Chapter 30
She knocked on the door and a few seconds later it swung open. She watched as Vanessa walked away. She stepped in and closed the door.
"So what's going on Vanessa?"
"You know what's going on." She replied her back to her.
"I do?"
"Yes, you know why I asked you to come here."
Illana looked around. "So you've decided to talk then?"
Vanessa said nothing but then, suddenly she spun around, her eyes cold and hard. "Bitch."
Illana's eyes widened. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me. You're a bitch, a back stabbing bitch." Vanessa muttered coldly.
"Can I ask why I'm a bitch?"
"You're going after my boyfriend!" Vanessa hollered.
Illana blinked. "Boyfriend?"
"Yes, my boyfriend!"
"As I recall Vanessa, you broke up with your boyfriend."
"So that doesn't mean you can just run in and take over."
Illana couldn't believe what she was hearing. "So what, it's ok for you to go out and meet other guys and Nick can't meet other girls?"
"We're just friends."
"That's all Nick and I are."
"Yeah right, I saw you sitting on the couch."
"That's right, we were sitting on the couch. That's it."
"I love him damnit! I love him Illana and you know that!"
"Oh? Then why didn't you show that love? Why did he tell me how lonely he was, that he was tired of being in that relationship by himself? That he couldn't handle it anymore. Why Vanessa?" Illana exclaimed.
You say that you love him
You belong to him heart and soul
Then why is he so...lonely?
Telling me he's had it with it all
Too much for him to handle the...
"He was lying Illana! Lying! I gave just as much as he did in that relationship, if not more."
"Why would he lie? What would he have to gain from it?"
"Make you turn against me!"
"Listen to yourself, you're not making sense."
"You don't know! You weren't in our relationship. You don't know how it was."
"I know about the arguments and the yelling and fighting. I know that you wouldn't listen when he tried to talk to you."
"You don't! You don't know anything. How dare you!"
"I saw it Vanessa! I saw it with my own eyes. You wouldn't even touch him. I'd like to think that it's not your fault, that there's a reason why you're being so cold to him, but I'm not sure."
"You don't know anything."
"I know you'd better learn to give more."
Yelling and fighting over
Over all the little things
I know it's not your fault
But you'd better sacrifice
Before I get too close
"I gave I told you! He was just being picky cause I didn't jump all over him like some damn groupie or something." Vanessa spat, walking to the window.
"It's being picky to want to hold your hand or kiss you? That's picky?"
"When I don't feel like it!"
"Vanessa, how hard is it to hold his hand? Or if you don't feel like it, tell him that."
"I did tell him, and he just asks what's wrong."
"So tell him Vanessa! Damnit it's not hard!"
"Screw you! You're one to talk, your relationship is over."
Illana shook her head; Vanessa knew how hard it'd been for her.
"You never could talk to anyone Vanessa, whenever anyone asked you to open up, you'd just push them further away, and that's what you're doing to Nick. Don't you see you can change all this, get him back? You'd better do it now, before it's too late." Illana warned.
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
Vanessa stared at her.
"Look Vanessa, I know that things used to be really great for you two. He told me, he told me how you took him to church, how important that was to him. You opened yourself up and you shared with him, something that was important. It may have been cool at the time, but now it's not enough, you need more. You two shared a lot, don't throw it all away. You can work on it."
"I will not be the one to be blamed for all this, he's just as much to blame here."
"How Vanessa!? What did he do that was so bad?"
"He accused me of not wanting to have sex!"
"Come on! It was more than that and you know it."
"As far as I'm concerned, that was the only problem and it seems like he's the only who has a hard time dealing with it. I'm sorry but I do not base a relationship on sex." Vanessa repiled coolly.
"You'd rather blame it anyone or anything for that matter except yourself, you just can't accept blame can you Vanessa?"
"Screw you!"
"Damnit Vanessa he loves you! He loves you and what you were giving just wasn't enough!"
He told me that you were
The first one to take him to church
You helped turn him around
But that just ain't good enough
If you're the one he truly loves
"I don't have to listen to this, I don't!" Vanessa yelled, turning and heading up towards the stairs.
"You're not good enough for him." Illana called out.
Vanessa stopped, her back to her.
"I didn't want to think that, and I didn't want to believe it, but I know now. I know it's the truth. He's too good for you and you know it. You're too self-absorbed to see how special he is. And you're too selfish to see that he needed you too."
Sometimes I find myself
Thinking you're not good enough
You'd better get in line
And forget your selfish ways
Or someone else will
"And so, you're too damn stubborn and too damn proud to talk to him, to listen to what he has to say. Too damn proud to except that maybe you do have to do with why you two aren't together now. You're willing to throw it away when any girl, any girl would kill to have someone like him." She was trembling, tears on the verge of spilling from her eyes.
Vanessa lifted her head, staring at the ceiling. Illana could her hear soft whimpers and she shook her head. It was too late; she was too close now, much too close.
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
She was holding back, holding back what she'd been dying to tell her. She needed to know, she needed to know that she was running out of time and that if she didn't act soon, she'd loose him, to someone else.
Sometimes I find myself
Thinking you're not good enough
You'd better get in line
And forget your selfish ways
I think you're not good enough
So someone else will
"You'd better be careful Vanessa, you'll loose him. You'll loose him to someone else. You'll shut him out and find that you're all alone. He'll find someone who is good enough, someone who'll love him the way he should be loved. Someone who can give the way you can't. It won't take long Vanessa, you can bet on that. Someone else will." She whispered, turning and walking calmly out the door, she didn't tell her. Didn't tell her that she could be that someone else.
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
Someone else will
Someone else will love him like you don't
And she'll do what you couldn't bring yourself to do
So I'm telling you to sacrifice
Or someone else will
Or Somone Else Will - By Krystal
