-17 January, 2006: Living in Nebraska has driven me crazy. There is nothing here to really be proud of. There is never anything to do, especially in winter when you don't want to go outside at night. All you have are friends and family and your mind...I'm slowly going crazy in the city called Lincoln. Never before have I felt this way; I feel like I need to get away and as quickly as possible. It feels like everything is slowly fading as I get to the time of college and moving out. It's weird how things can change so quickly!

I recently discovered that I'm a completely different person than a long time ago. My most recent relationship proved that I could love someone, but love is a bitch, to say the least. I'm officially over with really hating myself, though. I accept myself for who I am and am trying not to look in the mirror and see something evil. I'm not saved by god or something that I possibly believe does not exist (I'm Agnostic); I'm saved by myself and those that listen to me. That's my life in a short synopsis. I've discovered myself in the past month, where do I go from here?

-24 January, 2006: I love high school! Homework, mean people, and friends that never want to talk to you! DRAMA... I recently realized that pissing off a friend will automatically make them hate you for quite a while. It wasn't really my fault, I was just stating a fact that 'she' (who will remain nameless) seems to think that I make everything solely about me. This is why we aren't dating anymore, anyway!... I'm glad she's moved on, but hate that she did so quickly. I'm well over her now, though, especially since I've been happier lately. I don't even think about relationships and shit like that anymore; I just want to live my life and see where life takes me. I'm really hoping she will talk to me soon, because I know we were just meant to be friends now. She doesn't seem to get me, so she can live her life the way she wants, I guess.