I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away
His eyes were darker than she ever seen them. She couldn’t believe that he was standing before her, offering his heart and soul to her.
“Sonny.” She voiced his name.
His eyes held her captive; she couldn’t escape from the love that was shining in them, not that she wanted too. She had lost her heart to him long ago; no man had ever had such affect on her. She couldn’t really explain his affect on her heart.
“I want you!” “He said in a gentle voice; meant to bring comfort to her raging heart.
“I want you too,” she stammered, her eyes averted from his lusty stare. He smiled for the first time in days; tears welled up in her eyes as he moved toward her. The walls seemed to be closing in around them. She couldn’t do this! She won’t open herself up for the pain, that she knew would follow.
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares
“Wait, Sonny!” She pleaded suddenly stepping out of his reach. His brow raised in confusion.
“You’re upset and not thinking clearly.” Alexis pleaded, backing out of his reach.
“Don’t.” Sonny whispered, holding out his hand to her. Her eyes searched his for answers.
“I can’t do this.” she said.
“I need you, Alexis. You know that!” Sonny yelled.
Tears cascaded down her cheeks. The pain she heard in his voice was overwhelming. " Please." she sobbed. "Don't use me like this!"
Sonny was devastated by her accusation. "Use you?" He repeated the words with a frown.
"To numb the pain of Carly's death. I'm sorry that she is gone. Truly I am." Alexis stumbled over her words, sharing her feelings wasn't the easiest thing for her. But she needed for Sonny to understand how she felt.
Sonny didn't comment on her words. She assumed his silence meant that she was right about his motives. "You need someone to take the pain away for a little while. I understand that really I do. But it can't be me." Alexis said backing further away from him.
"Do you honestly think so little of me?" Sonny asked in a hurt voice.
"What?" Alexis frowned now confused.
Sonny closed his eyes before taking a shaky breath. "I would never use you Alexis. I respect you to much for that."
She was amazed by the genuine compassion she heard in his sad voice. She knew that he meant what he had just said. "Sonny, you need to get some rest. We can talk in the morning."
I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone
"No, what I need is you.. And you’re bailing out on me." Sonny accused.
His words once again triggered the waterworks. Tears streamed down her face. "That's not what I'm doing Sonny." She defended her actions.
"Isn't it? " he said.
"NO!"
"What do you call it then? I tell you that I need and want you and you're making excuses as to why we shouldn't be together! " Sonny yelled his frustrations getting the best of him.
“Do you love me Sonny?” Alexis asked, they were both shocked by the question.
Sonny didn’t know what to say. He wasn’t sure what his feelings were. All he knew that life without Alexis would be unbearable. He respected and trusted her.. But did he love her?
“That what I thought. You don’t love me. I care to much about you to just be your bedmate. I want more than sex from you. So if your looking for just sex then you definitely have the wrong woman. You’re a man with the means to pay for it.. I‘m just not for sell.” Alexis said with her head held high.
“Damn it Alexis, why are being like this now!” Sonny hissed outraged by her words..
“Like what Sonny… a bitch?” Alexis yelled.
“A bitch I can handle.. But you’re being down right cruel.” he said.
“Am I? Why because I’m telling you the truth?” Alexis challenged.
“No the truth I can handle! It’s your guilt over Carly’s death, I can’t handle.” Sonny screamed.
Alexis suddenly couldn’t breath, her knees gave way. “You Bastard!” She sobbed. She hid face from him.
“Alexis.” He whispered.
“Don’t.” She pleaded, trying to regain her balance.
“Please don’t run away from me; from us.” Sonny pleaded gently.
“I gotta get out of here.” She said pulling open the door.
Sonny didn’t try to stop her. He watched as she disappeared into her penthouse..
“Great! Just frigging great!” He muttered as he slammed the door.
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah
If you want to
Part two coming soon
I used part Michelle Branch's song All You Wanted.