Nothing But Work Rantings...

 These are things that I think about when I'm at work and supposed to be
working...




I'm Going to Break

I can feel your arms around me,yet,
when I open my eyes you're not there.
I can feel your kisses on my lips, yet
when I try to kiss back there's no one there.
How can I be dreaming you, when I'm wide awake.
How come when I try not to love you,
I think I'm going to break?

Why do I believe I need you here with me?
Why do I long for that special feeling?
I'm more alone when I'm with you,than without.

I close my eyes and there you stand.
You're beautiful smile, those sparkling eyes.
Don't say a word.
You'll ruin things.
Place those magic hands on my face,kiss me with those soft lips.
You make my heart flutter with every move you make.
I could forever stare in amazement at your beauty.
Is this obsession or love?
Are you this God or am I blind?

I can feel this magic between us.
But it only exists in my heart.
Nothing is actually there.
Only this void feeling.
You don't really care for me,I'm just another toy.
No matter what I want from you,it won't come true.
Nothing between us is for me.
It's all about you.

But how come when i try not to love you,
I feel like I'm going to break?


My Heart, My Love, My Sky...


Why is it that you can watch me?
Why can't I be there with you?
Why does it have to be me crying, begging for your return?

My heart breaks into pieces each time your name passes my lips.
I know you hate each tear but I hate each minute of life without you.
I miss those late night laughs.
Those careless conversations.
There was so much happiness.
Why did it have to go?

I wish it had been me.
You wanted to live.
I longed to die.
Now as I sit here without you, I long to hear your words.

They call me shallow, weird and lost.
I call me missing the best thing I ever had.
I took your love for granted.
I know that now.
I had to be foolish and not listen.
I had to be stupid and sad instead of happy and free.

And now each day that passes your picture is my reminder.
I'm not going to be a child.
I'm going to hold my head high.
You'll forever love me.
And you'll forever be my heart, my love and my sky.


Find Faith in Me

Don't cry.
Don't be down.
I'm here for you.
I'll lighten your day.
Those rain clouds won't be so dark when I'm there.

So, you say you're nothing.
Then why do I care?
I want to see that beautiful smile, those glittering eyes.
I want to wash way all your pain.
You mean more than you know and I've only known you for a few days.
Your happiness means a lot to me.
Even though you try to hide,I can read your soul.
I can see it in those eyes.
We aren't so different you and I...

And when I'm with you.
I feel free.
Not totally emotional, but completely me.
You don't know how long it's been, since someone like you.
I guess you could say I've searched forever but that's not long enough.

I wish I could show you.
Someone knows your pain.
Someone knows your sorrow.
And I'm here to make that go away.
Nothing but good things from now on.
Being there for each other, that's what makes it worth it.



Desirable Passion

If I do this will you care more?
If I do this will things be different?
If I let my soul fly with yours for a time, will it change how you feel?

I can't imagine baring my soul again just to be rejected.
I try to show you, there's so much more. I try to tell you I'll amaze you.

I wish you could realize, that what I feel is real.
And if you don't answer my call, I wont always be there.
Each touch could be bliss, each breath, each kiss.
Just to be in that heaven, to feel it that once.

I can't let my soul be taken, for just one night.
Even though my head isn't devoted, my body is.
Sometimes I cry, for what I've done so far. Yet, there is this block that holds me back, I'm afraid of losing this new friend of mine.
I long to be yours in so many ways, Yet, I know I've already lost this game.
My heart lies dying and I'm the only one to blame.








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