If
I listen... Who will speak?
Who's words will move you? Make you think? Make you feel?
Certainly not Flame's.
A cigarette dangled from my mouth as I walkedthrough the cemetery.
The hundred year old corpses still rotting beneath my feet. The
sun was making it's descent behind the horizon and everything
was still.
With every exhale I could see the air and smoke exit my lips
and wisp towards the heavens.
Can Angels get lung cancer?
The ground was hard, each step stiff like I was walking on pavement.
I assumed it was a mixture of rotting bodies and wooden coffins.
That couldn't be a good combination for the soil and mother earth.
It wasn't very often that I took the time to come here, to the
cemetery. Thousands of bad memories all buried in one spot.
You get to remember your loved ones by chipped headstones and
overgrown grass.
It was difficult to even remember where my Wife was buried. Which
row, how far in, the longitude and latitude. She was, literally,
a corpse in a stack of corpses.
I didn't decide to come here for her or myself. I decided to
make my way to this valley of death for Flame. Apparently places
like this make him feel empowered, strong, ever living. I'm just
trying to get to know him and his cult of misguided youths a little
better.
The sun was fading rapidly and it wouldn't be long until just
the light posts and the stars lit up this burial ground. Nothing
was out of the ordinary at this point, maybe the darkness takes
to get all of the kooks to come out. Maybe see some of the dead
rising and start to munch on any living flesh that they could
find.
Oh wait, I'm not in Flame's horror movie he calls life.
Halloween is quickly approaching, so I would assume there would
be all kinds of people wandering the cemetery as soon as they
sun set. By the looks of it, I'm sadly mistaken. It seems as if
most of the angsty teens who can't get snap out of a pathetic
stage of their lives have giving up on jerking off on headstones.
If only some adults I know of, would do the same.
Just ahead though... What is that?
It looks like two eyes staring back at me from a distance.
I could hear a slight growl coming from the direction of the
eyes.
Wolves?
Did Flame know I was here?
I took a few steps closer, easily, nothing to sudden. The growls
were getting louder and the eyes were fixed on me as I moved closer.
I could start to see the outline of the animal and I kneel'd
down.
A loud whelp and the beast came charging towards me.
Aw, how cute.
A French Poodle.
"How'd you get out here, girl?" I asked it, not expecting
a response anytime soon.
I pet the monstrous poodle a bit until he let out a happy little
bark and pranced off on it's way.
Apparently I'm not the only one who can get lost in this sea
of stone and rot.
Seconds, minutes, hours.. I don't know how long I was wondering
around looking for this piece of stone. That's all it was anyway,
who knows if the grave diggers played some sort of joke and switched
the bodies around.
It's a quite the joke really.
Maybe a riddle. Is my loved one here? Is it in the plot next
to this one?
We don't care or even think about that though, the dead become
whoever the headstone says they are.
Ah, here it is.
Amanda McManus
Loving Wife, Sister, Daughter
1980 - 2003
The three years of weathering is starting to take
effect on the stone. It's a nice touch really, makes it look old
and dignified.
It's easy to be indifferent when you aren't confronted
by etched words on stone.
Standing over the burial plot, knowing that someone
you loved is right underneath you rotting away. It's quite the
experience. I'd imagine it's be easier to believe that they are
up in heaven, sitting next to the big man having a grand old time.
Or you can imagine that they are in a better place,
not on this earth filled with political correctness, hate, anger,
death and disease.
Or they're just dead. Nothing there, just gone.
Rotting beneath you. It's the hardest to cope with, but it's also
the most realistic.
Death is harder on the living someone once said.
That someone obviously didn't think about what it
could be like to be decaying and eaten by maggots in a tight little
box six feet under the ground.
What about being cremated? Burned to ashes with
nothing left of you but your teeth and being kept in a box on
someone's night stand for the rest of your life.
Either way, sooner or later there won't be anything
left of you and you'll still be stuck in a box for eternity.
I don't know what I was looking for coming to this
place. Maybe I'm just trying to relate to Flame in some way, shape
or form. But there isn't anything here. Nothing that's going to
help me understand why he is the way he is, other then possibly
being stuck in his youth and not being able to grow up.
Parlor tricks, his silly beliefs of an underworld
and a Goddess of the night, or whatever the fuck he rambles on
about.
There isn't too much to the fellow that we haven't
witnessed already. He's been around long enough and failed time
and time again. Why would Illusions be any different?
His witchery and "powers" won't do him
any good against someone trained to fight. We've all seen it before,
many times. He's so wrapped up in his cult he doesn't take the
time to realize that everything he stands for is false and it
isn't going to get him anywhere.
Flame is a "master of Illusions", with
his fire balls, wolves, and all that mumbo jumbo. However, we
all know that Illusions are called that because it's exactly what
they are. They appear to be something that they aren't.
Flame being a worthy opponent for my championship
is possibly the greatest Illusion of all.
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