Chapter 32
Shane hugged her tightly as he made his way inside. She forced a smile and followed him over to the couch. Shane sat, and patted his lap.
"C'mere baby!" He grinned.
Sighing heavily, she walked over and sat on his lap. Before she knew what was happening, Shane's lips were on hers, kissing her passionately. Closing her eyes she kissed him back, as he slowly pushed her back on the couch, resting his body on hers. She ran her hands up his back, pulling him closer. She heard him moan and she squeezed her eyes tighter shut. Just block him out, pretend, pretend it's who you really want.
Shane's hand slid up her leg and then grabbed her shirt, pulling it out of her jeans. She shifted underneath him. He brought the shirt up and off her, tossing it to the floor.
"Oh Keyana, I've missed you so much."
She tried to not listen to his voice, to just do it and get it over with.
"I knew you missed me too, I knew you were wanting this like I was. It's been so long baby, too long." Shane murmured in her ear, placing kisses down her neck.
Blue, blue eyes is what she saw in her mind, full lips and a seductive smile. She slowly opened her eyes, the tears streaming down. It wasn't gonna work, it wasn't Shane she wanted anymore. She had to stop him, stop him now.
"Shane, Shane wait. Stop."
Shane lifted his head. "What baby? I got protection you know that."
"No, it's not that." She wiped at her eyes.
"Then what?"
"I just, I just can't ok." She pushed him back and sat up, her head in her hands.
"What? Again? Why?"
"I-I dunno. I just can't ok."
"What are you tired again?" Shane snapped at her.
She lifted her head and looked at him.
He sighed. "I'm sorry."
She shook her head. "Don't be. I'm just not in the mood to."
"You never are lately. Is something going on?"
She felt her stomach tighten. "No, nothing's going on Shane. Why do you ask?"
"Cause you're different lately. You don't call, we hardly go out, you don't wanna make love or anything."
She rubbed at her eyes. "It's not you I swear. I just need to figure some things out."
"How long is that gonna take?"
"I don't know Shane!" She practically yelled.
"Well Jesus Keyana! I don't know what to do now! Things have changed and it's just getting harder and harder with you."
"Well I'm sorry for not having the answers that you want Shane. I don't even know what they are."
"Look, I'm gonna go, before I say something I'll regret." Shane announced, frustrated. With that he got up and left.
Keyana at there, holding her shirt to her body. She was a mess, she wiped at her eyes. She didn't blame Shane for being upset, he had every right to be. What she was doing was wrong, it was very wrong. Nick had gotten under her skin somehow, he'd made such an impact that she thought about him constantly. Her thoughts her dreams were all of him. It was him she wanted to be kissing, and it was him she wanted to be with.
