Taken By Darkness
I don't believe in myself,
I can't see myself,
this shits gone far,
too far,
for me to retrieve myself.
So what now?
Turn around?
No way back to town.
My minds fucked up,
all twisted around.
I don't feel,
I don't care,
about needs abound.
I'm gone,
to the darkness,
I won't be found.
My life is dead,
even my head,
hates myself,
I had to break myself,
ruined what I had,
didn't brace myself,
for the horrors of reality,
shooting out around me,
blood running to me,
everything just blew me.
Shit went to hell so fast,
and I knew,
the trouble didn't come from you.
My minds made up,
I no longer am,
the man that I was,
now I'm just a sham,
a shell,
a hole,
of whatever I was,
corrupted and lost,
forever cause,
of some mistakes,
and choices.
Things said and not done,
going here,
and then there,
fun that aint fun.
I'm chillin myself,
and killin myself,
the darkness enveloped,
and finished myself.
What am I to do?
I don't know,
if I should be with you,
or you,
or you.
I'm fed up,
mad now,
going to do something,
what it is,
when it is,
will be another thing.
I'll have to go along,
find myself,
rebuild roads,
and castle myself.
Get a foundation,
make an equation,
filter it out,
apply myself,
and then remind myself,
it's time to change,
to redo,
to see through,
those layers above me.
This time,
the angel aint there,
she's scared,
of what I might be,
hidden away,
my true face revealed,
inside I know that I am sealed,
by greed and lust,
I want all for myself,
emotions will take me away from myself,
the darkness is part of me,
so I am my enemy,
untamable side to see,
vicious as can be,
not thinking becomes me,
risk's meaning eludes me,
thoughts pass right by me,
then I no longer be,
me.
Dale H. Einarson