| December 8, 2003 thoughts • There’s two things I have to look forward to in the future. One is seeing my long lost Marit again, and the other is seeing Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. In tough and sucky days like these, there are some things I have to look forward to, and those things help keep me temporarily floating instead of sinking back into my bogs. There’s nothing else concretely I look forward to in life. I’m content as is. People that think “life will be better in the future” just don’t get it. If your life isn’t good now, no matter your circumstances, no new circumstance is going to make it better in the heart sense; that sense in which things endure and have importance. • I’d much rather have money when I was young than when I was old. I’d much rather not be in debt from school loans and what have you when I’m young and can actually enjoy money than get that good job because of my education but that doesn’t get you back into the black until you’re like 35-40 and by that time you’re almost dead (why do people find that thought morbid? the sun rises and sets everyday and nobody finds that morbid...yet that’s just as natural as humans dying...go figure, I guess people have a hard time admitting to themselves they’re not ready to meet their maker) and can’t really enjoy your money like you would’ve when you could actually live life. • The funniest thing about my peers is one minute their madly in love with some girl or guy of whom they’ve been dating for a whopping 3 MONTHS!!! (note the sarcasm of the apparent immaturity) and then the next minute they’ve broken up with that person of whom they’ve gave so much of their heart to (not to mention lost kisses). It gets even weirderwhen they repeat the process not a couple weeks or months later. Insecurity blunts the mind, no doubt. • How can you date someone you know nothing about also? How anyone could “date” someone like in the romantic sense before they’ve become good friends over an extended period of time is beyond me. I’m afraid if you fall in love with that someone you never really became “friends” with, (meaning non-romantic friendship for an extended period of time in which you learn who they really are) when you get married or what have you, I think that person is going to be disappointed to find the person they married is not the person they thought they married because they never knew that person during a time when that person wasn’t trying to put on a show, or makeup, for the other person. I think Romeo and Juliette would've gotten divorced pretty quickly. That kind of baseless love just doesn't last in this world of ours... • I wish I could have a girlfriend.........sigh...... ...notice the pink background motif |