This was
written in response to the August 2006 “Farewell Challenge” by NotTasha: Since this is our last challenge, there
should be a farewell. One of the guys has to say goodbye to someone or
something. It doesn't have to be a sad story and -- if you can put a
humorous spin on it, all the better. It cannot be a deathfic
(at least not one of the Seven). It should focus on any one of the Seven,
but the One has to interact with each of the others at some point -- if not
physically or verbally -- then he's got to think of each of the others at some
point.
The middle
of this story is based on a song, so I guess this also answers the August 2004
“Song Challenge” by JBrooks: Write
us a story inspired by a song. I don't know about anybody else, but I have a whole
list of tunes I associate with the boys and their adventures. Let's compare Magnificent soundtracks! You don't have to use the lyrics in
the story -- we're not looking for songfic here --
but please do include the lyrics at the end of the fic,
with due credit.
Departure
By Helen Adams
As the stage prepared to leave
Sometimes he just needed a
bit more than that.
A visit from his mother always
kept him sharp, but it could be nerve-wracking as well. The same ready wit that provided such
stimulating conversation could rip him to shreds if he failed to guard himself
against it and that mercenary nature had a nasty way of coming back to bite him
whenever he dared to challenge it.
Keeping track of Mother’s
interaction with his colleagues was a chore in itself. Josiah acting like a love-sick swain in some
horrible melodrama could be quite humorous at times, but it took real work to
keep the man from becoming genuinely wounded by Mother’s lack of return for his
ardor. Josiah did not understand that love
was a game to her, just like everything in life.
JD had come to feel that
Maude Standish was the fount of all wisdom, placing her on the same pedestal he
seemed to reserve for all mothers. It
took fancy footwork sometimes to keep the gullible young sheriff from doing
anything foolish.
Buck Wilmington afforded
Maude the same respect he gave to all women, and a healthy dose of extra charm
that had manifest ever since she had once evidenced an unfavorable reaction to
his “animal magnetism”. It was amazing
to watch him go out of his way to impress her and she ate up the attention like
candy.
It was also intriguing to
watch Nathan’s behavior. He had never
quite gotten over his embarrassment at having been conned into making a public
declaration of being a doctor, but at the same time he was grateful for the
cheerful and unbigoted society Maude had once provided to his dying father. It was quite laughable sometimes, watching
him fidget like a schoolboy in her company, wary yet eager to please.
Chris and Vin both viewed
Maude in the same light one would a traveling circus show – entertaining to
watch but filled with too much glitter and light to be real. Quite a wise point of view, actually.
And
himself? Well, that was a bit more complicated.
The driver shouted to his
team and Ezra smiled, waving a hand in response to his mother’s fluttering
fingertips. His expression grew
melancholy as he watched the stagecoach roll away; thoughts drifting back to another
time and another departure . . .
~*~*~*~*~
She was going . . .
again. Leaving him behind with yet
another stranger while she went on her merry way, seeking out wealthy marks,
clever investment opportunities and lucrative games of chance. All the things that were more important to
her than he would ever be.
He wished he were bigger,
older, sophisticated enough to play the game as she did. He was good at acting out parts designed for
the stage of life: the crippled beggar boy, the poor lost waif, the starving
half-wit beaten for his slowness.
Wealthy marks would give a surprising amount of money to those they felt
sorry for. He was equally talented at
shell games, pick-pocketing and three card monte. He could play poker as well as most men; but
that was the problem. Grown men would
not play for big money against a child, no matter how talented, and that was
where he needed to be if he was ever to impress his mother; make her desire his
company permanently.
Did Mother love him, he
wondered for the thousandth time? He had
always supposed that she must, in her own way.
Why else would she keep coming back for him? There had been orphanages in some of the
other towns he had been left in, and the boys who lived in them had told him
harrowing tales of parents who had beaten and starved and eventually left them
behind, never to return. Mother had
never done any of those things. Surely
that meant that she had special feelings for him, even if they were only deep
down inside where she didn’t have to notice them most days.
“It’s time, darlin’,” a musical southern voice called out.
This was the hard part;
always. Saying
goodbye. For as often as he
pondered the reality of his mother’s love, he harbored no such uncertainty when
it came to his own. He knew it was a
weakness, this inability to care only for himself, but
even after eleven long years of life he still could not seem to master his
heart.
“A wonderful opportunity”,
“No place for a boy”, “Only for a little while”, “We’ll see each other soon”;
those words caused the same wrenching feeling of loss every time. He had long since learned not to show his
tears, but could not seem to prevent them from falling the moment she was out
of sight. He still sometimes broke down
and begged her to stay; knowing all the while that he shouldn’t, that such
behavior only annoyed her. She felt that
it was undignified; unsuited to the appearance of a gentleman and confidence
man in the making.
Not this time. This time he would be strong and make her
proud. He would walk down those stairs;
kiss her on the cheek with wishes for good luck and a safe journey. He
would smile and lie through his teeth, telling her there was no need to hurry
back; that spending a few weeks with Great Aunt Catherine . . . or was her name
Caroline . . . was perfectly fine with him since Mother had important business to
take care of.
“Ezra, dear,” she
called. “Where are you? I must be going or I’ll miss the stage. Come help me with my bags.”
No; he couldn’t do it. With the sound of her voice, all of his
intentions to appear strong and uncaring dispersed like so many soap
bubbles.
“Ezra!” she called again, a
note of exasperation in her voice. “Hurry up, darlin’. I haven’t got all day.”
Hunching tightly into the
hiding place he had found; a cabinet tucked into the landing between the first
and second floors, he watched her settle a piece of luggage atop the already
large pile next to the door. This house
was larger than most of the places he stayed at; filled with all sorts of nooks
large enough to hide a slightly undersized boy.
