Hello, my name is Vickie , a mum to three children Sophie (7), Hannah (3) and Amber (born asleep). I love all three of my children very much, they are my life, body and soul of my life.
My story begins with my second pregnancy. I developed pre-eclampsia at 32 weeks, unknown to me; Hannah was born by emergency c-section on 17th November 2000. During this birth I nearly died, and spent 3 days in intensive care as I could not come to. After that, I really could not do much for myself, but was very pleased that my daughter was fine and doing really well and I breifly saw her. She was in an incubator, so couldn't be out of the special baby care unit for very long, temperature reasons I was told.
Two weeks later I developed a blood clot in my lung and again nearly died, and I was very poorly afterwards. I was in one end of the hospital and Hannah was in the other. However, she is now a happy, bubbly girl, considering she only weighed 2lbs 13 ozs at birth.
Amber was also born early due to pre-eclampsia, but by a placenta abruption at 34 weeks and it really shocked and scared me, and my family.
Why, I keep asking, after all that we went through with Hannah did this have to happen to Amber, it was so unfair.
My beautiful baby girl was born asleep because of the placenta abruption and weighed 4lbs 6ozs, double the size of Hannah, yet sadly she didn't suvive. Why?
She was lovely and I feel Amber is always with us. Before she went to Heaven we had shared so many things together, our first holiday, Christmas and Hannah's Christening. I know she was inside me but she was still there with us. She is very much a part of our lives still and will be forever more.
We miss her dreadfully and long to see her again.
These 3 candles burn forever for my beautiful children.
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