I CAN'T
Thank You
Missing Time
I was confused
Wandering aimless
Through this crazy world
Depressed, rejected, and careless
Then, in the darkness
I stumbled and fell
But you caught me
I'm no longer in Hell

My whole world is happy
Tear drops turned joy
You melted my heart
Now, I am your boy

I miss you already
I long for your kiss
Thank you for laughter
Thank you for bliss
I can't sleep
You're on my mind
So gentle, so sweet
And to me, so kind

I can't stop thinking
I'm crazy about you
When I'm with you
How could I be blue?

I can't dream
About anyone else
For it's you I want
And no one else

I can't be without you
Don't you see?
I need to be with you
And you with me.
Time is wasted
When I'm not with you
It's missing you
That's got me so blue

Listening to you
And your sweet voice
It's what I need
To make me rejoice

I miss your smell
That aura of pear
Teasing my nose
And lingering in air

I miss your lips
So beautiful and lush
Just looking in your eyes
Gives me such a rush

I love the way you laugh
And the way you smile
When I'm not with you
I think of you all the while

To hold you tightly
Pressed so close
Being with you
Is what I miss most
Don't Hate Me
Two Months Gone
Why am I so stupid?
For the longest time
I was so lonely,
But you made me sublime

So why can't I be happy?
Don't I have what I want?
Yet, I'm so dissatisfied
These feelings stay and haunt

We have so many differences
And not too much the same
I knew this before
But my judgement is so lame

I thought it could work
It seemed worth a shot
Stuff that you do
I'd rather you not

I don't want to hurt you
But I just can't go on
I need some space and time
Already, two months are gone
Don't hate me if I'm beautiful
I sure don't feel that way
I feel I'm so ugly inside
My innerds rotting with decay

I hate myself already
So please, no more from you
I'm so sorry for this
Hurting you is no what I want to do

It makes me so sick
To know this is my only choice
It's the only thing I can do
So don't think I will rejoice

This isn't what I wanted
I just need to get away
Thank you for the good times
I hope you understand someday.
Back to the Drawing Board
(Part II)
Hello, cold and lonely world
To you have I returned
It's been awhile, hasn't it?
At least a lesson I have learned

Incomplete again am I
Filled with longing and pain
I'm back for now
Inevitably here again

Sure, it was my choice
But that's not any better
At least I have memories
Back from when I met her

Back to the drawing board
I guess the saying goes
How long I'll be here
God only knows...
Vacuum
Empty Again...
Once again I am haunted
Stuck with my lonely soul
Forever lost, usually alone
Wandering through a haze
My mind is jumbled
Nothing clear
Gone...
No more...
Why can't I be happy?
Perhaps I am cursed
A hex
A spell upon my head
Never to be loved
Stumbling in the dark
Unable to find my way
When will it end?
My conscience growing heavy
My heart in tears
I fall down
And cry
Empty once again...
Message from the Soul
You are so beautiful
I wither at your sight
I am nothing, you are all
In the darkness, my light
I want to see you

I want to walk with you
To bask in your presence
To know you better
And be surrounded in your essence

The more I know you
The better you are
You see my needs
Even from afar
I want to hear you

You are my protection
From you I draw strength
I love you so much
I just gotta have faith
Where?
Drowning...
I'm in over my head
Can't breathe
And it keeps piling
Too much work
No more,
I can't take it
Too many responsibilities
Holding me, freezing me,
Drowning me
Is this living?
Why don't I feel alive?
So mechanical
Everything cold to the touch
My flesh and bone
Now metal and circuitry
My heart gone
Replaced by a battery
Even with my smart, computer brain
I am lost
Can't even write a poem
Overloaded, overwhelmed
Drowning in life...
Mighty Lighthouse
A crisp, golden beam
     Slicing through the tumolt and darkness
     A shaft of order in chaos
You watch over me
     Protecting me from the rocks
          Sharp and jagged with death
     Eternally in observation
You rise above the crashing sea
     With its waves falling violently
          Shattering the peaceful calm
A dot of hope enveloped in a flurry
     Breaking through clouds of dispair
Light upon my soul
Break through my confusion
     Show me clarity
Pillar of truth
     You are my refuge
When I am listless
     Show me comfort
I lay myself in your hands
     For you are true to me
          And I to you
To Caelie
I can't wait to see you
To behold you once again
Though we've grown apart
I feel closer to you
A distinct familiarity
Like old friends meeting anew

I've missed you so
Someone to talk to
Someone I can trust
I feel lucky to know you
Thank you for your friendship
In good times and bad

You're awesome
I wish you could see yourself
At least, the way I do
Talent and intelligence you companions
Free-spirited and opinionated
Keep it real and rock on!

