| November 3, 2003 Random quickies • So I’m gonna stop playing indoor soccer after this season. Last Thurs. night revealed to me that I’ve reached that point that I never wanted to get back to. I got competitive. I promised myself after playing my final college soccer game that I’d never play competitively internally again. It wasn’t worth it to me and in reality stupid soccer games are worthless. I only would play again just to have fun, break a sweat, and get some exercise. That’s why I joined this indoor soccer league and have been having a fun time playing. Well that changed on Thurs. Sure I was tossing people around and playing rough so the other team was screaming for my murder, but that’s how I always play soccer and that’s normal for me (It’s not the first time someone came up to me after the game describing my apparent “problems, and attitude from Hell”. I think that guy was just sore that he was 5’8”). The problem arose when I realized that I actually cared about winning the game. I started playing out of urgency instead out of pure enjoyment. I became competitive concerning something so not worth that sort of emotional effort. And so now I will become like Galadriel and I will diminish and leave my athletic career behind me. It seems fitting really. Turning 24, I’m basically at the exact midway point of my physical prime, give or take a year or two. There is only one way to go now and it’s down. I may play soccer in competitive leagues again sometime, who knows. But it will have to be when I’ve relinquished every ounce of competitive spirit in my soul. All that does is increase my selfish ego and I hate that and refuse to return to that. It benefits no one and people need to realize sports mean nothing in the cosmic sense. They’re fun sure, but they’re not for me anymore. I’ll finish out this season, but I’m done after it. • Speaking of sports, is it weird to suggest you can tell if a person is athletic or not just by the way they walk? As suggested earlier, athleticism is of no real important value, but I think I can tell if someone can shoot a basketball good, throw a football right, or run a 40 in good time just by the way they walk down the street. Odd observation. • I’d venture to guess 95% of parents, despite their best intentions, most likely would increase their child’s (non-infant) chances of choking and dying in a choking scenario because of the parents’ health and medical ignorance. Have you ever seen a child choking on something and the parent, looking all frenetic and stuff, goes and hits the child on the back, thinking for some reason that will help? Yes you have. Did you know that action helps increase the chances of the swallowed object being further lodged in the child’s esophagus? Yet these parents in their ignorance have no idea that the heck they’re doing. People, if you want someone to stop choking, the first thing you do is nothing physically. You first just encourage that person to cough up a lung. That way they can expel the foreign object on their own. If they can’t do that and start turning blue and can’t breathe at all, then you commence the Heimlich maneuver. But please stupid parents, don’t hit your child on their back when they’re choking!!! That will not help and will only make things worse. What idiot started that? Heck, picking the child up by the feet, flipping them over, and shaking out their pockets would do much better. You want the object out, not in. • Wow, and I thought I was insecure. It doesn’t take very long back into the world to realize, that despite my glaring emotional insecurities (wishing I had a girlfriend, company, etc.), some people are like past the sanity insecure. So many people my age actually believe their lives are less if they’re alone and not with someone or not married. They actually believe that lie, can you believe that?! Sure I may desire a companion, but that desire will never equate to a “need”. Gee whiz I hate my society and its lies. |