This Time


By Georgina Johnson

Hello teacher,

I know you in this light for so you feel

soft around me as you soothe and heal.


But now a cynic's smile betrays

cosmic joke naked clowning,

as if holy wounds require

parody in safest hearts.

Yes, witness ruby stains

on love insoucient.

Here, in sweetest holding

familiar pain.


There, my father (feel how I love)

on bridge of rages

intruding with detail

robbing gravity from earth

where mother's art sealed it

and doors of communion (on my command)

slammed shut.

Living both longings,

two truths, fractured self;

and I, onwardly smiling

harbour forbidden fate.

Distrust-

to curse the cherished soul

in mortal frame.

No rehearsal of song,

just fucking freedom

unites that break.


This time, teacher, you too burned worlds

with wreckless flares.

And I, capsule of time

feel mockery of pain

as comic females rest sun-struck

(is that I in the light?)

This time, Angels,

ignite inferno.


Waiting in royal halls,

unchoosing breath of life.

Loyalty a learning

just how treachery snakes

where we forsake the light

in sensuous fear.

Leaving imprints to forgive,

delicate negatives of space

where healing calls.


Hello teacher,

I know you in this light for so you feel

Loyal, as you soothe and heal.



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