I am so scared about tomorrow. Scared that I will hear the new I fear the most. Scared that I made the biggest mistake of my life, and that I will have to live with that very mistake every second for the rest of my life. The mistake has already been made, if it wasn't I wouldn't be in this situation, but how big of a mistake was it? Tomorrow has the potential to ruin the rest of my life, to destroy almost EVERY relationship I have. I fear the worst of course, that's my nature. I think my biggest fear is that I won't have the balls to do what I know needs to be done. You know I'm not religious, but god help me!