At the edge of the sea
I must decree
That the heavens above
Have given up on me
Within myself, I find
The demons no longer mind
They've all left me behind
Walking along a stream
Sitting to wish and dream
My mind has overflowed
And it seeps out of it's seam
Lying in the haze of my room
Nothing to claim but ink and a plume
The air eluded by a deep gloom
I feel the coming of my doom
Looking in a double-sided mirror
It is all so very clear
My anger has been replaced by fear
Alone on a desolate hill
Without contention, joy, or will
My aspiration to this void fill
I cry a shattering shrill
Gazing at the dimmest star
Wondering why from heaven I am so far
I think about death because that's what we are
And leave my soul for another to mar
Jessica Redmond
October 1996
TAINT
I see red everywhere
Is it just me?
The babies hearts pumping blood
Mockery is crimson, you see
I coil around your body
Flesh so smooth and fair
"I'll take you to another place," I say
I see blood everywhere
We have run, in our times
Far away from what's not real
When I see the sanquine drop
Passion is all I feel
I see red everywhere
In my bed, where I rest
Blood rushes from my neck
And gushes down my breast
Awakened by the touch
Of a cold and deadly blade
I see blood everywhere
In this bed that I've done made
November 1996
MY LIFE IS OVER
(An acrostic)
Mine eyes have seen the crucified
Yours hath seen the pious
Like the dawn I try to hold on to doubt
In this retribution
Forgiving my sins
Even though I do not repent
I have seen the day of reckoning, and
Sermons of repugnance
Only divine love could cure this
Veering from the apathy, I take a piece of
Ether
Relying on the source
January 1997
FURY IS A GARDEN
Fury is a black, concrete garden
An animal frozen in pain
My soul turns to stone, my fingertips harden
An angel washed away by the rain
The eclipse stares at me; blank
As though a funeral had just been planned
A foul odor, my flesh lay rank
My ashes spread across trodden land
In the darkess, we cast little
Shadows and siloettes become obsolete
The truth behind my eyes is just a riddle
My experience is burrowed in the soles of my feet
May 1997
MEANS TO AN END
We twist to the sound of death
A bitter silence, leaving pain in it's wake
We are one, bound by tethers
Of an unrelenting fate
Even more enslaved are we
By a mutual debt
Two sould lost in the abyss
Unearthed by kismet
A shared infatuation
A passion for the unknown
When we succumb to the ways of all flesh
We will not perish alone
In our eternal quest
Forever yearning for peace
Only together have we found repose
Complacency; release
Yet we continue our search
For immortality
Denying the frigid hand of time
To sustain our fantasy
A means to an end
Could subdue our fascination
Perhaps we will find permanence
At our final destination
November 1998
THE WAIT
The predator casts a glassy stare to the right
Tracing my silhlouette carefully
With intensity I slip away
Forsaking my identity
Familiarity fills this landscape
Fragments of the past cloud my eyes
Liquid in it's form of rememberance
As static graces the celestial skies
An exsistence much like any other
Yet reveling in exotic plight
An impression of a second
To mark the passing of day into night
Suddenly I regain consciousness
Broken is the spell
Reflections dance up from the street
The rain has finally befell
A flood, a recollection, a baptism
Once again I wait for a downpour
And for the moon to dry my skin
When I wash up on the shore
March 1999
PLEA FOR TRANQUILITY
Virgin love
Unearthed by a sky
Too benign
To pass me by
May there be pacifism
Whence penance is paid?
Is this eternal?
Or a light that's meant to fade?
In every crevice of Earth
Therelies deepest sin
Underneath the moon
Or underneath the skin
When holiness touches down
It sinks beneath the sea
An erratic reminder
Of what we are meant to be
I have no halo
Just the wounds of the naive
With not a word to cling to
With nothing to believe
Though I stand unchained
By my exsistance I am bound
To the true treasures
Of the peace I've never found
April 1999
PRELUDE
A chain of skin
The sin begins to change me
Each face misplaced in the void
Their mystery escapes me
An open invitation to impress
Confess invest and undress
Yet I'm subject to this loneliness
Confined to darkness
Smokescreen lifts, see my design
Deep inside a lucid shrine
Vigil held on each night divine
October 2000
TRUANT OF LEGITIMACY
This time away is crushing me
I've fallen out and all around
Lay myself to rest
You know I tried my best
Now I trickle below the ground
I stand in line for scrutiny
A history that's out of step for me
My sex is a secret
Every day a sacrifice
Together we pay the penance
Though I've already paid the price
Drifting again, losing my senses
Leave your hunger at the door
Morbid reality and bitterness remains
Pouring my lust into the dark
October 2000
MASTERMIND
Driving force
Behind my pretensions
Apprehension
Has always caught me here
Unrelenting fear
On your sweet face
That lulls me to sleep
And makes me wake up almost dying
Spiral down into the madness
Or what passes for it
We don't have time for war,
Or for that matter,
Contemplation
Posses the nothingness for a while
Without condemnation
I will fly.
No longer shall I
Perish
Silently shrinking from ill morning's light
Too blurred to identify
The meaning beyond these vauge lies
October 2001
CHANGEOVER
Engaged to sorrow
For ages a conqueror
Waging a crusade, slow and hollow
Yet rising from the stolid snow
A voice I pray to follow
Merciless entities
Rioting against the girl in me
Will ultimately be
Annihilated
Stalked with their own ammunition
Cages created by sheer squalor
Engross the consciousness of many others
Starved soul brother
Depraved icicle mother
Will they too invest in bliss?
September 2002
