reality's merely what you yourself perceive it to be, it's all a game, just keep playing it, knowing that so many of the rules aren't valid, so many of the dreams are pointless, and that so much of what goes on around you can't affect you if you don't let it...you're really living for youself unless you've brought life into this world that doesn't have the capacity to think for itself, or take care of itself physically
in the former case, you aught to find a way to enjoy this game for yourself, and if you can help others enjoy it as well, then you've done your 100+% in this world...
can't speak for the latter...seeing how i'm taking care of noone but myself...

i follow the laws mainly because there is a point to them being there for the most part...to keep people safe, from themselves and others...in whatever situation...if everyone thought like me, we wouldn't need them, or any lawmakers or enforcers...it would be an unspoken respect for others, no one is above anyone else, we all have our right to live happily however we can do so, so far as it doesn't encroach on anyone else's right for happiness...

i fantasize that whatever i need to do to get by in this life will come to me, as i enjoy it in my own way...whatever comes to me easily, i aught to embrace...if something seems hard to come by, i don't need it in my life...this life's not a fight...it's a freeflowing, easy existance, as long as you keep the right mindset

nothing matters in the long run, because the long run isn't so long as far as you're concerned...we can't comprehend the big picture, because it's way bigger than than our perception allows us to perceive, anything you plan for can fall to shit, anything you hope for can possibly never happen...

"Striving way too hard to perfect something
One little wrong move turns all to hell
Exhausting yourself to wind the spring
Let it go, give up, then all will be well"

heaven and hell are the same place, again it's whatever you perceive it to be


(first conception of this page eons ago in an incomplete, and cheesy thought {below})

i will certainly get my Reverend's License someday....gain followers...yet not worshippers...if they become worshippers, they'll be banned from the church...hehe...
i will also, when i get the time, produce a full outline of my various hysterical ludicrous beliefs....or make up mock ones, for fun.."i believe in Swordfish"..for instance....which is unrightfully stolen from the Dead Milkmen.......
actually i think having my own religion would totally go against the core of my beliefs..........opening minds to see that there should be no boundaries.....gah...taking a book with only small bits of history...word for word as being fact....is totally and entirely retarded.....but....for those who wish to limit themselves to that....for a feeling of "safety"...i'll let them have that...