as he poured water into two empty mugs. A few minutes of silence went by.

Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes

Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shame
Crying rain

"So....do you live alone?" I inquired.

He shook his head and placed the mugs in the microwave to heat the water. "I live with my dad but he’s gone now. He left a few hours ago and I know he’s not going to be back any time soon." There was no emotion in his voice as if it suddenly lost all feeling. I genially began to feel bad for him.

"I’m sorry."

He gave me one of his silly grins. "Ah, don’t worry about it."

He smiles to hide his true feelings just like I scowl to hide mine.

More minutes of awkward silence.

Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fall

Either way
Options change
Chances fail
Trains derail

He approached me then and sat down beside me. "We’d better get that wet coat off before you catch hyperthermia or something."

I nodded and tried to take my coat off. Tried to. Unfortunately, it was so wet, it clung to my flesh like a second skin. My sleeves refused to let go of my arms. "Um....Joey...."

"I’ve got it." He turned me around and with one, painful jerk, tugged my coat off. The force caused me to fall back against him, which caused him to lose his balance and we both crashed to the floor. He landed on top of me.

Both our faces glowed red, especially when Joey realized one of his hands was cupped around my breast. "Oh, man! I’m so sorry!"

He began to remove it, but I grabbed onto his wrist. "Keep it there," I whispered softly. With my other hand, I reached behind his head and pulled his face close to mine as I kissed those soft, soft lips.

30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide

30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide

Our kisses were not to stop there. Not now. Not ever.

"Do you still want me?" I asked hesitantly. "Even though you know who I really am?"

Joey gazed deeply into my eyes, brown hues embracing me with warmth. "Who you really are is the reason why I want to be with you," he whispered huskily. "I.....I think I’m in love with you, Seto Kaiba."

My heart nearly stopped beating at those words. Nobody had ever told me they loved me, save for Mokuba. I believed I was incapable of being loved by anyone. Maybe, maybe Joey was right, when he said that as a girl, my true self was able to show itself to the world with nothing to hold it back. And Joey was the first person to realize that.

I reached up and gently stroked his face. "I....love you, too, Wheeler." I giggled. "I mean, Joey."

He smiled widely at me, and began placing shivering kisses along the sensitive part of my neck. "Um....Joey.....?"

"Mm-mmm?"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Mm-mmm?"

"Are you a virgin?"

His head snapped up and he stared at me with wide eyes. "Heh!?!?!"

"Are you a virgin?" I repeated. Why did guys think this was such a life-and-death question? Geez, even as a guy, I didn’t think it was a big deal. Then again, nobody ever asked me if I was a virgin.

"Uh....well, if you must know...." He sighed deeply. "Yes, I am."

I smirked. "I thought so. There is far too much innocense in your eyes, and you blushed like a light flare when I landed on top of you at the dance." I tried to be serious, but a giggle escaped my throat. "Besides, who’s gonna sleep with you???"

Joey’s eyes shot wide open. Then letting out a low growl, he scooped me up in his arms and started carrying me towards his room. "Just you wait," he vowed with an evil smile. "I’m gonna make ya eat those words!"

"Is that a threat or a promise?" I inquired.

Okay, so maybe this was the stupidest coarse of action I could ever do. I was supposed to give my virginity to a guy who had sexual experience in order to change back into a boy. This was garunteed to make a girl forever.

But as long as I was with my beloved puppy, I did not care.

To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
To decide
To decide

~*~ The End ~*~

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