Thanks for all you've done
For advice when I was lost
You listened when I was frustrated
You agreed when I felt alone
Thanks for everything
You truly are a great friend
How Many?
I am sick of this
Too much blood shed
When will it end?
Already, too many dead

The news sickens me
The land of the free
Looks more like free to kill
At least to me

Haven't we learned a lesson?
Violence is not a solution
All the bombs in the world
Cannot invalidate this conclusion

So how many more will die
Before we see the truth?
Ten thousand?  Ten million?
Then we will see it's uncouth

The answer is so covered in blood
Or missile shells from above
We don't even recognize
The most powerful instrument...is love.
My Crutch
I'm goin' under
Pull me up
Feeling empty
Fill my cup

Please help me
Don't let me slide
Stay with me
Right by my side

You know I love you
I'm only human
Forgive my faults
I'll do what I can

Don't let me fall
I need support
In yourself
I build my fort

You're there for me
Whenever I send
I will follow you always
Until the end
Tribute to Twinkie the Kid
The Vanquished
Twinkie!  My boy!
The sweetest kid I know
So beautiful and delicate
With that soft, golden glow

That aroma, so enticing
Putting me in fair mood
Creamy and gently
You're a great dude

With your flexy arms and legs
You watch over me
Protect me from darkness
With boots, hat, and hanky

I hunger for your friendship
I love dining with you
Thank you for filling me up
With that warm feeling of goo
You're goin' down
No more will I take
You thought I would drown
But I'll never break

It's over now
You're gonna pay
I don't know how
But it ends today

You tortured me
And reveled in my pain
But now that I see
It won't happen again

Your reign of hate
Your kingdom shall crumble
For He will dominate
And you made humble

Fall to your knees
O vile one
Beg for mercy, please
Your time is done
Writer's Block
What happened to those good ol' times
When life was filled with hope?
Where are my poetic rhymes?
Now I can only mope

My power of language
And flow of prose
Have left me here astray
Gone forever, I suppose

Where did it all go?
It seems so depressing
This is all I want to know
Literary impotence is vexing

Have I lost it all forever?
Will it come back someday?
Or shall the book end here
Premature with nothing left to say?

This impass puzzles me so
'Tis hard to understand
Off my pen did they flow
With only mere flick of hand

Perhaps tomorrow will be brighter
Burning with the hipe of new day
Until that time, I wait
And on and on I say

What happened to those good ol' times
When life was filled with hope?
Where are my poetic rhymes?
Now I can only mope...
Ocean Clouds
Like the ocean's flow
They blow across the sky
So pretty, so perfect
Picturesque as they fly

Waves ripple and break
Yet they're soft and delicate
Billowing and fluffy
Amazing to the eye and intricate

Bursting through with brilliance
The moon's light surrounds
Casting a blue tint to all
Yet clarity abounds

Watching over my soul
They angelically hover above
Blotting out the birght stars
Coating me in love
So I Wait
My soul is yearning
Searching for a piece of puzzle
Something tacticle to fill the gaping hole
Something to make it all right
To know my life is not in vain
The sufferings of a bleeding heart
The crushing of lousy dreams upon the mind
The stirs within that beset my very being
Confirmation that love is real
Real love to humble me
Before its awesome might
Acceptance, understanding
Comfort amid turmoil
These are all I seek
So I search for her
Lying awake
Dreaming
Where?  When?  Who?
Then like a thick, dark cloud
Sleep becomes me
And I dream of the end of yearning
My soul will be at peace
Tragedy of the Heartbroken
Where from here?
I've lost all direction
Which way do I go?
Adrift without perception
Lost within a storm

Don't know down from up
What is so wrong with me?
Don't know what to think
I'm going insane, you see
Thoughts I cannot form

My mind is a jumble
Confusion reeling all about
A dark, sinister abyss
Casting all in doubt
What's the point anyway?