It would be an interesting place to explore later; after Mother was
gone; after the sharp sting of missing her had faded to the usual dull ache and
a sense of boredom came to overtake the one of loss. He had a perfect vantage point of the front
door from here; seeing without being seen.
Placing a slender hand upon
her hip, Maude craned her neck to see up the stairs, a tiny frown line forming
between her eyes when no son appeared with a crash of clattering boots and
breathless apologies. “That child,” she
sighed, shaking her head.
He watched as another woman,
Great-Aunt Whatsername, appeared and called out for a
pair of servants to assist with her niece’s luggage. The two negro boys
who answered the call looked as though they might collapse under the weight of
the bags they carried, but they manfully carted each and every piece out to the
carriage, not dropping a single one. All
the while, his mother waited; the light tapping of her shoe the only sign of
her displeasure at his non-appearance.
“You have a good trip, dear,”
the older woman said, kissing Maude on her rosy cheek. “We’ll see you when you get back.”
She nodded gracefully. “When
Ezra appears from wherever he’s wandered off to, please tell him he may expect
a letter from me soon.”
“Of
course, dear.”
His heart seemed to freeze
inside his chest. A letter, she had
said. Not a wire or a telegram. That meant she was expecting be gone a long
while; much longer than the two or three weeks she had initially proposed.
Mother’s eyes again rose
toward the landing and for a moment the polished façade of uncaring cracked,
allowing sadness to shine clearly in her beautiful face. “Goodbye, my sweet boy,” she said, the words mouthed
without voice, allowing no hint of her feelings to be revealed to the old woman
embracing her in farewell.
She turned and left the
house, closing the door behind her. The
soft click of the latch seemed to echo up the staircase and Ezra could take no
more. Worming out of his hiding spot, he
bolted down the stairs and flung the door open, startling his great-aunt into a
squeak of alarm.
“Mother, wait!” he
called.
She paused, too-serene face
relaxing into a smile as he caught up to the carriage.
Deciding that a lecture on
gentlemanly manners and keeping up proper appearances was worth the risk, Ezra
flung both arms around his mother’s neck and held on tightly. “I love you, Mother.”
For a moment, she returned
the embrace, then she pushed him away and studied
him. He was still smaller than many boys
his age, but had lately been growing and the top of his head was now even with
her chin. Where would it reach by the
time she returned?
Surprising him, she gave no
admonishment for his overtly emotional display.
Instead she simply stroked his cheek with one gloved hand and said, “Be a good boy, darlin’. We’ll see
each other soon.”
He nodded. The words stung, as always, reminding him
that it would likely be a long time until their next reunion, but somehow the
pain was not as bad as usual. Perhaps he
was finally outgrowing it. “Take care
of yourself.”
She smiled. “I always do, son.”
With a swish of her
voluminous maroon skirts, she was in the carriage and on her way. He stood for a long moment after the vehicle
was gone, then turned to face the house feeling that perhaps there was time
enough to do some exploring before supper.
~*~*~*~*~
“Penny for
your thoughts?”
Ezra started, surprised to
find JD Dunne standing directly in front of him, looking at him with a mixture
of amusement and concern. The stagecoach
was long gone, even the cloud of dust from its passing having settled. “My apologies,” he said. “I’m afraid that I was woolgathering.”
JD grinned. “Yeah, I kind of figured that. Your ma get off all
right?”
“She has safely gone on her
way to find greener pastures and riper pigeons to pluck,” he agreed.
He smiled as he spoke the
words. Mother would never change, but deep
down Ezra supposed he hadn’t really changed much either. That lonely young boy had grown up, and
grown into the skills he’d been taught. He
had moved on and become independent and yet he still often found himself
longing for his mother’s approval. The
difference was that now he had somewhere that he knew he belonged; a place to
fit in where all of his assorted skills could come in handy and be appreciated
by others. He had found a home.
His smile grew at that
thought. It had a wonderful irony to
it. He had settled down, no longer
chasing after his mother’s company or trying to persuade her to remain by his
side. As a result, she now came to him;
cajoling and threatening; almost begging at times for him to leave the life he
had come to love and rejoin her as a partner.
Strange how things could
change.
“What are you thinking
about?” JD asked, interrupting his musings again. “You have a real funny grin on your face.”
“Funny?”
He nodded. “Maude tell you a good joke or something?”
Hearing the hope in his
voice, Ezra chuckled. Yes indeed. All of his talents came in handy in this place
eventually; even the seldom used ones.
Draping an arm over JD’s
shoulders, Ezra turned him toward the saloon.
“Well, my friend, as a matter of fact I have a veritable plethora of
amusing anecdotes at my command. Would
you care to hear one?”
It took a moment for the
younger man to decipher the statement, but then he brightened. “Sure!
Gotta be better than that stinker Buck told
this morning. Did you hear it? It was all about this goat who . . .”
Their voices faded into the
ether as the two walked towards the saloon, their shared laughter floating back
on the breeze.
The End
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"Is It Over
Yet"
By Wynonna Judd
Tell me when I can open my eyes
I don't want to watch you walk out that door
There's no easy way to get through goodbye
I'd probably try and talk you into staying once more
Or I'd lie and say it's all for the best
Wish you luck and say I have no regrets
But I'm not up to being strong
So I'll wait until you're gone
Is it over yet, is it over yet?
A taxi's waiting in the driveway for you
You call my name, I guess your ready to leave
I'd like to help you with a suitcase or two
But I'm afraid I'm gonna wind up down on my knees
I should tell you that I want you to go
I really need to spend some time on my own
Smile and say goodbye
So you don't see me dying inside
Is it over yet, is it over yet?