| My book of poems, where they to be placed in chronological order, tell the story of the most troubling, most frightening, yet most exhilarating and rewarding time in my life. The poems chronicle the time of transition from husband, father, research engineer, gardener and actor into a man fully experiencing himself the way nature made him - Gay. Gay and finally, proud to be. My book is now a celebration of what I've become, actually, what I've always been. Some of the poems were written while I embraced a new day, a lonely evening, a melancholy memory, my fear of being to old, the realization of my personal tragedies, my personal triumphs or when I discovered something new in the world or discovered something new about me. They find me trapped in a prison of my own making looking within and looking out beyond the bars. Later, they find me outside looking back and seeing that the fear was nothing but wasted life and energy and tears; realizing that many of my new friends are trapped in a prison of their own making. We built them brick by brick, my brothers, and some of you, finding the struggle to exhausting, will never find your way into the light, the ecstasy of who you truly are and into the joyfulness found by being and living who you really are. The poems uncovered things I never realized about myself, things I never dreamed that I could accomplish. And while some poems cry and others shout, they all led me along the road to discovering who I am. I'm still traveling on that road. I know now that the road is all there is, all I make of it. My motto is still Carpe Diem - seize the day. Carpe Diem Carpe ibidem - seize the moment Night.Owl May 13, 2003 |
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