Love is twisted torture
Why do this to myself?
The pangs are too great
So I put my heart on a shelf
Perhaps to revisit another day
My Foolish Ways
I am a fool
I thought deep down
I could recreate the past
All I got was a frown

Why did I think
That it would ever be?
I couldn't be more wrong
'Tis only now I see

I thought I loved her
And she could love me
But I am a romantic fool
Destined to live miserably

I tried to trick myself
Saying I knew it wasn't so
Yet I an ember of hope
In my heart, deep down an low

What a fool I am
A simple, love-starved fool
Crying insideforever
Outside dead like pale ghoul
The Crying Prayer
All I want is love
Is that too much to ask?
Can't I ever be happy?
Is that too large a task?

Misrable are my days
Darkness in light
Waiting for the answers
An ending to my plight

Is happiness even out there?
'Tis is just some facade?
I can't take it anymore
Please, help me, I pray, O God

I live my days in sorrow
Each day inside I choke
I feel like crying often
I'm just a blue, old, miserable bloke

Amen...
Despair of Darkness
Slicing me deep
     Cutting my heart,
     I bleed
Left all alone
     Cold in the night
     Delusions in my  head
Like a bullet
     The pain hits me
     But no one's around
     No one cares
I lie here
I cry here
I die in anguish
     Life so cruel
Unloved, broken
     I pour my heart out
     To no avail, 'tis futile
Bleeding,
Cold,
Lonley,
Forever,
Into the darkness
Dissolution
Moans of a Depressed Youth
Your face makes me sick
Your soul is ugly
Heart black as coal
You're a prick
In your face, I laugh with glee

You can't hurt me
The tears are past
You'll pay for this
Rue the day terribly
You screwed me over last

My eyes glow red
The anger swelling inside
You are the most corrupt person
In your screwed up head
Go run and hide

How can you justify bigotry?
I gave you a chance
I withheld judgement
Yet your integrity proved unsavory
Do me a favor, fall on your lance
How could I be so blind?
I thought it was a second chance,
But I should've known better
What a fool I was
Things will never be the same
You'll never love me as I loved you
We are different, you and I
I can't change these feelings
Yours nor mine
What's past is past
Now I understand it all
Time to move on, old sport
Time to face the music
TIme to give up hope
I've learned my lesson
I'm sure I'll learn it again
Next time, it'll all be the same
Trapped in this cycle
Of neverending pain
It's called life
Time Bomb
A beautiful disaster am I
A senseless waste of talent
No directions ahead of me lie
Just self-destruction lent

I am flying nowhere
At such a rapid pace
Boggled, confused I fare
I fear this is my case

The future lies in wait
Drooling with malicious desire
I'm a victim of cruel fate
Sinking its teeth in like vampire
The White Man's Rap
Cruising down the F-Way
     Doing sixty-five
You know I'm the "bomb"
     Always kicking it live
My automobile is all that
     You know it's pretty tight
Siblings say I can't rap
     Because I'm so...Caucasian
But you all are just tripping
     I am not a fool
When you were prepubescent
     I was going old school
My parents aren't from Africa
     And my name's not Jose
But I have as much ethnicity
     As that girl Tina Fey
Rolling up to the stop light
     In my mother's ghetto mini-van
Pumping fat beats of Barry Manilow
     I pimp like no one can
So don't cross me twice
     Or I might shoot a bullet
I'm a dangerous character
     Me with my whiteboy mullet
Once, Now, Soon
Surrounded by memories
Some good, some bad
Some are the ugly
Everywhere I turn
There, they face me

Some haunt me deeply
To where I can;t escape
Others I embrace
A good laugh, a fun time
Even a friendly face

My present is anything but
'Tis emersed in past
Filled with anxiety
And worry fo the future
It's a trinity

