Are any of you aware what the differnt means of killing youself actually do to your body, during and after the act? Let me explain...
If I were to take a gun, put it to my head, and pull the trigger, it would be a closed casket! When you shoot yourself, the first thing that happens is the bullet enters your skill, shattering it, and sending the fragments blasting through your brain tissue, aiding in the quick death. The second thing is, the gun powder burns your scalp, and any other skin near by. Burns is black, and in the third degree, making the skin blister and bleed, for that constant reminder, IF you live. Next, the bullet, depending on the size, speed, and angle will do one of two things. It will either bounce around your skull, destroying a massive amount of brain matter, or it will plow right through everything, sending your brains, blood, and skull all over the nearest surface. Nasty huh? The worst part is, you don't even hear the bang, the bullet is traveling faster then the speed of sound, you're dead by the time anyone knows what happened!
Next, if you were to slit your wrists... First, your blood would spill quite quickly as your blood pressure is still up, and your heart is still beating. But as you lose more blood, it'll slow, and you would become quite cold, your eyes would stop working, and your arms and legs would fail first, that's just your body shutting down the least important parts to save itself. Eventually your brain would stop working all together because of the lack of oxygen, and your heart would follow soon after. Outside, your color would slowly turn from pink, to white, and then as your heart struggles to keep up with the demand, your veins and arteries will become visible under your nearly clear skin. And for anyone who has ever wondered, sliting your wrists down towards your elbow is not a better idea, because you are not sure to hit a major vein or artery. The best way to do it is the classic slash across the wrist, you'll lose the ability to use your fingers, because to kill yourself you have to cut through tendons, so no calling 911 if you change your mind, unless it's with your nose!
Hanging yourself, not such a good idea. Very painful, and far too slow. Did you know, back in the days of hanging's as captiol punishment, the fall would break the neck and kill the victim more often then strangulation? Not the case with suicide. You don't fall far enough, or fast enough. Nope, you slowly sufficate. You go into shock when you realize what the fuck is going on, and you struggle, making it nearly impossible to get out! You waste a lot of oxygen that way. But anyway, your lips and face turn blue, and your eyes buldge and become very bloodshot. You gasp uncontrolably as you near the end, right before you go completely limp. Any chance of bringing you back with mouth-to-mouth is gone, because you've crushed your wind pipe. And the blue lips, and bloodshot eyes, well they'll stick around, just like the blood red mark on your neck where the rope was. Again, probably a closed casket!
Lets see...jumping off something very high. Some may say its a rush, but the shock of realizing your are falling to your death will probably make your pass out, or die before you hit the ground. And it's not a splat, it's an extremely loud SMACK as your body hits the ground. The smack is air being forced out from under you, as well as every bone in your body breaking, and probably your brain bouncing around in your skull like a super ball. Your heart and lungs would bounce back and forth in your chest, if a broken rib didn't puncture them first. And it'd be a real mess for anyone who had to clean your ass up. What happens when you hit your skin very forcefully on something solid? Like a boxers face to another boxers fist...the skin breaks. It actually rips and is very gagged, hence scaring! Anyway, imagine that on a fully body scale...nasty!
Drowning yourself... Nearly impossible to do, you have to have an extreme amount of will power, or a really heavy brick! Your body and your mind would betray you too quickly. But if you did manage, you can expect some of the worst. First your lungs fill up with water, and you try to cough to get it out, which only lets more in. Drowning is really just sufficating to death. But the difference comes in what happenes after you are dead. If left in your pool of death for too long, your body absorbs the water. It turns black as you start to decay, and you become bloated. EVERY part of your body becomes bloated as the water, and your gasses build up in your body. Your eyes buldge so big that your eye lids cant cover them, your face swells past recognition, and your tongue is so swollen that it fills our mouth and even sicks out past your lips.
Now, I'm sure there are other ways to do it, less messy, more messy, and every way in between, but those are the major ones I can think of now.
If it's all that bad, why do I still think about it?
If no one wants to see me like any of the above, why don't the care or help?
Where are you Kendra?
I need you...