So today I almost had another break down. Geeze... I truly thought everything was going to be okay. I releized everything crashing down on me at Malibu... Well... I guess I cant just say something like that and not talk about it, specialy since I promised Killua I'd write about it....
If everyone didn't know, I have a fear of being in large crowds of people I dont know, or dont like. Well today was HORRIBLE! God, all those people with there smokeing habbits because its 'cool', the people that dress in black to look 'cool'. They dont know anything... They just want an excuse... I felt like the people there were closeing in on me. I was happy around the people I like, but the rest, I just wanted to get them away from me. Also the fact Touya showed up and well, Im mad at him right now. He was saying hoe I take up alot of his time and that he ditches his friends for me... Let me ask him this "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN FOR THE LAST 5 WEEKS!" Not with me... haha... So yeah, Im going to be all alone thise weekend with nothing to do. Gah, anywho, Im really tired so I must be finishing. Gah. I hate everyone at Malibu but the few people that actully PLAY DDr. Everyone else PISSES me off. Specialy the ones that just stand around the machine and flirt... Gah.. really, stop SHOVEING your ass in your pants, ladys. Its NOT attractive.. Makes me nautious. My brain just started to overload, so I took trips outside, and a pal of mine spoke to me and helped me a bit.. Isnt that wierd, someone I wouldnt expect in all the world. She even told everyone to stop crowding me. And you'd think one of my friends woulda been around me at the moment, knowing my fear of being alone. Today rather then just PLAYING ddr, I let some anger go out. So I really kinda... sucked. I usualy do better when I play in anger, but today was diffrent. I was talking to one of Touya's friends, and I decided to tell him everything. I felt kind of bad to just spill on him, But its true that I have been crying in my classes for no apparent reason... Geeze, So right now I have so meny problems. Touya, People problem, friend problem, trust problem, school problem, home problem, yeaah... Name it...Anyways, the picture I posted I a picture Aya drew of me! I love it sooooooooo much.... Im not posteing anything special.. Iwas going to poste a poem I wrote, but I think i suck at poetry... Meh... Ja, Undefined |