Faster and faster still
Time rolls on in rhythm
Leaving me in its dust
Lost and forgotten
A life of disgust
I Go
Slowly I sink
Lower and lower
Though I hit
Rock bottom isn't the end
Onward and downward
I go

Hope is gone
Bitter memories left
Of a forgotten past
Tragic dreams undone
Burrowing deeper
I go

I am a failure
Why do I bother
Life is frivolous
A cycle of feeling
Then on to nothing
I go

I'm lost, misguided
Without a helping hand
A victim of myself
In perfect, harmonious misery
Off into beautiful ugliness
I go

I need Your help
And guiding hand
Through darkness and despair
I stumble without light
Lead me so that out of Hell
I go
Without You
I've wasted so much time
Every moment with you...
I miss your lovely face
All alone...I am eternally blue

Why does this always happen?
The forbidden fruit, I guess
My heart quickens at your sight
Without you, life is a quality less

Sometimes I lay awake at night
I dream about us together at last
Perfect beyond words or explanation
But then reality leaves me dashed

Another tragedy of life, I suppose
My heart shatters within once again
I wish this would be different
Broken, I curl up in pain
The Pangs of Youth
I yearn to see you
Each day is as worthless
As the one passed before you
So I pour out these words
From my bleeding heart
Filled with unworthiness

Missing you has no equal
The pangs resound joylessly
Forever trapped in pain
Words freeze at your loveliness
What a fool am I!
Struck by your beauty ceaselessly

I cry myself to sleep at night,
Thinking of all I could have done
Yet I left unfinished
So I slip again, down further
Tormented by these demons
Of opportunities long and gone
Sitting on My Pumpkin
I'm just your average teen
I got to school and obey the rules
Do my homework and stare at a screen
I fall in line with all the fools
Living without life as a following ghoul

I've had enough of it!
There's gotta be more
Full of life as empty as a pit
Just show me the door
Existence is such a bore...

I want out of this
This life of conformity
Everyone stripped witless
What happened to originality?
ALl have the same personality

No one is themselves
Lose control of what we do
I'm not me; you're not yourselves
Are you me or am I you?
I'm sorry but it's gotta be through
Deliverance
Rekindle this passion
I pray so everyday
Fill me with great joy
That life be merry and gay
Happiness my vision

My life is winding down
Like a dying clock
Each tick longer than the last
Until I join the heavenly flock
And see Your kingly crown

Wind me up once again
O LORD, don't let me fall
Everyday I sink in deeper
Depression consuming all
Emersed in my pain

I seek Your hand
Carry me ever onward
That darkness might vanish
And I make rejoicing word
Living humbly in this land

Though despair surrounds me
I yet take heart
Still hope glimmers on
A sliver of light; a dart
Piercing all that is gloomy

Give me something to hold
To keep me afloat,
Drowning in my sin
Make me sheep, not goat
Bring me into Your fold

I need Your help now
I know not my endurance
Chronic sadness overwhelms my soul
Set my heart to dance
That I have the final bow
Clipped Wings
I need you more than ever
Now I dream of never
My heart, aching dully in my chest
Knowing you're there, the best
But I can never have you
My time has passes without glee

Every fiber of my being
Misses you, not seeing
How much longer 'til I crack
Can I move on and turn my back?
I flound in love desparately
Struggling onward melancholy

Deep down, I am like a butterfly
So gentle and delicate I lie
Afraid to come out of my shell
Fearful what would happen if I fell
When I see you, I let out a sigh
Knowing that I will never fly
Room of the Past
Self-Revelations Memories clutter my room
Their reminding presence ever looms
Pictures scattered hither
And others strewn thither

That one of her over yonder
Fills me with such beautiful wonder
Or perhaps her beauty or hers
Or the depression laughter cures

The superb time I spent here
Or the time I fell in love there
Living life so trapped in the past
If only good times would last

It's time to move on, I tell myself
Then I see another photo on my shelf
And back I go into memories
Down onto my depressed, old knees

