SUICIDE

God so lonely the pain deep inside everyday a new horror from which I can't hide

first my mother called to heavans gate than my love with another mans mat

for months I fight to keep a smile for my babies i hold as we walk this mil

than in the new years start a fire burns the home that held my hear

now I Lay here full of despair i cry to my God that this isn't fai

there's no answer from family or Lord my love is now hateful and his love he hoard

I can't take it at all , I want to sleep to feel some peace inside  the night so dee

I awake in the er with a doctor in green angry and sad he says "hon I'm not so keen-

"I know its all gone and you feel alone take the Lords hand for you must atone"

you thought of yourself and all thats lost there are three babies behind your cross

reach for help and get some rest when you feel yourself you'll be the best

I listened to him , and its still tough But Now I know I can handle the rough

When I'm feeling down and at the worst I reach for the cross thats in my purse