Maybe I should drop you at your door
leave tonight and vanish up the shore
anywhere but here
It's three o'clock, we're driving in your car
you're screaming out the window at the stars
'Please don't drive me home,'
Isabel's staring out the front window of the Jetta. She's finally
stopped crying; her eyes almost seem empty. Grant died tonight. I
don't think I've ever seen Isabel so upset as I have tonight. With
the exception of her last birthday. I wish I could do something for
her. Help ease her pain. Something I know about, pain. Something
me and Iz have in common. The greatest bond we share. I turn down
the street to Isabel's house.
"No!"
I almost drive into a mailbox, surprised by Isabel's outburst. It's
the first time she's spoken in hours. I slow down and look at her,
"What's wrong, Iz?"
Her eyes are shining with fresh tears, "Please, Michael, I can't face
my family right now. Please, take me somewhere else."
The pain in her eyes has returned, I can't possibly refuse her. So I
drive right past her house and continue down the road.
***
Tell me all the places we could go
then count the headlights passing on the road
such a long long time ago
Blame us 'cause we are, who we are
hate us 'cause you'll never get that far
and who'd suppose that you would go
I've already learned, enough to know
I'm driving around Roswell, waiting for Isabel to give me some
indication of where she wants me to take her. I glance up at the sky
and see the V formation. I turn around and head to the desert.
When I stop the car, Isabel looks at me. I help her out of the car
and hold her hand as we walk towards the caves. We enter the pod
chamber. Isabel lets go of my hand and runs her hands over the
remaints of the pods. Her body starts to crumble and I run over to
her and catch her before she hits the ground. She's started
sobbing.
"Why Michael? Why can't I be happy? Why do I always have to hurt?
Why do you always hurt?"
"I don't know, Izzy," I say, holding her in my arms.
"Is this our punishment? For not following our 'destiny'? For
wanting to be happy? Grant died tonight because of me--"
"Grant's death is not your fault, Iz. You didn't know and when you
found out, you warned us. You saved me and Laurie and Maria and
Valenti."
"But I couldn't save Grant."
"You can't save everybody. It's not your responsibility."
"I can't even save myself without hurting someone. I don't know if I
can save myself at all anymore."
"I'll save you, Izzy."
We sit in silence for a few minutes. Her tears slow.
"Can we leave here," Isabel asks, calming down.
"We can do whatever you want," I say, helping her up.
We walk back out to the Jetta, my arm around her and her head on my
shoulder. This time, I know where I'm going.
***
And here we are
foreign to their world
straight and composed
your sermons I can do without
and I finally found
that everybody loves to love you
when you're far away
We pull up outside of my apartment. Isabel's still not ready to go
home yet. We go inside and I make us some hot chocolate. We
reminiscence. Isabel smiles her trademark smile and I grin. We're
sitting on the sofa and Isabel kisses me. It's not a passionate kiss
or anything. It's one of those, 'you're-a-good-friend' types of
kisses. Then she curls up against me, resting her head on my chest
and she falls asleep. I watch her, peacefully sleeping. Her
breathing is calm. She smiles a few times in her sleep. Just as
I'm about to drift off, Isabel starts shaking me.
"Michael, wake up!"
"What is it, Iz?"
"I need to go home," she says, pulling me off the sofa.
I glance at the clock, "Oh shit! Your parents are gonna kill me!"
"That's why we have to go now."
I grab my keys before running out the door.
***
Could it be we've done something wrong
we make it home to your place before dawn
and she said, 'please don't drive me home,
please don't take me home'
I pull up in front of the Evans' house. It's just after 5:30 a.m.
"Thank you, Michael."
"What for?"
"For not making me come home right away. For understanding. Mostly
for making me smile."
"You're welcome."
Isabel unbuckles her seatbelt and leans over to hug me. I hold her
tightly and she kisses me on the cheek before pulling away.
"As long as we have each other, we're gonna be okay, aren't we,
Michael?"
"We're gonna be just fine, Izzy. Just fine."
She smiles at me again and gets out of the car. When she reaches the
front door, she turns and waves at me before going inside. I drive
off, smiling.
The End