Why can't I just let go?
Live for now, go with the flow
Past and present so intertwined
I slip away into my mind...
Moments of Optimism
Rich, dewey air
Lingering in droves
A draught to clear the mind
To refresh fleshful groves
To begin anew with hope
Like a glowing candle
Flickering brightly in the dark
Gloom retreating to far mantle

One more time
I can try with might
This time will be okay
This time I'll get it right
A second chance
A wish finally found
Life so gleefully pleasant
Whenever I have you around

Lost in a dream
Caught in my head
I know it's you
To you I'm being led
Moment upon moment
We're torn apart
But I will find you
I'll follow my heart
Dripping from my eye
It glistens in the moonlit gloom
Filled with years of pain
Anguish embittered by heartbreak
Anger and resentment abound
With melancholic pity
Fluttering down in this microcosm
Flowing from me freely
This tear is all I am
Splattering to the ground
No more...
Gone...

I thought I was a victim
All these years, I am the problem
My sorrow is great
The burden crushes my heart
With pointed tongue and sharp words
All I do is wicked and wretched
My iniquities are overwhelming
I was at the top o' the world
Yet here I am, trodden down
What a perilous fall
A fool through and through
Let me pass...
And On
Storm of Ascension
Waking Dreams
My joy springs forth
A fountain from my heart
You are everything to me
More than the world a la carte

Your presence fills me
A quieting peaceful comfort
Your gaze lies upon me
Your love my endless support

Help me to know you better
I want to be with you forever
Now until eternity and a day
From your presence, I won't sever

Don't ever let me go
Hold me tight, I pray
I want to see you always
Day after day after day

Your beauty is unveiled to me
I lover you more and more
Never turn away from me
This now, I emplore

I miss you in my life
In my heart, you're never gone
Youre love flows ceaselessly
And on and on and on...
He reaches out
His hand into the darkness
But her slips away
Gone is all fairness
Separated are they
Forever wedged apart
Her memory lingers on
In his mind lik art

Dying in his arms
The lovers say goodbye
She flitters into the abyss
As the dark floats by
The pain stabs his heart
The gentle tears flow freely
Hear bursting in his chest
His mind numbing slowly

Gone now are the good times
Vanished the carefree days
As parting, the menace of fate
Ends all in final phase
Death looms above like cloud
With mercy not in sight
And in his anguigh cries out
Alone, bitter call in the night
I wake up in the middle of the night
Dreaming of your beautiful sight
Miss you more than I did before
But what is it I can do?
I wish that I knew
Never could say as chance rolls away

You are slipping from me
Before my eyes, drifting slowly
Don't go like this without a kiss
Blissful and graceful in nature
You have quite the vicious lure
Flying like a dove, I'm entranced in love

But will it ever be so?
This feeling I have deep below
To see your face; feel your embrace
Do you think of me the same?
Or in my mind...just a game
This dream fades, a nightmare in spades
Nothing & Everything
My heart longs after thee
It twitters in my chest
When you I see
My hands trembling upon my breast

I am electrified by you
Power and love surging anew
Never have I been more frightened
All my mortal fear heightened

Paralyzed in my own fear
My brain joyous in your presence
I am torn while you are here
Babbling over with silence

Gazing in your eyes deeply
My heart wells with glee
Everything is alright now
Yet nothing is, somehow

Do you care as I do?
Do your knees quake
Or am I nothing new?
Just another fake
With You Always
Sick
Do you ever think of me?
Am I on your mind?
Sometimes I stop and wonder
For you're always on mine
Your love is so enchanting
Memories linger in dusty smoke
Filling my hear with roses
I'm the luckiest bloke

My thoughts are with you always
From now 'til the end of days
I need you more than ever now
More than you'll ever know how

I get so depressed at times
What I do without you?
Do you care I miss you so much?
Everyday I feel so blue
Can't you see what you mean?
You're the world to me
I want to know you better
Without you, I'd never be

My thoughts are with you always
From now 'til the end of days
I need you more than ever now
More than you'll ever know how

Yet I am a nothing
A nobody on this earth
But you...you are you
Much more than I'll ever be worth
Still I dream of the future
Perhaps I'll be with you then
A man can always hope
For a chance at love again
I'm sick of life
I'm sick of this crap
I'm sick of working
Bustin' my butt for the Cap

