I now hate my dad more then you could ever know. My grandma was going to take me to see 8 Mile but he says no without even knowing what it is about. Just the mention of the name Eminem. I wish that he would just go away. It is bad enough to know the things I know without this new hatred hanging over my shoulders. I wish that you burn in hell. Jeez. All you do is censor my style. It's not like I am going around dressed like a hooker or anything. I HATE YOU.
11.17.02
OMG I HATE ELYSIA AND DARREN SOO MUCH! I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL TOGETHER MAYBE THEN I CAN GET SOME PEACE. Grrr... YOU HAD ABSOULUTLY NO INTENTION OF "GETTING TO KNOW EACHOTHER BETTER THEN MAYBE GETTING BACK TOGETHER HUH?" WELL I REALLY DON'T CARE ANYMORE! SO NOW WHAT? I'M JUST ANOTHER EX GIRLFRIEND ON YOUR LONG LIST HUH? WELL YOU CAN DIE FOR ALL I CARE. DID IT MEAN NOTHING TO YOU ALL THE TIMES I SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE JUST SO WE COULD SPEND TIME TOGETHER? OBVIOUSLY NOT. AND AT THE DANCE DO YOU REALIZE THAT YOU ONLY STAYED WITH ME FOR ONE FULL SONG? AND EVEN THEN WHEN WE STARTED TO GET AWAY FROM ELYSIA YOU SAID "LETS GO BACK OVER THERE" DO YOU REALIZE HOW BAD THAT HURT ME? I'LL ADMIT THAT I STILL HAD FEELINGS FOR YOU, BESIDES THIS HATRED THAT I HOLD NOW. SO NOW I'M STUCK IN YOUR DAMN PRISON. WELL FUCK YOU. AND ELYSIA YOU NEED TO GROW UP. "WAHH I DON'T HAVE A DATE" "WAHH NOW THAT I STOLE YOU FROM LISA I WANT A CORSAGE TOO" YOU KNOW WHAT? NO I'M NOT GONNA SAY IT. Grrr... YOU ARE SUCH A DITZY IDIOTIC BABY PREP. YOU KNEW THAT EVERY DANCE YOU GUYS HAD WAS SENDING MORE AND MORE PAIN INTO MY SOUL. BUT DID YOU CARE? NO? Y? BECAUSE YOU DON'T THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE. I CAN'T BELIEVE I EVER DEFENDED YOU WHEN ALL OF MY FRIENDS CALLED YOU ELYSI--A AND CHODA. YOU CAN JUST FUCK OFF. GO DIE! IT WOULD MAKE ALOT OF PEOPLE HAPPIER.