I Just Wanna...
Copyright 2003
"You need to be by yourself? Wait, just wait...think about this Mike. I lo...oh...but I love you...oh...I see. Well if that's the way you want it then fine. Goodbye Mike." She hung up and slumped to the couch. She couldn't believe he'd just broken up with her.
Erin Lawrence stared blankly ahead. She thought they were doing well, she must've been the only one. She didn't know if she was angry or hurt more. Groaning, she slumped over on the couch, determined to make herself sleep, when she was interrupted by a knock at the door.
"I'm coming!" She called. Maybe she should just ignore it. Sitting up, she started over, making her way to the door and unlocking it and flinging it open. "AJ!"
"Hey Erin." AJ McLean smiled.
"Hi, what are you doing here?"
He shrugged. "I was in the neighborhood, thought I'd stop by."
"Oh, well come on in." She stepped aside so he could make his way through.
AJ stepped in and turned, watching her as she shut the door. God she was beautiful. He'd wanted Erin from the moment he'd met her. He knew it was more than just physical, but he'd be lying if he said that wasn't a part of it. He'd seen the way Mike had treated her and it pissed him off, he was so much better for her.
"Well, make yourself at home." She smiled a bit, walking into the living room and sitting in a large plush couch.
He walked in, sitting on the couch across from her. She didn't seem right; usually she was full of sarcasm and way more talkative.
"You...alright?"
"Huh? Oh yeah, I'm fine." She smiled again, studying him carefully. AJ McLean was a close friend with her now ex boyfriend Mike. They barely knew each other, but they'd started a friendship of sorts when Erin started dating Mike. Surprisingly, AJ for some reason had really wanted to become friends, he said she had spunk.
"Now, I don't know you all that well, but I know you're lying."
She raised an eyebrow. "Is that so?"
"Yup." He smiled, leaning back on the couch, watching her.
"Well, you're wrong. There's nothing wrong and I'm absolutely fine."
He continued to watch her. His plan, to get to know her better and eventually get with her.
"I've had a really good day, work was nice, I came home and had a nice long bath..."
He licked his lips as he watched as she continued to talk. Shit, he was getting hard just from watching her lips move. He crossed his legs suddenly, trying to focus on what she was saying. Obviously something was up; he really needed to pay attention.
"...And that just went off so yeah, I'm great!" She forced a grin.
AJ sat up, leaning in so his elbows rested on his thighs, he continued to watch her. Why did it feel like he was looking right through her? Right past the lie and into her soul? Well, what he could see through those sunglasses.
He really was attractive. She wished he'd take those damn sunglasses that he always wore off. From what she'd seen, he had really nice eyes. She'd be lying if she said she hadn't been harboring feelings for him for awhile. He treated her a lot better than Mike ever did not that that mattered anymore now. "AJ..."
"Erin..."
She looked at him.
"Talk to me...please." He whispered.
She bit her lip, looking away. She hesitated a moment longer before blurting out. "Mike broke up with me."
He blinked, he couldn't believe it. Granted, Mike wasn't right for her, but still it sucked. Sadly, he saw this, as the chance he needed to show her that HE was the right one for her. He had to be careful and take his time though.
"I'm ok though, I'm better off. It's just..." She sighed. "It still hurts you know? After all we've been through, I cared about him, I really did."
He nodded, he'd had his heartbroken numerous times, he knew how it felt, how much it hurt. Something stopped him, she said she cared about him.
"You cared about him? You didn't...love him?"
She shrugged. "I dunno, I think part of me used to but, it just changed somehow. The way he treated me wasn't...it just...the love faded."
Going purely on instinct and because she looked like she was going to cry, he stood and walked to the stereo, turning it on and finding a station just as one of his favorite songs came on. Turning back towards Erin, he pulled his sunglasses off and held out his hand. "C'mere."
"Huh?" She blinked, looking at his outstretched hand.
He motioned with his head. "C'mere" He whispered again.
Erin hesitated a moment before standing, slipping her hand in his and let him pull her to him, his hands moving down to slip around her waist.
"Let's dance."
"D-dance?"
He nodded, starting to move slowly with her.
"I-I can't...dance AJ." She whispered.
"You can."
Breathing started to quicken, for all the times she'd let herself dream of him in this way, it was nothing to how it actually was. His arms, strong and sure, his hands holding and touching in all the right places. She swallowed hard, as those hands moved up, cupping her face as he started to sing softly, still moving slowly with her.
Girl it's only you
Have it your way
And if you want you can decide
And if you'll have me
I can provide everything that you desire...
She didn't know how she was still moving; her body had gone numb. He was singing to her. She'd seen him do this times before with his girlfriends and to fans onstage, she never dreamed she'd ever be the recipient of his ministrations. It felt good and the song. She loved that song and he was singing it to her and she could tell by the look in his eyes, he meant every word.
He hadn't intended to sing it to her, but he just couldn't help himself, it was perfect. The song was perfect for what he wanted to tell her so badly. He stroked her cheek with his thumb, the feel her of her soft skin almost too much for him. He looked deep into her eyes as he sang.
Said if you get a feeling
Feeling that I am feeling
Won't you come closer to me baby
She couldn't breathe, she couldn't think. He was intoxicating and so perfect. The husky scent of his cologne and his own distinct scent whirled around her in a wave longing. Suddenly that ache, that yearning she had for him grew stronger. She could fight it no longer.
