You're there.
Wait, you've always been here.
But I certainly have reason to cheer.
Don't worry, I don't think it was ever a case of fear
It was just always a case of me thinking it was stuff I didn't want to hear.
But now, oh now, 20yrs later, I feel that you are near.
There were times when I called out to you
Some in vain
Some in pain
Others were mere attempts at personal gain
I am humbled now
Really left simply saying "WOW"
My work is still ahead
It is only now that I'm finally willing to be led
Forgive me for my ignorance
I am still ashamed
For how I was, and for my previous stance
I was so sick of the hypocrits
Sick of being preached to
Sick of people saying to do it their way or nothing else
All I truly seek is You and your true Bliss
I am of the logic fate
But realistically, there simply is just way too many things to contemplate
I'm finally realizing things now
And am hoping it isn't all together too late
I've been blind
And I firmly believe even through your stiff hand, that you've still been kind
I only acknowledged you when I had nowhere else to turn
And I thought that was okay for me
But the real bottomline is I need to work harder on acknowledging you all of the time
When I'm sad, when I'm content, even when I'm full of glee
When my grandpa died you were there for me
When I spun my car and nearly hit a tree, you were there for me
When I lost my love, the first love, the only person I cared so much about...
I felt like you weren't there for me
But now I realize, you're always there for me
The wrongs and rights aren't all your doings
And its not my place to judge your work
Because I know deep down you're there for me
And so after years of neglect
That love, that was taken away,
She pointed me in your direction
And asked me to choose Respect
So here I am
I finally got it through my head
And thankfully before I wound up dead
Maybe not body wise, but certainly spiritually speaking
I had no idea how badly I was weakening
You are nothing to be ashamed of,
You are nothing to snicker at,
You are not the battles that religions argue over (they battle over pure jealousy and envy of each other, trying to prove who's interpretation of you is right)
Instead of rejoicing in that you're there for them all day and all night.
You are the supreme
The eye from above
The great creator
The ONE who all of us should acknowledge and love
I had ideas of you
I had jokes about you
But all I'm asking now of you
Is for you to forgive me
And let me live for you
I'm not done,
And I don't think I ever will be
I have a lot to say
Especially now that I have truly recognized you as the only ONE.
But I will end this here
As I know you're always near
I now have nothing to fear
In Your Name I Pray... Amen.