In such a short time a spark became a glow
The glow became a flame and the flame ignited my heart.
The ice and snow that covered my world is again outside
And you, though far away are here beside me.
This virtual love seems so real to us.
We talk of loving and living, singing and hiking,
Kissing and holding each other in our arms.
I reach out but you're not there.
My only sense of you is through a machine
Or in my fantasies or in my dreams.
The truth of living with my love seems far away.
And while living the fantasy works today,
Tomorrow brings more anxiety, isolation and fear
That you're trapped within it too and will soon disappear.
We've hidden our selves from the joys of life
For many years we've avoided it's strife.
We've been cozy and warm, secure in our grief
That there's no one outside that will offer relief.
Locked up in our shells, cut off from the view
Of life's many treasures and the treasure of you.
Of living each day loving who we can be
But just alone, yes, I'm living with me.
I've found you my love and I've grown so within.
Now I see from my shell that my life must begin
To reach out and pluck every apple in sight
And cast off this shell and to reach for the light.
I know in my heart that love's only a door
To let in the light, but there's, oh, so much more
In the world waiting there for you too to take in
Reach out my love, bid your life to begin.
You've yet to discover that your shell is a trap.
It's cozy and warm but you've made it like that.
The pain in your gut is a sign my dear friend
That there's you, undiscovered all cramped up within.
There's beauty , strength and courage awaiting inside
And your fear holds it back and won't let it outside.
Fear brings weakness and sorrow and longing and tears
Life brings love of yourself , peace and joy right in here.
The shards of your shell won't be missed don't you know
You'll find warmth in the sun and in life's wondrous glow.
You'll find by yourself, you can take on the storms
Cause you'll know the rain ends, Cause your strength's been reborn.
Cause you've found there within, a drive to succeed
Cause you've found there within, the life we all must lead.
And I've found my true friend, our true life it can be
Cause the you you've released stands there looking at me.
To my Peregrinis Bellus nightowl (8>) Jan.26,2000