He pulled her closer suddenly, wanting to feel her body right up against his, pressing tight against her. He could feel her curves and the way her body trembled against his. Moving his hands back down, he ran them along her hips, her waist, loving the feel of her. Leaning in, he nuzzled her neck lightly, whispering the words in her ear.
You've already got me right
Where you want me baby
I just wanna be your man
Startled, she pulled away looking at him questionably. He nodded, leaning in suddenly, catching her gaze a second before his lips covered hers lightly, cautiously.
How does it feel
How does it feel
Said I wanna know
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
He deepened the kiss, moving his hands up and bunching up the hem of her sweater in his hands, he hesitated only a moment before starting to push it up, he pulled away from her long enough to pull it off and his lips here on hers again.
It was really happening, it really was. It wasn't too soon, it wasn't soon enough. She kissed him hungrily, her legs going weak as she felt him deftly unbutton her jeans, unzipping them and pushing them down and off her. She stepped out of them and let him lead her to the couch, laying back as he gently pushed her down, resting on her.
I wanna stop
Silly little games you and me play
Reaching down, she pulled at his shirt, lifting it above his head and tossing it to the floor. She wanted him so bad, so bad. Moving her hands down, she unbuttoned his jeans, helping him to push them down, reaching out and taking him in her hand. She was rewarded to hear him moan and she stroked him slowly.
She was driving him crazy; he'd wanted this for so long it was almost overwhelming. Feeling her hand on him so intimate made his blood boil. He pushed against her hand, groaning against her lips before pulling away.
"Touch me Erin."
She moved her hand, pushing his boxers down and he kicked him off.
"Please...touch me." He whispered.
And I am feeling right on
If you feel the same way baby
Let me know right away
Fighting down nerves, she reached out, taking his hard length in her hands. She sighed at the feel of him. So smooth, so hard. Oh god but this was heaven, she was sure of it. Moving her hand down, she ran her finger over the tip, his hips bucking.
He wasn't gonna last long if she kept that up. Moving his hands up under her, he unhooked her bra, moving his hands around and pushing it up. Bending down, he swirled his tongue around her taunt nipple teasingly before drawing it into his mouth, sucking hard.
"Oh, AJ." She cried softly, arching against him, her hand on him faltering a bit.
Slowly he moved his hand down again, trailing his fingers in the waistband of her underwear, starting to work them down her thighs. Gently he lifted her legs and pushed them down the rest of the way and she kicked them over. Bringing his hand back up slowly, he rubbed the insides of her thighs and then very very lightly, trailed a finger over her opening.
"Oh...oh god..."
"Are you wet Erin? Are you wet for me?"
She whimpered softly, pressing her hips against his hand. He pushed just the tip of his finger inside, teasing her. "Ahh, you're so wet, is this for me baby?"
I'd love to make you wet
In between your thighs cause...
She felt herself starting to flood, and she started to stroke him again, quicker, harder.
"Jesus...Erin." He moaned, rocking against her hand as he slid his finger in deeper, rubbing and circling her clit.
"AJ..." She moaned, squeezing him a bit. She wouldn't last much longer. "AJ, please...I want you inside...please."
He pulled his hand away and shifted, resting on her carefully. "Are you sure?"
"I'm sure, please AJ. I can't wait any longer for you." She pushed her hips up his to prove her point, feeling his hard erection straining to bury itself inside her.
Leaning down he kissed her deeply, sliding inside her and groaning loudly. "Fuck, you're tight."
"All for you." She murmured.
"God, I love the way you feel." He rasped, starting to move slowly against her.
I love when it comes inside you
I get so excited when I'm around you
"Yes AJ, yes."
"So good, so good baby."
Slowly he rolled his hips against hers, rocking steadily.
"Hard..you're so hard...god AJ." Squeezing her eyes shut, he felt so good inside her, so right.
"How does it feel baby?" He murmured leaning in and sucking her earlobe into his mouth, pushing a bit harder now. "Tell me how it feels to have me moving inside you like this...mmm...tell me Erin."
Said did it ever cross your mind
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
Tell me how it feels
How does it feel
Said it's been on my mind
How does it feel
How does it feel
Her whole body flushed as she clenched and released him.
"Oh...tell me Erin...tell me please." He called out, his voice breaking.
"So good, so...good. Oh AJ please...please...make me cum." She moaned.
He moved harder and harder against her, he could feel her body tightening around him. "That's it baby...cum...cum for me."
Arching against him, she clenched him tightly and held, releasing harshly around him.
"God yes!" He cried out, releasing long and hard.
Bringing him down with her, they slumped back on the couch, panting heavily.
"That...that was..." He moaned.
"Mmm." She sighed.
He kissed her neck lightly, nuzzling. "Do ya still feel bad?"
"Hell no, no way."
"See, I know when there's something wrong with my baby. I knew I'd wear down that wall ya had up. I knew I'd get to ya." He chuckled softly.
"Oh yeah?" She smirked.
"Mmm hmm, that's why I came over here. To tell you that I belonged with you and you with me. To tell you that I wanted to treat you the way you should be treated."
"Wow."
Baby close the door
Listen girl I have something
I wanna show you
I wish you'd open up cause
I wanna take the walls down with you
He moved and somehow managed to prop himself up on his elbow, looking down at her. "Ya know, I just wanna be your man." He winked.
"You do?"
He nodded.
"Well you got it." She smiled as he leaned down to kiss her.
Said did it ever cross your mind
How does it feel
How does it feel
How does it feel
Tell me how it feels
How does it feel
Untitled (How Does It Feel) - D'Angelo
