People... - 7.13.03
Today was one of the most boreingest days off my life. I woke up around 4pm, came down stairs, called my mom and she was at my grandmothers house. So I just cleaned part of the house and talked a few minutes on the phone with Kaze. So I got bored, and a storm came here. It was a really ferece one too. So I was like "Hey... might as well just go back to sleep." So I did. I woke up at 7pm.
I got up, and cleaned more of the house. Mom came home and told me that I had to wake up tomorrow at 5:30am. So meh, might as well not even sleep. Than I chatted online for a bit. Got offline and watched Cruel Intentions DVD. Than after that I decided to watch the special fetures. And put the video Every You Every Me on. For some weird reason, I just started crying.
It was really weird. I didnt have any real reason to start crying. I guess its because the words actully mean something. I put the lyrics at the bottom. I know usualy everyone skips past them, but read these and even d/l the MP3. Its such a wonderfull song. So now I came to the computer, and I get online. And chat with everyone online.
Everyone is so depressed. Everyone has problems with his or her girlfriend. And yet again the whole Lizz thing is happening. You know... The one where they are like "Oh Lizz is so great" "Oh I think I love Lizz" etc. Ecept isn't Lizz. Its The sweetest girl named Vanessa. I can actully understand, but I do in fact get jelious when people IM me to say "Wow, I love Vanessa". FUCKING CUT IT OUT~!
I love everyone talking to me. I feel wanted. But not when they tell me the same fucking story. I feel so ignored even invisible. For example Spongebob was saying how much a good friend Vanessa is. Hes only talked to her online. Im the one that went out to breakfast with him at 6am. I stuck up for him when he was about to get kicked of the team. I even said that and he said "Not everyone is like you, Shane" than I said "no, their somehow better." Then he changed the subject.
I just want people to notice that I do exsist. I started DDR to be noticed. And now the DDR people are starting the same crap I have at school. Im so sick of everyone and their crap. I have my few friend that know better than to start that shit with me, and I treasure them.
Im sick of being a nobody, but I guess it will never change any way that I look at it. I guess Ill have to stay as "Oh its that DDR chick" or "Kaze's girlfriend" or "Lizz's friend". Ill get over it. Anyways... Im going now, I leaked my thoughts out for tonight.
I love you Kaze, I miss you!
Placebo - Every you Every me
Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion's spent.
My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
My body's broken, yours is spent.
Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.
In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There's never been so much at stake.
I serve my head up on a plate.
It's only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.
All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he [x4]
Song of the day: Placebo - Every you Every me
Mood: Confussed
Seen Pirates of the Caribbean: 3 times
Much Love,
Shane-Dono