This Evolution Will Not be Televised
This evolution will not be televised.
This is my own personal revolution
And it's not for yours or anybody else's eyes.
This is just me locking myself in a room
Just to see what comes back out.
This is me spinning my own cocoon
Gonna see if this baby will fly.
This is me turning off all the lights
To see if I can still find my way home in the dark
Even tho my home is not in the same place
It used to be.
And this is what I look like
As a single girl
Making it on my own
Without any
husband/father/boyfriend/mother/sister/girlfriend
To help shape my image of myself.
This is just me
And this is what I look like
Evolving.
This is the full metamorphosis,
The One Hundred and Eighty degree spin
Equalling one half circle
For a full revolution
And it's mine and mine alone
So I will not give it up
To anyone.
Or even share it.
Because this is my own growth.
My own personal process.
My fumble, my sprint, my third down.
My tee off, my lie, my midway, my green, my flag
my cup and my own private clubhouse too.
This is my sport,
I'm a pro athlete in the Game of Life and I'm
training for my personal best.
So I'm gonna keep my head in the game
Not let any sukkas cause me shame.
Or any authorities to lay out the blame.
Cuz this is MY Revolution
And I'm sorry, but
It will NOT be televised.
Not rerun, or scripted.
No test audience, no target market, and no pilot.
This is my free-for-all improvisation
This is using spontaneity to reach my destination.
And you will not see me be measured,
Properly lit, directed, or made up.
This is just me and this is what I look like
Facing the music
Finding the drumbeat
Taking the shots
Taking a good long look in the mirror
And asking myself,
"Hey, how are you - really?"
And this is me
Looking for the words
To try to describe
Just how I am and
Just how I find myself and
Just what state I'm in.
And I can't tell you everything,
But I can tell you this:
I'll be fine.
And you know that I will.
But it's my evolution
And I'm going thru it alone.
It is not for your eyes
And it will not be comercialized
And no,
it will not
be televised.