I'm sick of people
I hate this world
Sick of excuses
And lies unfurled

I curse the day of my birth
I wish it was black
I'm sick of being sick
Of the things I lack

I loathe my existence
I'm sick of having hope
Nothing it happening now
It's more than I can cope

My heart burns with anger
For my painful, foolish life
I'm sick of rejection
Love cuts like a knife
SOME DAY
Sometimes I wonder if you even care?
If you even notice when I'm not there
These blues sure get me down
When you are not anywhere around
Your memory etched upon my heart
On my soul, scratched with a dart

Know how much I love you?
You're always on my mind
Life's not easy, it's true
But you're such a perfect find

When I look at you, my heart quivers
Your glance makes my soul shiver
I lay awake and try to see
If you are awake, thinking of me
But you don't understand my love
Fashion for each other, hand and glove

Maybe someday you'll understand
Perhaps you'll feel the same way
In that day, I'll be your man
You, better than any words I say
Something
All I need is your touch
I need you right now
Is that asking too much?
Sometime, someway, somehow

You are the world to me
Your fleeting image give me glee
Words cannot explain this love
I'm soaring high like a white dove

Perhaps you didn't know this
But you have a great smile
Prettier than a thousand rose bliss
On my thouhgts all the while

Do you think about me
Each passing hour wanting to see?
Without you, I feel helpless
Cold, alone, and lifeless

When I hear you laugh
My heart bursts like a flower
Like I'm under your staff
Subject to you power

I miss you when you're gone
From noon to dusk to dawn
Maybe I'm just a dumb fool
But to see you would be so cool
Lonely Storm
Without, the night lonely, cold
The raindrops splatter
Dying on the ground
Does it really matter?
These things we do
Something called..."life"
So fleeting and meaningless
A spark flashing off a knife

Save me if you can
I do not know the Plan
Hold me close and tight
Can't make it through the night

The darkness covers the sky
So dreary and gloomy about
Pervading the air, heavy on my heart
Not even the stars are out
Glimmering points of hope
Silenced by a blanket of clouds
Wrapping me in a my sadness
The weight of a thousand pounds

Save me if you can
I do not know the Plan
Hold me close and tight
Can't make it through the night

Downpour on my face
Soaked to the soul
Yer my heart shimmers onward
Like a glowing coal
Just need to hole on
Fight this piercing chill
Water dripping off my face
The cold out to kill
You'll Never Know
Burning Inside
I can't take this pain
It's happened to me again
Love spiked me through the heart
WIth fury like fiery dart
Why must I always crawl?
I should know better than to fall
I cried all night, last night too
Because I can never be with you
You'll never know the depth of my passion
Or that your smile is always in fashion
I leap everytime I see you in jubilee
Just because you, I, one more time, see
You'll never know my feelings
That your sight sends me reeling
You;ll never know of my dreamless nights
Spent thinking of you 'til morning lights
It's about time I throw towel
For a broken heart is a thing most foul
So it's time for some mending
No more for me, it's ending
I'm sorry you don't even care
Why can't love ever be fair?
A dull ache, beating in my chest
It's not easy, giving up the best
Transfigured by your presence
I am goo...
Inert and inane
Fixe on your angelicism
What can I do?

Trambling, quaking with fear
Delicious in taste
Exciting yet nauseating
Like crying of happiness
When tears are a waste

My soul is tormented
For who knows the way?
Wouldn't give the world
To be anywhere wlese
Get me out here right away!

