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Well, alot of you herd my little problem, heh heh... Well lets just say, my life is going back in order in a messy way. Hmm... Well, let me get to the begining of the day to the end....
It started a few days ago, the insomnia that is. I havnt slept for 4 days going on 5... Yeah, so even yesterday I was almost in tears trying to handle it. ANyways, When I got on campus, I looked down and noticed for the first time I had been wearing the same fucking clothes for the past 3 days! OMG! My memory really needs sleep... So I freak out, and all of a sudden I feel super dirty. So when I got in first period, I just started crying... I sat down in the corner and cried, and my teacher was like "Everyone go next door and clean!" So I did, I passed Skuld who gave me a quick hug. I was missarable. So I went to my teachers office and said "Can I have a pass to the school phsycologist" So she let me, and when I got to guidance they said she was out, so I left a note. During the next 2 periods I was just thinking... and crying... thinking.. and crying. At lunch a pal of mine took me to the library where this little class had a pizza party, so we stole some pizza. She talked to me... Shes pregnat and all so we both have problems, so she gave me her phone number (Which washed off my hand >.<). In 4th period while I was in the middle of my 4th mental break down, my counsler appeared at my classroom door asking for me. She took me out in the hallways and spoke to me saying that ALL (ALL hello wow ALL) of my teachers reported me saying they were concerned!!! So she told me she wanted me to see the phsycologist as soon as possible and that I should be carefull. So yeah, What dose that consider me? Insane? I have to see a phsycologist and now I had weird thoughts. She told me to drop the shitty friends I have and make new oned. So I keep the good ones, and drop the shitty ones and find new ones. SO... It came to this... I decided to break up with Touya. My main dent in my mental area. he spoke to me about it, and we both decided that we were gunna stay best friends, see other people and possibly get back together in the mear future. Im okay with it... Touya makes a really good friend... Plus I accedently found myself in aww at some other dude. Ill call him... hmm.... Inyu! Yeah well, I'm not SUPER SUPER interested in him speaking Iv only known him for a little while... hes a really really nice guy and SOOOOOOOOOOOO cute! I do want to get to know him a little and maybe date him... Not to sure... But right now its Undefined Single time! Thangs have gone okay... Now to things that depress me, VASH! Yes... He keeps flirting with me that dip shit! He tells me that he wants me to give him a seocnd chance, gag... Anywho, thats alot with him. Hes said something to make me feel bad, but id NEVER go back to him... Gahah... Plus, Inyu is just sooo desireable! Anywho... Thats my "problems"... gahaha... Phsycologest tomorrow, Ill write about it... Hopefully my perspective changes! Ja, Undefined |