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Finally, I find the time to write! This week has been changeing! For the good I beleive. Shylum has been backing off, except once or twice... But its great! I found someone that I really care about and I finally got to meet the school phsyc.! I feel a little bit better, but now I think Im going to call USF's Phsyc. department and get someone there to help me.
I still have problems but I'm uber happy to be with Inyu. He makes me very happy. I feel so confertable around him and hes SOOOOO cute! (Picture above). Me and Touya only have been talking for breaf moments. Me and Lita are getting along pretty well, and Im extremely pissed off at everyone at School. I found a CD that covers my feelings! Its ALL about me I swear! I listened to the words and meditated on them... They are oh' so wonderfull! Its the new Linkin Park CD! I posted the song's lyrics that I like the most at the moment. Its my current thoughts. Right now my currency... Song: My Immortal by Evanescence Mental Stability: Hanging in there Color: Still red as blood Thought: Inyu <3 Bad thought: STALKER Best friends: Killua and Aya Interesting thing to happen: Touya's ex spoke to me Fear: Being alone Pissed about: Momma is yellin at me~! Anyways, as I was saying, I had an interesting time. I met all of Inyu's friend, I like them ALOT! I usualy hate everyone, but they are UBER cool. Anyways, Im cheering up so its all gravy. I feel like a movie, depression and all of a sudden a new bunch appears in my life, specialy that one person that I have little hearts in my eyes for. The things I deal with these days. I'm almost going to tell everyone off and say "STOP TELLING ME YOUR PROBLEMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I have enough of my own! Anyways, So like my mother told me, Im trying to meet new people... Forget my past! Start fresh! So here I am... Starting fresh. And Inyu will guide me!!! Link Park's Easier to Run It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Something has been taken From deep inside of me A secret I've kept locked away No one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show They never go away Like moving pictures in my head For years and years they've played If I could change I would Take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would If I could Stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all the shame to the grave I Would Sometimes I remember The darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go And never looking back And never moving forward so There would never be a past Just washing it aside All of the helplessness inside Pretending I don't feel misplaced Is so much simpler than change It's easier to run Replacing this pain with something numb It's so much easier to go Than face all this pain here all alone Ja, Undefined |