My heart will implode
I cannot take another moment
Your face is taboo
Love scorches deep
Seering flames and blood foment

Fix your gaze upon me
As I fall into you eyes
Lost in fathomless depths
Yet you look away
And watch was my heart dies
One Life Less
The crowd gathering slowly
Mournful procession onward
All is dreary and lowly
Sea of black surging forward
Man is yet mortal
The weakness of flesh
Despite strenght of spirit in portal
Squeezed in this skinful mesh
Tears flow freely now
As memories bubble out
Wondering why and when and how
Striking darkened hearts with doubt
A life, so beautiful
Traveled away in an instant
On to its destination with a pull
For man is but merely an ant
The music soothes all
But the heart is troubled still
For fear and pain of final fall
And rest under the hill
Celebrating a life
Someone who touched everyone
Who persevered in strife
Even when it couldn't be done...
Stealing Looks
Bourgeois Blues
My heart lives in silence
Beating away in secrecy
For you'll never care
How much you are to me
The nights are long, cold
But tomorrow will be brighter
Filled with rays of hope
And laughing a little lighter

You don't know how I feel
And the looks at you, I steal
Will you ever understand?
I just wanna be your man

My thoughts trail away
Always fixed on you
Your eyes, your nose, your smile...
You're beautiful it's true
No one else even compares
Can't you give me a chance?
I look deep in your eyes
Your love makes me dance

You don't know how I feel
And the looks at you, I steal
Will you ever understand?
I just wanna be your man

You'll never know how I felt
When I look at you, I melt
Time's up, you don't understand
I just wanted to be your man
Lazy stress and relax-fit trousers
I'm drowning in another summer
Got the bourgeois blues once again
Everything's a moderately comfortable bummer

The two-story house painted light blue
Complete with a garage built for two
Two cars, two kids, two dogs
A backdeck with a canyon view

I'm trapped in these white walls
Money isn't the real point of life
Forced into the world's conformity
Sick of teenage love strife

All I need is someone to hold
To talk to, confide in
Someone who'll carry me
And I carry them

This middle-class has got me down
With its well-dressed manner and flashy clothes
White collar jobs and adequate finances
Got me so low, I'm flowing prose

Time to wake up...
Vaccuum
From the Dust
Crossroad
Something's missing
From this life of mine
Something big, important
Been empty a long time

Life's been empty of love
For far too long
Without lyrics and notes
There can't be a song

Walking solitary and alone
Cold in the darkness
No one by my side
Dead more than alive, I confess

Vaccuum in my soul
Waiting to be filled
Wormtent in my heart
Failing to be killed

I miss love
I miss that whole deal
I miss everything
I used to feel
LORD, I cannot carry on
I commit myself
Body and soul to Your hands
I am powerless to control
My life, my future, anything
I am dust

I will walk Your path
Though I may stumble off
Cast this mourning off me
For the tears of my soul are bitter
And my heart scorches
Thy will is mine

I am undeserving and puny
One life among billions
My sin has cast me down
But Your mercy is infinite
Endless love to everlasting
Onwards and upwards

                                       Amen
I'm so lost
Wandering aimless
In need of direction
Take my hand
Lead me on

Don't know where to go
Confused about what to do
The answers elude me
Leaving me alone
Somebody help

I can't feel
Which way is right?
Please rescue me
From this life
Guide my feet

What to do?
What to do...
One Chance
Did you even give me a chance?
Try me on for size
I feel all alone at a couple's dance
Trampled down by other guys

When you're gone, I misee you
I wonder if you even care
You're ignoring makes me blue
Like being trapped inside a snare

Do you think of me?
You're always on my mind
Will you ever finally see
You're the best I will find?

You can't run away
Don't you understand?
These feelings will always stay
Haunting us in any land

My tears soak my chin
Life's nothing without you
I don't care about you sin
What're you gonna do?
Salvaging Steven
Guide me back
Restore my life
I screwed up badly
But you caught me
Thank you
For saving me
Salvaging my life
Hand in hand
Wrongs will be righted
Life renewed, abounded
You and I
Together, forever and always
If I stumble
You'll be there
My soul is complete
My heart, filled with rejoicing
Time to move on
Into the future
Delve into the unknown
Side by side
Back on the old path
The Here and Now
Forget the future
My love is now
Your distance is my torture
Piercing my soul somehow

Worry is a wasted dance
Forget what might happen
Give what will a chance
Like a writer's flow with pen

Here and now there's me
And there are you
Together we'll see
Things we never knew

Hold me close and tight
Put your doubts aside
You can run from time alright
But you can never hide

You let yourself slip away
Paralyzed with fear of unknown
So I face the new day
Once again, all alone...
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